Waking up at 6 am when my alarm was set at 7.20 am... I thought that it would be best for me to continue my dreamless sleep...well...dreamless until then... I was entering a nightmare... I was being chased by a murderer who was someone I was so close to and believe so much in... I couldn't do any harm to that person...how could I? The murderer then managed to caught me and hung me up... I was dying...and POP!!! I woke up directly!!! I couldn't moved my left arm as it was numb due to bad blood circulation...though after a while it just feel better again... Yet this time I woke up at exactly 7.19 am, and by the time I was about to remove the alarm... the alarm sounded...
I had never be able to recall a nightmare clearly for a seriously long time now... That was terrifying... For the 30 minutes after I woke up... Mentally I was frozen up still... I thought I was dying...and I felt like I really were!!! I even felt cold too!!! (stupid chilly wind that blows in through my window...)... Damn... last few nights were a rough night which I found it hard to get into my sleep...and now...zzz
Anyway...I better go now... take care
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Oh no...if it stands like this....
Oh God...I just finished Finance Mid-sem exams yesterday...and I also had my Chem test results out already...as well as my Spanish...nothing for Bio though as it only have a final exam and reports to account for its marks.
But man...right now...i am suffering from the early meltdown of the semester...Chem is the most obvious case...I got a D (distinction and not DONKEY!!!) and did not fail in any 3 test last year...now...I failed it...what is happening....? Spanish...another D that I got for last semester...as it stands now...I am just in the pass/credit border line...(50/60) line... So now I just realize how much I have lose...from the only 2 D i got last semester...to now both subject on the brink of failing... this ain't funny at all!!!
Finance...I have no more quiz to give out...the quiz result they take the best 6 out of 8...which means i have screwed up 2 of them...and have to do well in the remaining one...which are all tougher....than the previous... Right now...for Finance...I guess I am within the credit column...
For Biology...up until now...there is only a online test...and I just got 7 out of 10...though I admitted that I didn't touch the notes or attend much of his/ her (not sure who the lecturer even is...) lectures...because I feel that it is too easy and a waste of time... Haiz... So I will put the Biology in the column of credit as well knowing I screwed up my last semester report (a fail...) but save it up in the final exam and eventually got a credit.... I will think that right now...my Biology should be within the credit range...
So...If everything stands like it is right now at the end of semester.... Chem (F), Span (C), FiNM (C), Biol (C).... To be EXTREMELY HONEST!!! even if I am a rather casual...and not really care about the results much... That results...is beyond what I could ever imagine... beyond terrible... beyond explaination... How can I even get a fail for CHEM!!! Which is suppose to be my career in the future!!!!????
Just because I used up a month to settle myself back....to calm myself down...the consequences of it...are too great...I stopped my soccer involvement after just 3 games...knowing that I could no longer keep it up with my Chem and Span...and Finance...
Now...I can only move on...what is done has been done... At the end of semester...I will see if my results will stand as it is now... If it is...then I will just say this to myself... " Caesar has died....You are just a scum...worthless..."
But man...right now...i am suffering from the early meltdown of the semester...Chem is the most obvious case...I got a D (distinction and not DONKEY!!!) and did not fail in any 3 test last year...now...I failed it...what is happening....? Spanish...another D that I got for last semester...as it stands now...I am just in the pass/credit border line...(50/60) line... So now I just realize how much I have lose...from the only 2 D i got last semester...to now both subject on the brink of failing... this ain't funny at all!!!
Finance...I have no more quiz to give out...the quiz result they take the best 6 out of 8...which means i have screwed up 2 of them...and have to do well in the remaining one...which are all tougher....than the previous... Right now...for Finance...I guess I am within the credit column...
For Biology...up until now...there is only a online test...and I just got 7 out of 10...though I admitted that I didn't touch the notes or attend much of his/ her (not sure who the lecturer even is...) lectures...because I feel that it is too easy and a waste of time... Haiz... So I will put the Biology in the column of credit as well knowing I screwed up my last semester report (a fail...) but save it up in the final exam and eventually got a credit.... I will think that right now...my Biology should be within the credit range...
So...If everything stands like it is right now at the end of semester.... Chem (F), Span (C), FiNM (C), Biol (C).... To be EXTREMELY HONEST!!! even if I am a rather casual...and not really care about the results much... That results...is beyond what I could ever imagine... beyond terrible... beyond explaination... How can I even get a fail for CHEM!!! Which is suppose to be my career in the future!!!!????
Just because I used up a month to settle myself back....to calm myself down...the consequences of it...are too great...I stopped my soccer involvement after just 3 games...knowing that I could no longer keep it up with my Chem and Span...and Finance...
Now...I can only move on...what is done has been done... At the end of semester...I will see if my results will stand as it is now... If it is...then I will just say this to myself... " Caesar has died....You are just a scum...worthless..."
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