Nothing s gonna change my love for you... by Glen Medeiros

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not to be so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Just like a guiding star
I'll be there for you
If you should ever need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to now by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

3rd United Taekwondo Championship

It was 4.40am in the morning before my alarm rang me up...it had been a while since I last used it...like...hmmm...in the early of Nov for the exams? I drive to the centre and meet up with other people and had to carry all the stuff (floor mat and other equipment to Taman Rasnah Secondary School... We took almost arranging all the equipment and set up the scene for the championship to take place...and by 8am...all the people rushed and got themselves into the referees outfit. I was a bit nervous and it seems to be rather obvious as Ernest (the Head of Court for our ring)and Cheok Wei San (another referee in our ring) asked me to cool down...after I sent out 3 consecutive kyong-go (warning penalty) to a fighter and Ernest said I was too harsh LOL XD but since then I cooled down a bit...and gave out lesser warning penalty haha but it just seems that all the matches I refereed had got some really tough fighter, and in one of the matches, the fighter twice got the medic over...and eventually gave up the match... After all the matches were finished, the seniors battle started and all the involved referees quickly changed their clothes and put on the sparring equipment and fought against each other. That was the highlights of the championship, the brilliant stuff of the whole championship. Then we again packed and cleaned up the hall and then moved the equipment back to centre before we could have our dinner together in a restaurant. Nice meal after a tired day...

My summer holiday so far...

I am tired...worn out...I haven't been to any karaoke or even a movie!!! It have been 3 weeks since I am back, and I only played basketball once... Taekwondo training, taekwondo refereeing training, property talk...then golf training...then checking workers for unlimited, random hours under the hot suns... and now coming right up a bird nest managing seminar??? Zzz... I am tired... I feel it mentally... I can still play Wii games or PS2 everyday...but I just a bit worn out... I don't know why...coming back home...I guess does make me feel relaxed and enjoyed...but coming back here makes me learn a bit more things...from a lot of different perspectives... Learning bits and bits, knowing little by little...from sweating under the hot suns...getting sun burn...then others smirking at my clumziness of learning... Zzz...My arrogance dashed... Yet I feel satisfying. I mean this is probably all I want...to do stuffs and learn all those stuff...and probably and hopefully be someone as successful as my dad. I am always amazed by his knowledge...I mean...he knows so much...I always wonder...why does he knows this? How does he knows that? He is getting older...and my mum is worry that his health might suffer from his lengthy working hours. That is the reason why before I even get back home, my dad already make it clear that I will be back watching the workers...instead of him...so yea...I am pretty much the supervisor...a young one perhaps. I think I can finally understand how tiring adult world is... But I will keep learning everything... Learning it now will prepare me for the future... Hopefully...

丁当 我爱他 I love her...

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好


我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂


我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我和他不再属于这个地方

最初的天堂最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
让他知道我可以很

王力宏 Lee Hom - Everything Lyrics 歌詞

故事裡的 起承轉合 有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇

原來波折 才暗示著 該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻

就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際 求和相遇 有多少機率
多少煙火 墜落無痕跡

因為幸福 沒有捷徑 難免要繞道
不被看好 越是要走到

就算別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因 我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Liar...bluff the whole world...but himself...

I am a great liar... The fact that I am a gemini makes me a somewhat more of a double personality person...and so it is at times too hard to know what I am actually thinking... Still, at times despite the fact that I can easily guide my friends to the point I want them to think...in other words...despite me able to hide my emotions and bluff them... In the end, I am just the biggest loser...

One who could have easily cheat the whole world but himself...Is it actually a smart thing to do? Sometimes, it is heartbroken for me to scold someone off...saying hard words like...'fuck off'...and regret later... I can't change the truth...and truth at times...is really hurtful...

What about memories... That is the worst... Time and time again...I have been haunted with memories of the past...unable to move on...One have often tell me to forget about all those memories... I tried...well...I find it hard though...but i believe time heals...but how long it will be needed? I don't know...

I never blame God...What goes around comes around... I truly understand the feeling of someone now...How she felt back then... It is true...I was just too inconsiderate at that time...and I pay for it... I deserve it!!! Thinking back, I could not imagine how terrible I am...I was mean...How she might be feeling back then, was something I could never ever forgive myself... I realize that no matter what i do now...those wound would not be healed jz like that. I am just thankful that... she still think of me as a friend...despite all the things I have done...

Angel and demon shows in a moment... She is an angel... and me? I am just the demon...

The Launching of Mercedes Benz E-series and Julie Woon

Julie Woon is a celebrity who acts in 'Blogger Boys'

Everyone in the photo with Julieeee!!!

My sister was really excited!!!

Another shot of sis with Julie

A shot of me and E 250 Coupe

Sis have a pic with the exact same car too...but with white colour instead!

KaiDi posing with Mclaren SLR

Yet another pose...

The gorgeous Mclaren SLR

Spread you wings and Fly away!!! =)

SL 300

The main character of the night-E 300!!!



On 28th of Nov, my family and I went to Naza branch in Klang for the launching of Mercedes Benz E-series. We had a decent buffet dinner...which included some nice roasted lamb meat, salmon fish, king prawn, and some Japanese dishes too. While we were eating, my sister noticed a gorgeous-looking lady and suspecting that she was the celebrity named Julie Woon. It was a surprise later when my brother actually had the courage to ask that lady and it turned out to be that SHE WAS JULIE WOON!!! Quickly, we snapped some photos of us and Julie. Wao...looking at her closely, she was really hot!!! Her body shape was just marvelous!!! The launching was quite...hmmm...normal? I meant that it was just normal like normal other launching...but the cars were really cool...though I had seen them the day before too... The best part about this launching was the fact that so many hottie were there posting with the cars!!! LOL!!! So...it made those cars even more attracting wakaka ;D Sadly though...since at first I did not take the launching seriously...I did not had a much better-looking outfit for that night, and it was quite embarrassing to take a picture with them...haiz... anyway...above are some pictures taken on that night ;P

刘若英:很爱很爱你...Really really love you

想为你做件事,让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字.
求时间趁著你不注意的时候,
悄悄地把这种子酿成果实.
我想她的确是更适合你的女子,
我太不够温柔优雅成熟懂事.
如果我退回到好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子

很爱很爱你,所以愿意舍得让你,



往更多幸福的地方飞去.



很爱很爱你,只有让你拥有爱情,



我才安心.
看著她走向你,那幅画面多美丽.
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜.
地球上两个人能相遇不容易,
做不成你的情人我仍感激.


很爱很爱你,所以愿意不牵绊你,

飞向幸福的地方去.

很爱很爱你,只有让你拥有爱情,

我才安心.

Summer plan!!!

After more than a week not blogging...I have actually went on a blogging spree by creating 2 post consecutively... Well...this is a post regarding what I will be doing during my summer...a seemingly busy summer plan...

First thing... Helping my dad to watch over the construction site...for a few minutes ;P My dad wanted me, who he said will be very free to watch the construction on a daily basis...God damn it...well I guess it couldn't be helped...but after all it is not like I will be watching them the whole day... My dad even said he want to turn me into a negro before going back to Australia...NO WAY!!! XD

Secondly, GOLF!!! Yup yup...it is golf...I want to learn golf during this 3 months period in Malaysia... My dad will definitely be very helpful in this haha...it has been a while for him to persuade me to play it!!! How funny when he even said that he will ask someone to coach me, saying he want me to have a perfect swing and all... Looks like when it comes to golf, everything is fine for him...haha!!! My mum, who has always oppose my dad being involved in golf so much...was like...huh? Not working part time but instead spend money on golf? Well...I told them the reason I want to learn and they happily accepted...at least I am sure my dad is haha!!!

Third comes gathering and friends!!! Oh yea, of course, I will definitely meet up with all my friends right? Those include...well a long list...I will just keep it quiet LOL...

Next is Taekwondo!!! i will be learning refereeing for the upcoming Taekwondo tournament as Sir said I am rather old to compete in sparring anymore...he would prefer if I help out and be a referee instead...hmmm...what a great idea too haha...that must be cool~~ hehe...and also I want to attend the taekwondo classes...how good to sweat a bit and be sticky hehe ;P

Then is gym!!! I will be back to gym for workout...don't think it will make me fitter but at least I feel happier going gym and workout...I just love to exercise lalalaa~~ then I will go play basketball, football, badminton, and maybe pool too (and this pool I mean is snooker type...not swimming pool wakaka)...

Finally I guess I might also go for a vacation with my family...but that is something remain unsure for the moment as my sister will have end-year-trip with her classmates... I have suggested a cruise ride!!! I have never try that before, it sounds so cool, classic and elegant too!!! LOL anyway I just want to try out since I have never have cruise experience before haha and it is not like I will be in the Titanic-like cruise -.-'''

One great alcoholic experience ;D

Yea!!! Exams are finally OVER!!! Now I am free!!! Lets talk about something that happened few days ago...I drank with Nathan, Melvyn and Randeep. Nathan had this bottle of Bombay Gin(alchoholic percentage...47%), and he wanted to finish it...so we gave him a help ;P I mean what's wrong with that when our exams are already over right? The funny thing was...Nathan still has exams on coming Monday...well good luck for him then wakaka!!! We started with 3 straight shots of Gin+solo...God hell, the Gin liquor tasted like listerine...and the taste was awful...After that, we played cards!(Chor tai di)...and the last 2 losers drink... Nathan and I kept losing...and so yea... One funny moment was when I was trying to get up...I straight away fell sideway and tumbled down to the floor LOL!!! Then on my way to lift, I couldn't walked straight and then I fell again...I was dizzy alright...Upon reaching the lift...I actually picked a photo from my wallet...thinking that it was my student ID and swiped it...of course the lift couldn't opened..and Randeep swiped his instead...zzz...so in the end...I fell into my comfortable bed and couldn't wake up until Tuck Wah called me up...which was already 12pm... I continue sleeping after that until it was 1.30pm though haha!!! A while after waking up...well...headache and vomit...and I did not had any meal until dinner which I made a porridge... Drunk is never a good idea haha ;)

You Are So CUTE!!!

I chose to waste some my of internet quota to post this up to my blog...this is the best video I have seen!!! SO CUTE!!! I even find that this little boy is so so much like my little brother haha... I am so gonna watch this short video to crack a smile on my face next time whenever I am down LOL... A must watch video!!!

比我幸福..歌手：孙俪 .... Have a better lives than me...

望着广场的时钟你还在我的怀里躲风
不习惯言不由衷沉默如何能让你都懂
此刻与你相拥也算有始有终
祝福有许多种心痛却尽在不言中
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐

望着广场的时钟你还在我的怀里躲风
不习惯言不由衷沉默如何能让你都懂
此刻与你相拥也算有始有终
祝福有许多种心痛却尽在不言中
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐

放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿孤不孤独都别在乎!
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐
放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿...

Painful

The truth...like people always say...is normally not a good thing to know...which is why some people prefer to tell lies instead of the truth. I, for one, just suffer another moment of painfulness of the truth. To be honest, probably the truth has been there all the time...while my friends...all of them...probably with the exception of just one... had been telling me all this while. I was ignorant...was... I face the truth now...knowing deep down that it is just worthless... Regardless of what I can do about it, it will never going to change the fact. It was weird though...but despite the fact that my friends had been presenting the truth to me... I had actually just stood firmly by myself... having faith...believing in myself....hoping... The results? I was...crushed...yet again... It seems like it has been fated. I am cursed... every time I had prepare something for someone I really care... something bad will happen between us... FOR SURE!!! Not once...not twice...but three times??!!! All my friends scolded me all this time...and now, I have lost...they had won... I think I ought to give them an apologize too huh... for being so stubborn... People do change... I guess all that left for me now... are just memories that never go dull in my heart... I couldn't even pass her the present I picked, bought and kept for 3 months... Did the unicorn ever arrive... I don't even know it... Probably the unicorn is lost too... Just like how I was... I will walk alone right now... This is the path I have chosen....

Done...

Yup...it is finally done... My Spanish exams...oral exams and my Chemistry report...Now I have a full week before my next exams...Chemistry!!! The Chemistry report took me longer that I thought...2 days!! and even the words count i had was astonishing as well....3800 words...20+ pages...Zzzz

Now...it is time for me to step up and go all out... This is the time to be serious!!!

I have not start my Biology revision yet...so that is my main focus this week... I will see what I can do this few days...It will be exciting...

Tamia- Officially missing you...

Hmm...

Ooh...ooh...

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go

?Cause this pain I feel it won't go away

And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I've fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at

all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I'm officially missin? you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there's something I just can't do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...

It?s official

Hoo, you know that I'm missing you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I'm officially missing you

1 Month...

Yes...1 more month of suffering...1 more month to go for me to be back home...1 more month for the STPM to start (though it doesn't concern me at all)... Everything...in 1 month time now...

Sigh...I am so tired now... I have been sleeping very late for the last few nights...and this might well go for at least another week... It is going to be much serious now on... First I have test today and Span essay to hand in...Next week oral exam of Span and Chem report...and I believe another week after that will be Chem exam...and finally the Finance and Biology on the following week...

Basically it is like a marathon...long journey but if you are to say anything I would say (might a bit too confident) I think I finally able to cope with it... This might all because of the fact that I am attending almost like 5 to 6 chem tutorials in a week to make damn sure that I really know everything... Even last Thursday and Friday, I have been sitting a total of 4 hours of tutorial and ended up listening to the same tutorial sheets all that time. Stupid you would most probably say...time wasting some would even consider....but I find it essential...it is after the third and final test...and as I seriously screwed it up in my first test...failing at a mark of 43 (i guess...). Thanks to some hard work, firm decision to leave out soccer from my lives (including quitting Fenner team) and huge piece of luck...I got 83 for the second test...somehow I was very relieved...and happy and I know very very well that I can make the last push in my next time and might JUST manage to scrap a distinction out of it...

Things are going alright for Finance...that is another subject hopefully I can score another D from... SPAN? well I have already R.I.P. -.- I have not really perform well this whole semester for SPAN...I could definitely avoid a Fail that is for sure...but I think credit is a reasonable target...Distinction? I guess it is rather impossible for me now... Haiz...I have to blame myself for the horrible first half of semester....where I totally messed up SPAN and Chem... Bio though I have not touch on it...but I will try to finish the studies before the exam (well...for sure right haha ;) ) but for that I am aiming for a credit or distinction as well... basically...this is the current overview of my situation...hopefully everything will work out fine. I need more motivation... It is so hard to really focus and perform at this stage... My concentration is really bad...my heart waver easily...but I hope I can get it through somehow...hope you guys will support me hehe...hope you will too MP,get me motivated...sometimes you might not realize that a few simple sms from you is all I need to get motivated...Alright got to go....have to study for Finance and Span now... Hope everyone will be fine...I wish all the best in your upcoming exams!!! Adios (Bye in Spanish)

Experienced...

Oh well today Ivy and Priscilla will move to their new house, and it well... makes me sad little bit haha... I don't know why, despite having so much experience in dealing with friends leaving or separation, I feel that I could never have done it well. Back in Form 1, I was forced to leave Hin Hua because my dad are changing his work station to Penang. Moving away from Klang is tough for me as I have to leave behind my best friend whom I have basically play with almost everyday for the past 2 years or so... It was tough but life move on...I always wonder what would I have become had I resisted and not follow my parents to Penang... I certainly don't know... In Penang, I join the Kadet Polis and it basically makes me feel more energized and train my stamina well...only 9 months though as I return to my hometown...Klang...and due to the tough syllabus...I know I could not catch up my former Klang secondary school friends standard... Not able to get into the best chinese private school in Klang...I entered the best chinese government school... and there goes my new lives... I learn to play basketball and football...I slim down tremendously as I grew taller...I met Choon Yon whom become a close friend of my since then for now...probably the 6th years? He gone to Ireland though...and I was rather sad about the news...It was so unexpected and suprisingly one too... Nevertheless... I hope he is going there for good sake. I have difficulty dealing with separation again in Form 5...and I tears (though no one notice it except Huei Kim haha...luckily he never tell out to anyone else... Then in Taylor's College, well I dealt with it alright, no tears...but maybe still a bit low...but basically I am able to go through it...but oh well... hope both Ivy and Pris will enjoy their time in new apartment, wish them all the best. Sorry yea for not able to help you move your things as I have a tight schedule on Thursday... See ya!!!

Ivy's Birthday

Those 3 guys standing behind from left: Me, Chia Hung, and Jason
Those in front...from left: Tuck Wah, Ivy, Michael and Hui Wen.

Everyone is having slices of delicious pizzas with sips of red and white wine... well...maybe not just sips...but glasses of wine instead haha ;)

The Cream attack begins... I have planned with Tuck Wah and Chia Hung for this...and Ivy whole face was fulled with cream because of us....The picture is Chia Hung and Tuck Wah attempting to walk silently to avoid Ivy and Co's (Ivy, Hui Wen, Jason, and another guy)capture.

Surprisingly...Chia Hung got caught first, and next up...the picture is how Tuck Wah was brutally tortured with cream wakaka ;)

Ivy posing as she waits for her last prey...the last survivor...CAESAR!!! that is me!!! haha ;)....

Running after just finish my pizzas and wines...my stomach give up...and having a bad stomach, I was caught though in the end I managed to escape...I was being conned and eventually...look at next picture to know what happened to me !!! Look at Tuck Wah!!! A cheeky smile...

That is me...I was fooled and just when I was looking at the pictures taken by Pris... Tuck Wah sneakingly passed the CAKE to Ivy...and so...PIAK!!!

Of course...never forgive traitor...here comes the CAKE!!! and piak... Tuck Wah got a double cake attack from both me and Ivy wakakaka ;D

This picture was taken when we continue our celebration by karaoke!!! We were splited into 2 group, this group consist of from the front : Chia Hung, Tuck Wah, Jason and ME!!! ;)

Summary of this year of university

It has been almost the end of semester, it is just another month left and here I am...about to end my first year of university experience. Yes, it might be still early for me to conclude my first year, but nevertheless, hehe I want to know what I have learn in this year, so here are those new things that i learn or improve.

First of all, cooking ;) Eh-hem...I mean my cook still at a novice level...but anyway living alone in Canberra force me to learn some cooking skill and so i basically improves a great deal or at least learn pretty much from Jason, Ivy, Tuck Wah.

Secondly, I have been a more independent man. Independent as in I can start to be able to arrange my own time, manage my lives and lives alone without help from parents (well except for the money they gave hehe).This gives me much confidence for my future lives.

Thirdly, I have been living in a different culture than in Malaysia, that is the one thing for sure!!! Staying here make me someone who is more of a combination of both culture. I sort of able to value 2 different culture and lifestyle, and understand at which area which is a better pick for me.

Fourthly, I have been improving my pool(something like a snooker) ability ;) It is a great concentration-enhanced game to me. It requires great concentration and imagination...well at least that is what it is for me hehe.

At fifth, I learn more about wine and this in particular, I would like to thank Jason for all his teaching about wine knowledge...I am also thinking to go and drink cocktail with him next time to learn more about cocktail too...though it might be costly...but knowledge is invaluable...well that is the case for me, and wine and cocktail knowledge...for me.. I feel that it will be very beneficial when working as businessman.

The sixth will be clubbing. Haha i never club before in Malaysia, nor that i ever drink wine before...so these are all that i experience in this much alcoholic country ooops :P Those shots i drink in the pub to be honest, is great, like vodka+ raspberry, vodka+ orange juice, vodka+red bull , bourbon+coke.... those i feel are much better than any beer or wine i have in either Australia and Malaysia...and seriously...I can't take any beer in Malaysia...it is so bitter... In Australia, there are so much more variety of beer...Pure blond is much sweeter, but i personally think Stella Artois, the Belgium Beer Jason introduce to me...is very nice.

Ok ok...even though i have been talking a lot about clubbing, wine and beer, that doesn't mean I drink a lot...I just drink more than my whole lives in Malaysia...thats all :D but i never got drunk as i always control myself...what a good boy I am ;P

Oh yea, the girls here are more sexy and good looking too...same goes for the guys as they have so much better body parts than us(Asian). Nevertheless, they are very very open-minded...and believe me...very open minded indeed... Their wearing is very sexy, and they just don't mind at all...

Haiz, one month to go, I really wish my bak kut teh!!! My Malaysia food!!! My family, all my friends and MP very very much!!! Can't wait...though, leaving Australia means I will probably going to experience yet another culture and livestyles again...but this is probably more exciting for me then ;D yeepee!!!

What a nightmare....

Waking up at 6 am when my alarm was set at 7.20 am... I thought that it would be best for me to continue my dreamless sleep...well...dreamless until then... I was entering a nightmare... I was being chased by a murderer who was someone I was so close to and believe so much in... I couldn't do any harm to that person...how could I? The murderer then managed to caught me and hung me up... I was dying...and POP!!! I woke up directly!!! I couldn't moved my left arm as it was numb due to bad blood circulation...though after a while it just feel better again... Yet this time I woke up at exactly 7.19 am, and by the time I was about to remove the alarm... the alarm sounded...

I had never be able to recall a nightmare clearly for a seriously long time now... That was terrifying... For the 30 minutes after I woke up... Mentally I was frozen up still... I thought I was dying...and I felt like I really were!!! I even felt cold too!!! (stupid chilly wind that blows in through my window...)... Damn... last few nights were a rough night which I found it hard to get into my sleep...and now...zzz

Anyway...I better go now... take care

Oh no...if it stands like this....

Oh God...I just finished Finance Mid-sem exams yesterday...and I also had my Chem test results out already...as well as my Spanish...nothing for Bio though as it only have a final exam and reports to account for its marks.

But man...right now...i am suffering from the early meltdown of the semester...Chem is the most obvious case...I got a D (distinction and not DONKEY!!!) and did not fail in any 3 test last year...now...I failed it...what is happening....? Spanish...another D that I got for last semester...as it stands now...I am just in the pass/credit border line...(50/60) line... So now I just realize how much I have lose...from the only 2 D i got last semester...to now both subject on the brink of failing... this ain't funny at all!!!

Finance...I have no more quiz to give out...the quiz result they take the best 6 out of 8...which means i have screwed up 2 of them...and have to do well in the remaining one...which are all tougher....than the previous... Right now...for Finance...I guess I am within the credit column...

For Biology...up until now...there is only a online test...and I just got 7 out of 10...though I admitted that I didn't touch the notes or attend much of his/ her (not sure who the lecturer even is...) lectures...because I feel that it is too easy and a waste of time... Haiz... So I will put the Biology in the column of credit as well knowing I screwed up my last semester report (a fail...) but save it up in the final exam and eventually got a credit.... I will think that right now...my Biology should be within the credit range...

So...If everything stands like it is right now at the end of semester.... Chem (F), Span (C), FiNM (C), Biol (C).... To be EXTREMELY HONEST!!! even if I am a rather casual...and not really care about the results much... That results...is beyond what I could ever imagine... beyond terrible... beyond explaination... How can I even get a fail for CHEM!!! Which is suppose to be my career in the future!!!!????

Just because I used up a month to settle myself back....to calm myself down...the consequences of it...are too great...I stopped my soccer involvement after just 3 games...knowing that I could no longer keep it up with my Chem and Span...and Finance...
Now...I can only move on...what is done has been done... At the end of semester...I will see if my results will stand as it is now... If it is...then I will just say this to myself... " Caesar has died....You are just a scum...worthless..."

Gemini...twins of evil and angel...

My eyes lie....

My mouth curse...

and My MIND BETRAYS!!!

....But then...

My legs support...

My arms that protect...

and lastly MY HEART THAT LOVES...

Evil (eyes, mouth, and mind) vs Angel (legs, arms and heart)....

Whichever side win the fight,

takes control...

And I am just a medium...

of never ending struggle...

between those 2 sides....

A year of changes....

It is me again!!! ;D Oh well...after I have finish writing the random post, I suddenly feel like writing something that is in my mind... 31 August...Not at all a special day...ok it is Merdeka...but end of August last year, I found my first love... sometimes when i think back, it is just sweet and funny...I guess relationship is always like that... In Dec, things changed so much...and sudden...and then of course in Jan...yet another event happened... That...I believed...was the twist of my life...that was a decision that I bravely...or some might say...foolishly took. Now thinking back...how selfish I had been at times... She was hurt pretty badly I guessed... and I had just realized after that...though it was too late...I had to be responsible, I just can't hurt both...I stick with my decision...5 months later...We broke up...I still don't know what was the reason... Selfish was what she said...I guess...what comes around goes around huh? Now, a year have pass...and I am back to the same spot... I know that I have learn a lot...We will never know what might happen seconds later... My friend said that...maybe you should learn how to do things for yourself...and not because of others... I don't know... I have to say...until now...I still don't know who am I? But I guess that is not important isn't it? There is no need anymore for me to say who I need to love isn't it... probably from now on...I should learn to keep those things with me...it has been a taboo now... Who I love...is in my heart...no point saying it out...no point writing it down...and certainly no point making any promise because of it... I will love those who love me...I will protect those I loved...No more promises...no more vows...Action speaks louder than words....

Random

Well...I feel like blogging...but then I have no idea what I should blog about so yea...i guess this should be a rather random post...

Recently I keep thinking what I should do during my mid-semester break (not exactly mid-semester)... this semester is a 10+3 semester...meaning after 10 weeks only we have a break and then continue the last 3 weeks...which in fact, the 3 weeks i guess are exams already anyway...so yea...this is it... That break is more like a study period for us...zzzz...and since i have Bio (100% weightage), Finance (60% at least), Chem and Spanish(no idea...) Most probably I should study during that time...but it will be impossible for me to sit there whole day for 2 weeks to study....no way man...that is the truth, that is the fact...I can't do it...I know myself very very well...so I am thinking of adding little bit of fun...I have ruled out the possibility of going to Sydney with Tuck Wah...That would take a hell lot of about 4 days... Hehe...I was trying to learn to play 1 song or 2...well...when i mean...play...I mean yea...piano... ;) It have been 5 years since I last really play a song...I wonder if that really could happen...thats why i say I want to learn how to play 1 song or 2...not all songs... hehe...oh yea...anyone who has piano sheet...please let me know... I want to ask you if you have a particular song piano sheet haha ;D Please!!!

Well...enough for that...oh yea...My best friend had just made it to the final of a talent show, and won a prize too...haha well...Congratulation Tze Sin!!! I heard that she had stressed a lot because of it too...well well...how pityful wakaka!!! Since she had won something... I guess next gathering dinner is going to be her treat right? Agree? hehe ok it is set then haha!!!

Blue- If You Come Back

C'mon c'mon
Yeah
Can you feel me?
(Baby can you feel me?)
I've got something to say
Check it out
For all this time
I've been lovin' you girl
Oh yes I have
And ever since the day
You left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh, the reason why

So if I did
Something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are

I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybe
I didn't know
What to say
This time
I won't, this time
Then we can
Build our lives
Then we can
Be as one

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me)
Oh yes you are

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side

Should I? Or should I not?

Yesterday i was asked by a friend...they wanted to move out and they asked me whether or not I was interested... 'No' was my first thought, but of course, I didn't say that, instead I just asked them to keep talking. They told me about the apartment and then about the payment and then about the place where I will be sleeping...In the end, I ended up in their room discussing the plan and the possibilities... It will be cheaper...but should I go for it? I mean....I know these friends well...I have no problem coping with them, I can have a kitchen just for 4 of us....and the apartment...well to be honest looked cool too... But then if it is so wonderful, why am I hesitating then? I was thinking about my friends here...I was thinking about my football...I was thinking about other thing we could have if are to stay in Fenner...so yea...I was in deep thinking throughout the night.

We are not sure yet to move into the place...since they have not contact us...but we have certainly made an enquiry about the apartment and my friends are all desperate about it... I am just thinking that it might be good in a way that I can learn to live in a house...sounds strange? well maybe kinda haha!!! Another factor is that it is near city and so I could practically walk to city centre as it is really close. In other words, it is also quite close to the university too... As I will be having a special place to sleep in the apartment, my share of payment will be much cheaper even is to compared to Fenner(cheapest accommodation of ANU)...zzz but that is not the point...so should I or should I not? Well I have reach a decision that if they get the apartment....I.....will follow....but if they couldn't get it....it all depends on whether they manage to find another place....before Fenner's enquiry of our staying next semester....

This is problematic...but I guess can't be helped then... Let just hope this will be a good experience....

Really sick

Since last Wednesday,all of a sudden i continuously coughing like hell...and my nose were blocked as well...bad flu...everything was so random and all out of sudden...without any notice... All i have done for Wednesday and Thursday was lying on the bed and rest...on Friday...nothing seems to go right yet...keep resting... I need to stay strong...However, just when I constantly bombarding myself with panadols, medicine and water (I am like a water balloon in the end)...On Sunday, while I was preparing my lunch...blood came seeping out...REAL QUICK!!! I was stunned, and when i realized it was my nose, I even more shocked!!! First time ever my nose actually bleed...It had never happened before... It is really that terrible? I wonder that myself in the bathroom...my nose keep having blood dropping out of it...It seems like i just had a fight or something and break my nose... Worse thing was... It was not stopping, I stopped the blood (well i thought i had) but when removed the tissue from my nose...all in a sudden it came flowing out again...ARGGGHHH... It was just terrible... I planned to start study on Wednesday and on that day since I was fallen sick....and until now...My coughing doesn't seems to be having any improvement at all... my nose certainly have stop bleeding (of course I have, if not i would have die of excessive loss of blood)...My flu is not a problem already...but really my coughing is really irritating...even to me now...but it is too hard to hold it off.... I will try to get myself second appointment with the doctor to seek for a solution... This week is whole lot of hell for me...lots of exams and essay and reports coming up...screw them...all coming at the time I am sick...

Thredbo skiing

I went to skiing at Thredbo yesterday and it was really great!!! We had lots of friend going along like Jiaer, Chai Yun, Hong Yun, Yen Fong, Chia Hong, Michael and Ivy. We walked to B&G hall to get to the meeting point with other people and it took us 45 mins!!! Oh yea, not forgetting to mention that we walked at 3.45 am!!!! Haha!!! In Thredbo, we went for few high slopes and wauuu...it was so fun...haha and Ivy and I started challenging for the second highest peak... and woo yea, GREAT!!! Everyone just laughed at someone when anyone fell wahaha!!! Talking about falling off...I fell once....being knocked off balance from behind by a stranger...sigh i though i had escape from him...T.T but overally i guessed everyone really enjoyed it ;) There was a time when I want to challenge the highest peak...and Ivy though very scared at first...in the end followed and took the lift up as well...and she regretted after that... The peak...was 3 times or even 4 times higher than we expected...and when we arrived....we were actually at the peak of the MOUNTAIN!!!! HOLYSHIT!!! I bet Ivy legs had been shaking and constantly asked to go back... Me? Haha...I was scared off too in the end by the steepness of the slope wakaka!!! The very few incidents that i saw people carried back from the mountain with a motor car makes me suspect that this is the killing slope haha ;D Well I didn't go for that slope given that it was about 4 times the distance of the second peak... I just thought that I didn't want to risk myself haha!!! There are too many unfinished business, so yea in the end both of us came crawling back to the ground level with the help of lift haha but then the scenary was beautiful too at the peak...so oh well it was still good despite not playing the slope in the end.... Nevertheless...skiing yesterday was really enjoyable...I am looking forward to the winter next semester and most probably I am not going back to Malaysia in Jun next year...choosing to go for another adventure in Australia or even other nearby country instead...Okay then i guess i better go have my breakfast now...see ya everyone!!!

Soccer No More?

Well... Fenner team losed to John 2 vs 1...well although up against physically dominating John team and still just losed by 1 goal with several highly-debated issues... I had all of a sudden lost the will to play for Fenner...In the whole match I was dominated by that one-head-taller striker...who could easily head the ball for the entire games...though still he didn't scored any in the match...

The fact is I have no more motivation to play for them...Some players either sick or just did not turned up in the match...This had become increasingly frustrating for me... and the fact that soccer really taken up too much of my time also become a real problem too...

Haiz...I have constantly losing concentration in the match, hesitating when going for the ball...everything is just not right...I don't like being the one that causes our team trouble...Although I played the whole match without being substituted this time... I seriously could not forgive myself for not playing more aggressively in that game... Probably the coach was right...Maybe I was really intimitated by the opponent's size... that was why i hesitated that much throughout the match when about to make the tackle...

I just wonder what kind of defender am I if I can't keep a clean sheet for my team... what kind of defender am I ...if I can't even defend my own...relationship...

Fenner 1 Burgmann 2

Argghhhh... We Fenner lose yesterday night in the trial match...by the smallest margin and with us giving away the winning goal from penalty spot. Practically the whole match was kind of one sided in the first half (AGAIN!!!) and we improved great deal in the second half. Playing without Isaac (our main striker which kind of play like berbatov style), Randeep (right midfielder), Phil Gatt (left back) and HOLY!!!!(The now CDM)...So yeah...It was obvious that our midfield was dominated... Up front Loo Hao was alone finding space and using pace to seek for chances.... But mainly...it was all defenders in action. Burgmann was playing a bit physical but with lots of beautifully placed through ball...without Holy playing...I was placed in a sweeper role... I still kind of confused between sweeper and stopper...Burgmann had 2 brilliant chance to break the dead lock on either half...and surprisingly for both attempt I was at the right spot at the right time (this phase normally is for a striker but oh well...), i somehow managed to have a touch on both shots and critically both shots path just bent around the post... Auro later made a seemingly harsh tackle...from behind and in the PENALTY BOX!!! God Damn it...Fenner was giving away penalty kick and that seals the winning goal...

Centre Back in prospect...

OMG...OMG...OMG.... Yesterday training was really really like hell... The coach was like a mad dog...giving us all kind of tough fitness punishments... Now my legs muscles are still paining a bit...and I have a trial match vs Burgmann today what the hell??? The coach asked us to sprint between the 2 hockey post for 10 laps....You have any idea how far is it? AND one thing need to emphasize is...it is SPRINT!!! Not jog or run!!! Zzzz....

Then during training i realize coach is going to make some tactical changes and some position changes... I might not be playing... at RB...well...according to coach...I might be going up against the strikers...meaning....me...as CB (centre back). Well... it is not like i never play in that position before...but...playing as CB means I will have to head out dangerous crossing...and well...I can't head...and...even if i am forced to...I am not a good heading CB!!! Oh gosh...however...CB might as well fits me too in a sense that...My stamina is not that good ever since i am back to ANU...Being CB means I will not need to push forward that frequently haha I know I am a lazy bum... keke ;) Now...Holy the supposedly CB will be playing CDM (centre defence midfielder)... The match against Burgmann today is going to be at 8pm!!!! Who the hell place a match at night when the temperature could easily fall to less than 7 degree celcius!!! It is going to be freaking...and I mean FREAKING COLD!!!! Pity me...no extra layer of fat...T.T I guess I will have to wear thick jacket...gloves...2 pants to maintain my temperature haha!!!

Centre Back....lets just hope Tom (coach) has think that the best position for me is CB...and I hope I can really perform...CB is not a funny position to play in...God Damn It...I really under pressure now... Please...NO OWN GOALS PLEASE!!!! WAKAKA ;D Lets try our best to keep a clean sheet then FENNER!!!! Adios!!!

Brilliant schedule...

Well well...I printed out my time tables and look at the time slot...GOSH...Most of the box are filled up...God Damn It!!! Why is my friend's time tables always looked so empty while mine? Haiz... I have 21 hours of lectures at least...this hasn't include the tutorial for Chemistry and Biology and additional lab time for Spanish...I am so dead... If you think the 21 hours are all that i need to take care of for a week, you are so wrong!!! I have additional of 2 nights of work...each about 6 hours...so that makes it 12 hours + 21 hours = 33 hours!!! net ( I put net here because the 21 hours as i have said earlier...may rise few more hours... So 33 hours each week? Sorry it is not that easy...I have been involved in Fenner (My university accommodation) soccer team...each week training abt 2 hours...On the match day we take up 3 hours... and this week we even have a trial match against other opponent...and that will most likely take up another 3 hours too... now lets see...33 hours + 8 hours = 41 hours!!!! Argghhh.... I will definitely be freaking tired and exhausted... holy shit... Anyone willing to change their time table with me? T.T and one week the maximum hours are 168 hours...41 out of 168 hours are very much a quarter of the total time already... Not forgetting that if i sleep around 8 hours per day...it will be 56 hours gone... leave? Anyone please do the calculation please...haiz...alright...leave 71 hours.... It is so little time only...what the hell... and i thought that i am going to have a easy-going semester and concentrate on my studies more... but you know what? This semester will be worse than last semester... However...one bright side to this is that soccer match will only takes place in the first term of semester...so yea... I guess in the second term... I will have additional of 8 hours plus free time and higher energy level...ok have to go...bye! Take care you guys ;)

Lost virginity....

LOL!!! FIrst of all...don't think of dirty stuff or expect anything dirty wakaka ;D I went to clubbing with Tuck Wah, Jason, Ivy, Jonah, Pris and Michael....and the virginity i lost...was that the virginity of clubbing? Well...not sure if that sounds right for you...but since i never go clubbing before which was something Jason tried to force me so many times back in the past...well...I finally went...and well...it was noisy and loud? haha!!! But few things i like...OK!!! NOT ABOUT GIRLS OK???!!! It is the drinks... If not mistaken....I drank...not sure if it was whisky or vodka...plus either lemonade or raspberry...I tried both...and i prefer the liquor combine with the lemonade though...taste much better...at least no that sweet ;) and oh yea...I actually went clubbing the day i had the soccer match...we went at 12 and enter the club at 12.45...I slept at 4am that morning i should say? and I woke up at 9am... realizing i had a soccer match at 11am...great.... The musics...well...some of it were really nice to listen...and quite fun too haha

Then on Saturday and Sunday I went out with Jason...well he brought me around to taste coffee...On Saturday we went Canberra Centre with Ivy following along...and we had coffee and a dinner...$$$!!! Then on Sunday, we went out to Dickson with Michael this time...to a cafe for a lunch... I ordered flat white(coffee) and 'BIG BREAKFAST' ...which Jason said is famous of in Aus...so yea...I had that breakfast thingy at 1.30pm....and I almost vomited...it was ridiculously large meal....The story is...in Aus...if they say is large or big...IT IS!!! Wakaka ;D

Before that we shopped around in 2 Asian Grocery to get some stuff... I constantly seeking his advise on which ingredient is good in cooking noodles...and all sorts of information about cooking stuffs... He is a pro!!!

Oh well...I hope this semester i can really know some cooking...which is something i really want to learn... I always think that a man who knows how to cook is so cool wakakaka!!!! I even now trying to change my job from a waiter to a kitchen hand...but only if i at very least still getting the same amount or if not more pay than the waiter job i am doing right now....hehe...I really think kitchen staff...can learn much more thing than waiter...at least in kitchen i can constantly look at the chef cooking...and hopefully i can learn few dishes from him then haha!!! OK have to go to work now...take care!!! Adios!

Fenner 2 vs Unilodge 1

Today is the first match of the Fenner soccer team...and our first team is the dark horse...Unilodge! Why I say it is the dark horse? Well...according to our senior, Unilodge soccer team is the worst last year...but things change!!! This year Paul, a winger of our team (Hong Kong Youth Team) said that Unilodge had form a HK Youth Team Defence.... This is really something that can change an entire team...not only that...they had started training since last semester!!!! WAUU.... When Tom (Fenner's soccer coach) announce the starting lineup... I was there in the starting lineup as a right back!!! I was quite happy to be honest...

Still we started the match rather scrappy...The pitch was slippery...I even fell down one time while I was defending...luckily they couldn't score that time haha!!! Unilodge on the other side...had some good passing...and constantly tearing down our flank defence...meaning...me... We really just survived the first half...though in the second half after some corrections and reminding from Tom....The Fenner team changed completely.... Holy (CB) the defence tower had been magnificent at the core of defence...and with our defence suddenly holding off their offence...our strikers and midfielders...who are rather scrappy as well in the first half started to attack constantly... It wasn't a surprise when Tristan (MF) knock in the opening goal in a goal mouth scramble. We finally lead!!!

The game continues and we started to dominate possession and started to create loads of chances...and after a while Tom sub me out with Thomas going in... The next few minutes later Unilodge got a corner kick...long pass wiped in...and the opponents just knocked the ball into the goal...simple goal...worse still....I didn't able to recall any defenders making a challenge on him...well...they managed to equalize then... An unexpected equalizer while the defense wasn't alert that time....

As Unilodge spirits started pumping high...Fenner team caught them in a surprise attack... Somehow...Justin slipped past between 2 CB ...let me repeat this...slipped past BETWEEN 2 HK youth team CB!!! and with the ball under his legs still... I had no idea what happened to the 2 CB...they looked totally stunned and pressured...and Justin cooly send the ball past the GK....2 vs 1... Unilodge roaring back trying to equalize...but almost!!! Almost...Fenner extend the lead through Justin If the lineman did not put up the flag at the sideline... But as everyone was debating over the waived goal...the referee whistled and Fenner had won the match!!! Hooray!!!

情歌 Love Song by梁静茹 Fish Leong

情歌-梁静茹

作词:陈没作曲:伍冠谚编曲.陈建骐


时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽也磨成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头潺潺的溜走

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片定格一瞬间
我们在告别的演唱会说好不再见

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久


命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

长镜头越拉越远越来越远事隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会礼貌的吻别

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久

陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌心还热着
也该告一段落
还好我有我下一首情歌
生命宛如静静的相拥的河
永远天长地久
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This is a beautiful song...still there is one part...yeah should be only one part that really reflects my heart
你给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久....

She never write me any songs...thats why I delete the word 'write' (which is in chinese)...but she did send me lots of love songs to me before...Those songs will be my memories now...haha...I really love her but i guess love is not about give and take... Sometimes it is just happen like that...it just can't be helped...through this 1 year of relationship with 2 girls...let me know a lot of relationship...let me see through 2 different scorpio haha!!! Let me realize the cruelty of real world...(LOL like really dangerous like that haha ^^)

Tuck Wah might be right at some points... Never put girl No.1 priority in your lives... I will try my best...to study hard now...I know there will be some who will think ...'YEA RIGHT...' like my sister did...but I just said I will TRY!!! HAHA ;) I want to be a successful man...and to be successful...there are always some sacrifices to make... I will try to do that... I have make few moves in order to achieve that...for example...swaping the sure-distinction Math and Application course for the super hard Finance... That makes my overall 4 subjects combination seems so weird... Chem+ Bio+ Spanish+ Finance... Anyone has any idea of what am I thinking? True...by one look at my subject combination...nothing makes sense....But it is because it doesn't make sense that is good!!! Kind of weird huh the way I am saying it right now? But never mind...I can't explain it here if not it might turned out to be an arrogant post for some of you...or maybe all of you...haha!!!

The trip back to canberra

I was in the plane...on my way to melbourne...and for all that 8 hours...I did nothing...nothing except reading a book about success...and closing my eyes...recalling those memories. It was sweet....and pain... That 8 hours...were so long to pass...

So...if 8 hours in a plane was long...what about 8 hours later on in a quiet...melbourne airport? I was walking around...lying around and constantly visited MacD. For more than 5 hours i was lying on a long chair...staring at the wide ceiling...well...again..thinking back what had happened in this past month....and well...probably what had happened in this past few months as well... Whenever i think about that... I would feel sad...heartbreaking you could say... Those time would not be back... Yet...it had always been at this time of loneliness...that she will always be there for me...which...now...no more....

I thought of messaging her...but a lot of questions going through my mind... I was confused...I don't know if i should do that... Now...even after reaching my accommodation...I guess it will be very very hard to forget about her...even if she was never in fenner...but those 4 months back... She was the one giving me encouragement whenever I was feeling down and sad. Mentally as much as anything...I always feel that she was right beside me....

In the melbourne airport...I looked like the only one wearing the mask after checking in the domestic flight...Everyone looking at me... some teens even trying to make fun of it by sneezing and coughing heavily... I ignored them... again...memories of the mask thingy came into my mind... 'selfish'...'too selfish'.... those words whispering at my ears... I really can't take it anymore... Alone in a huge airport for a total of 8 hours... fighting off those sarcastic looks...funny looks showed by the children... now... I even had to constantly fighting off those whisper...This is exhausting... this was mentally demanding... and i don't even know if I can do anything about it...

Right now...this accommodation...looks so different... I don't feel at home anymore.... The room that I live in...though the setting and all the decoration is still the same...I just feel that it is never going to be the same anymore... For all the reasons... I know...this time... I am going to survive alone... There will be no more of supporting from her anymore.... It is not easy to adjust to it... or at least now...I still fail to do so...



Feeling helplessly...I don't know what should I do now... I keep thinking and thinking...about the same old memories....

It is... so sweet...yet so pain...

Story of Adam and Eve

Adam and Eve were the most loving couple
One day, Eve found out that Adam lied to her about something
She was so Angry as usual gf would be angry if their bf lie to them
She took a stick and write all her unhappiness on the sand
the words she wrote gone as soon as the sea water washed it away
Adam felt so regret about lieing to Eve,
He stayed up whole night writing 100 reasons why he Love her
Each reasons are kept in a medicine capsule
When Eve received the present,
she was so touched and forgave Adam
Next, what did Eve do?
O_O
She used a knife,
Crafted what Adam did on a Rock
The word lasted for years and years
Their marriage lasted till death apart

NO ONE IS PERFECT
FORGIVING IS HARD, SORRY is ALSO HARD
but why is the WOrd 'I LOVE u' can be so generous?
Try to write all your sadness and hatred on a sand
where the water can wash it away
Write all your sweet memories ON THE ROCK of YOUR Heart
That will make you sweeter and sweeter each day

SMILE AND BE HAPPY ALWAYS

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This is a so-called bed time story told by a friend of mine... I feel that it is really a good story...and so plan to immortalize it in my blog...something i want to look back and read again...

Little thoughts going on...

You could say that this will be another random post...yet it has bother me for a while...

Some of my friends are entering universities...and there will be more of them joining us in the university lives...Yet...to be honest...despite i have said to my dad that the first semester for me was just about adjusting to my new lives... I couldn't help wonder again...what should a perfect university lives be?

Well...i guess everyone will say that it is an easy question...but then...seriously I am very much bothered...

Study is one of the priority...i guess no one will argue about that...but then...what else should come with that? Everyone knows that after university, we will have to face the real world... At least i think that way... So what should we do during our precious...probably last stint of our study then?

Part-time job? Is a part-time job during your university lives a suitable one? Some may say that working can allow you to learn to manage your time better...make you well suited for your future lives...let you exposed to the cruel and realistic world... However...working part-time while study means that you will have to cut down you time for other stuffs and possibly even studies...is it worthy? You judge it yourself...

Involved in more activities...through social club or sports club...You will have a much better fitness if you have some sports...better fitness leads to better health...or so some say...social club can offer you a huge network of people...allowing you to build your network and know more people which maybe beneficial in the future... But then...getting yourself involved in any club means that you will have to participate in it...meaning that you will have to sacrifice some time for it... sports for a better health? In ANU, it is a common scene to see people walking with the help of a stick...their legs seriously injured...is that a sign of better health? I hope not...Should the time be divided for it? You decide it...

Then it is entertainment. We could never ignore this segment...yet with all those important elements squeeze into the schedule...how much time left for entertainment? And another important question...what are the entertainments available for you? Depending in where you are...the entertainment you might be involving in will be vastly different...of course...personal interest must be taken into account as well...but not everyone will have the same entertainment as they hope or wish... and the time you spend in your entertainment will affect your rest time as well...that is the price you need to pay...

Probably to me...this could be the last element (let me know if i leave out anything)... relationship... Some might not realize...but most will probably get themselves into a couple during this period. Why not? But then...what will the impact be? You could have a great motivation...your partner could encourage you when you are sad.. and you two could most probably be studying together... Seems ideal, sweet and perfect isn't it? But then what if everything backfired? No offence, I am not cursing anyone here...i just say IF!!! If everything backfired? Lost your motivation? Feeling down? No mood to study? Or if you two are together, busy dating and so slightly neglect your study maybe?

Of course, everything i said is just a possibility... No one knows what will happen...yet for all that i have said is that...is it possible to really fit in everything? I would say ... 'Yes'...depending on what and where you are study... But i will agree as well...no matter what you choose to fit in...you will lose something...that is the price you need to pay...

The most difficult thing about university is not about choosing the correct combination of courses... I will say it is more to the correct combination of your university lives element... Every little thing matters... and every little thing may change your lives... possibly forever.... The perfect combination? No one knows... But...the future will tells....

Sometimes...a dream would be better if remains as dream....

Mercedes Benz S500...my dream car...
I guess...is most of my friend's dream car...Nissan Fair Lady
The porsche...seriously...I don't like it...
Ferrari...Dream car...really...just a dream car haha
seriously...this car is the most beautiful car ever ever...of course...same status as ferrari...just the car i will have in MY DREAM WAKAKA!!!



I went to my cousin's in law house... Well...before this i will say she is very beautiful-my cousin....and when i heard from her father regarding her husband...i was even stunned!!! I can only say...she is very lucky. They invited us to their house warming party thingy. To arrive there....we need to pass through 2 guard house and a touch n go thingy machine...super tight security.... Her house is beautifully designed...though...i admit it is not her house design that make me envy....It is the type of room that a single double storey semi-dee that make me envious... In just a house...it has a gym room and a theater room....and god knows how many TV they have.... i saw TV everywhere... Looking at their house...I am kinda imagining my very own house too you know...but oh well...the road is still long for me to get to their standard... I asked my uncle about her daughter house...how much it cost in total... He said...the house cost 600k...renovation 300k...and furniture probably 100k....and i was left speechless...that would means just this house itself had cost nearly 1m....

Not yet...the dog...doberman...did i spell it correctly? Oh well...it is not one of my favourites at all...My favourites dog...i called them the golden triangle!!! Haha...is of the combination of Husky, Golden Retriever and German Shepherd.... but Doberman...is probably my top 5 dogs....alongside Rottweiler... plus my golden triangle...AND!!! if you ask which top 3 best house-guarding dog will i ever want...top 3 will be doberman,rottweiler and German shepherd... So i was quite excited when i actually see a doberman!!! though...it was way smaller than i expected...the last time i saw one...was in ampang....that one when standing upright...was almost one head taller than me....but theirs...which is a female...was around my shoulder i guess the most...so yea...short...haha!!! The surprising thing was that doberman was very friendly when the master was around and we can even play with her...so cool!!! The last time i saw her through the gate...She was scary!!! God damn it...how different a dog can be....

Then...next up about their house was their cars....if not mistaken...they have 3 cars...and!!! Their family only has 3 members...that is if i include the newly born baby.... I will just skip 2 cars...and straight to the number 1 car in his house...as every guest just keep stopping around it to look at it....porsche...
Well...i knew they have a porsche...my eyes just keep looking around ever since i arrive to search for a red car...THE FERRARI...but there was no sign of it...looks like my cousin-in-law's brother hadn't arrived yet...Still when i was in our car and about to leave...a solid sound wheeled past ours...I looked back...a red house...a red car...The Ferrari had arrived...and i just missed it...

My dad and I was discussing about cars few weeks ago...when i fetched him to airport...a fair lady stormed past us...and i quickly said...'There!!! There!!! that is the fair lady everyone talking about!!!'...My dad's response was rather dull...much to my surprise...'Ooo...is it?' Well...i said...it looks rather cool...and it is a sports car!!! My dad gives me a simple response...'not one if you compare to porsche...or ferrari...or lamborghini...it is just....nissan...'. Again...I was speechless... He said before...In Malaysia...Nissan is one the best engine...and also one of the best sports car brand...in MALAYSIA of course... I loves sports car under his influences...i watched F1 ever since primary school... and i love Benz and Ferrari... My mother even worse...she dream of cars almost every night... Her dream is...to change a new car every few years...sometimes...i just speechless...though i likes sports car...i know....it is too expensive...and also...too stupid to have one...for me at least... Of course...My dad influence me in this type of thinking again... He said before... Cars...is just a tool...and it costs... especially sports car...think about it...how much it cost...and after you buy it...what can you do about it? Do you really dare to drive it around and park at the road side in Malaysia...? Of course...He was right...how can i dare to do that?

Even my dream car...Mercedes Benz S500...is just a dream...I understand that...I saw that car in a big BENZ and BMW sales garage...holyshit...the price tag on it...I never see such a big number before (for a car of course and of course...excluding those i read in newspaper too^^). I understand...there are some dreams...that would be better if remains as a dream...The fear in my mother's and sister face while i was small...watching them screaming in front of gate...and me helplessly in house... Everything comes with a price...and a car's price...is more than just a price tag...it brings status...and of course...dangers too....too bad...i guess this is the reality...and i am just a realistic man...That is also possibly the reason...why...I enjoy looking at other's sports car and envy of them...but myself strongly against buying one...The childhood fear still remains...

SWEETEST SURPRISE~MICHAEL LEARNS TO ROCK

I never knew life could be like this
Never thought that I would be
the one that you would kiss
I never knew love could be so rough
But now I've found the real thing
I can't get enough

The sweetest surprise caught me tonight
Right there in your eyes while I was kissing you
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here
uh~uh

I used to wish, I used to dream
But now I'm living my heart's wildest fantasy
So I began to believe
Because our love is there for everyone to see

The sweetest surprise caught me tonight
Right there in your eyes while I was kissing you
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here
uh~uh

On and on where good things never end
woo~hoo
On and on where we never pretend
ah yeah

The sweetest surprise caught me tonight
Right there in your eyes while I was kissing you
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here
uh~uh
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here

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I have wanted to post other song up that can express my feeling... This song could not at all express my feeling at this moment...yet...why am i posting this up? Well...Memory...this little sweet song is part of our memories... You said back in that time...you wanted to send me this song...You did in the end...You loves this song...the melody as well as the lyrics...It is so meaningful for you... Yet do you know...because you love this song so much... I have put this at the top of my playlist....meaning whenever i play the player...no matter whether i put it in shuffle mode or according to order...i will definitely play the first song...which is this song... You said the feeling of owning this song was simply sensational...I say...the feeling of owning you is the one that really makes me cheers...is the one that only makes this song alive... I truly believe that ...it is still not the end of world for us...just not yet...