Poor fitness...zzz

I am writing this post from Johor...my dad's hometown. Along the 4-hour-journey, i had been driving for 2 hours. Luckily though, the journey was smooth and there was no congestion along the highway....and after i knew the fact my uncle had to been through few hours of jam....i wonder how lucky can we be? haha! Yesterday, i went to gym for some exercise for only about 15 minutes....but i was walking out mentally bad...feeling very dizzy as i walked to my car. I guess skipping training of about 1 month did hurt my stamina very much. Then i went to basketball court to play some basketball...zzz, as I could have forseen that time... my shot missed from time to time...even my passing was far from accurate....zero rebound in a game ( not that the shot accuracy was high ).... I was terrible! In the second game, my stamina seemed to be able to cope with the high tempo more and i manage to hold on until the very last moment. But somehow the gym and basketball exercises were very tiring.... and my heart and right knee actually feel some pain.... i really couldn't explain it. Haha...to be honest, yesterday night i felt i might died when my heart feel really pain....well...not that i am a chicken-hearted person haha. You all can be quite disappointed with the fact that i am still alive haha given i am still able writing this post with my heart pain completely gone. Nevertheless, the right knee really isn't that simple though...whenever i straighten my right leg, it will gives out a sound of 'thud' damn....make me so scare nia....i can't imagine myself without my right leg. Anyway, this pain that i feel in my right knee really isn't a good timing yet again.... I am simply dreadful in managing myself ahead of any important events....zzz..anyway, i really enjoyed the basketball games very much... I miss it!!!

Torturous holiday

What is this lives?!! All trials all together then all in the sudden mad of nothing to do?....after busy for entire week...i am now actually have lost all my motivation and in a lost to find something to do. I guess i have too much time and that is very dangerous as i will always think a lot and believe me....when i think a lot...there will always only one outcome and that is always a negative one. Almost every dream was crushed. From the championship to the trial.... really i can't be helped then. Maybe really...there isn't suppose to be a dream for me... perhaps i am just don't deserve to have any. Perhaps i am just over confident as always...always think that i can did well, i am good enough but always ended in a opposite end..... the results always serve a sole purpose- to bring me back to earth!!! I guess i really have to be a bit realistic....

光良--童话....Fairytale

忘了有多久再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

Translation- Reason of my happiness

Wanting to know that i am in your heart
You won't know how excited can i be
A simple gesture between us
And i will feel very much assured of our love
Holding your hand in a crowded street
Your soft hand makes it all sweeter
Happiness keep boosting
And love is started to blossom in our heart
Holding your hand make me feel in love
A promise to be together forever
Under the sky
Protecting and accompany you always
Holding your hand makes me feel in love
You are beside me
And that alone make me happy
Appreciating every second being together
Because you are my everything
Until the very end

You are the reason of my happiness

幸福的理由- Reason of my happiness

好想听你说心里有个我
不说你会懂内心的真正激动
只有你和我简单一个动作
我确定付出的爱不会错
喧哗的街道牵着你的手
手心的温柔是心动的墙垛
快乐在加油幸福拼命闪动
这份花开结果爱在心中
手牵手幸福的理由
相约到永久
在无边星空
当你的水手
默默为你守侯
手牵手幸福的理由
你在我左右
是唯一的感动
捍卫每一分钟
你是我所有
到最后
你是幸福的理由

Even so.... I understand there isn't possible for everything to last forever....even love.... Let just cherish every moment that we can share.....And may it be the sweetest memory between us...haha...everyone cherish your friends..... well said Cy...nice blog, i gain inspiration from you for this post.

Searching

The trial was over yeah....I should be happy...in fact i was happy...but it didn't last for long...I am so bored...taekwondo keep doing the performances stuff...no more sparring....and i am actually waiting for the next grading test so that i can go spar with those who want to take the test...of course...we seniors aren't really spar...but whack instead....on the order of the miss! She said before....let them know the taste of being black belt...and even if she didn't say, i doubt any of us would go easy on them....If there is any of us that might show some pity to them....perhaps me....just perhaps...but if that day i am in no mood...then sorry then haha. Besides going to taekwondo, basically i just played games whole day....and i was fed up of it too.... really i am getting lazy and lazier, not knowing what to do....haiz...hope the holiday will over soon

Trial ends.... Performance on the way!!!

Ohhh great...erm....or should i say damn...haiz what ever way is it....it doesn't seem to matter now.... i guess my trial is really awful. Still to be honest, i have always have slight confidence in myself no matter how bad the situation is....even for this trial.... Ok, better don't talk about sad things so much.... Oh yeah, the performance for my taekwondo is coming after approximate 1 month...which mean....if not mistaken, about the timing of my final exam. Talking about the performances....haha, seriously there are two types...one is kicking part, where master will choose among the seniors to perform it since they are the best. And another part is like music-based taekwondo...haha very funny but then very nice and cool too. haha. There are 2 types of music, the first is a slow and romantic but yet sad song....second one though....is something like kung fu music d....haha. Master had asked me to train wif my kicks as i might be chose to perform one of the kicks too...such an honour...thats what i will be really working hard on in the next week.... busy week haha...jumping back thrust over somebody....wahhh, can't really imagine how cool can it be if i manage to do it.....damn cool le....haha!!!! have to train that particular kicks already, and might as well do more stretching....mine sucks...haha

dismal trial...

Right until now...i really had a tough week of exam. Obviously i don't know how well or badly i could have done, but i thought until now...i sucks! Apart from my taekwondo grading, everything seemed to be going against me. I was struggling really really hard.... I was not surprised to find myself getting a shameful result after the break. What ever is it... i guess i will have to keep trying to do better for the last day of examination. Math and then Biology.... The former is something i am trying so hard so hard to do better...while the former is something i had did well all the while. Tomorrow might prove to be crucial.... everything, i am trying to be composed, just.....don't touch the games.... and STUDY!!! It is also imminent that i might just bet everything in this one and i push myself well beyond my limit by studying until early morning.... Just hope my plan...won't backfire.

Maze

I survived...obviously, given that i managed to write this post. Phew, somehow today the chemistry really made me sweat like hell, damn hard. Haiz....most people just felt bad of their chem-is-sick paper they just did.... I don't know how well they did, but i knew mine would not go that well. Then, i brought Kit Yee home. Surprisingly, she really did not know the road back to her own house...haha, well, i didn't expect her to be that bad....haha ( she is going to be mad again when she see this post XD ) We were going on a journey to the west it seemed.... After some U-turns, and some "emergency call"....Finally we made it to her apartment!!! Oh God!!! After leaving her apartment, i found myself in a unknown highway.... not knowing where myself was. I was just following the sign board, this is the very first time i find it so helpful. After some 20 minutes, i made it to a familiar road in Klang....and the remaining of the journey was just smooth..... I knew i wasted some times finding her apartment but after all, the fact that i know where she lives is more important of all.... At least now i can fetch her instead of her getting some hard time finding transport.... Still though i really doubt she is allowed to drive....Zzzz, you know what i mean right? People who don't know how to go somewhere....forgivable. People who don't know how to get back home? Funny isn't it? Haha... that is why i think even if she has her license, it might just be a waste. If she can't know where to go....you expect her to drive? And!!! And!!!! that is provided!!!! She does!!!! Pass her driving test!!!! Hahaha......XD.... great....Now i feel like i am going to get some lecture later...or latest....by tomorrow. Haha....

Mystery resolved....fate

I understand it is not a correct timing to write this blog...given all the upcoming examinations...but i had been thinking about this a little while yesterday....or possibly... much more in the past 9 months! I don't really believe in fate....Fate, for me, doesn't really exist....i believe it is all in our hand for us to manipulate our own future...our own pathway.... Well...certainly i am wrong then...

Just like the lyrics of the song 'So Close' i posted recently.... sometimes....even though people like each other, have feeling towards each other.... they ended up in different direction....if it is not fate, then tell me what is it?

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

A lack of communication, or courage? or commitment? or just....arrogance of waiting for each other to make the first move...well, it can all be summed up upon one word right? Fate. Romantic dreams will stop? I hope not... but what am i thinking in the past then? Yeah...this short part of lyrics is what a stupid mistakes i have made in the past.... Not believing in myself.... assuming this and that, and...of course.... i walked away from the dream; thinking it was the best solution to the tricky question.... indeed i don't get my answer then, and not knowing whether or not what is the answer to it.

Running away is just that stupid.....It is idiotic for anyone to do it....well although i think most people still practise it...including myself. So i am telling everyone out there...never never run away from any mystery....solve them and face the truth....you might want to avoid a possible critical damage u get if you face it....but isn't not knowing what the answer really are...is more.... erm....torturous? It is just like a frost bite.... it would really be a long term stress for anyone....right? At least you would have no more regret in the future...

So close
So close
And still so far

Take a good look at people around you.... Stop thinking of perfect love....there wouldn't be any until you seek it out and after you try it out. And it is just not the fact that they are the most handsome or wealthy or other positive qualities of your requirements of your partner. It is just simple.... go down to your heart, get the right feeling and say it out to her/him. Be a coward, and your life will be awkward....haha, one last advice... you two can be so close, so close but in the end, are so far far apart....

Times up.... i really need to get to work now... and after writing this post....i hope i manage to kill away any thoughts that distracting me.... Good luck everyone!!! hehe

P.S. I love you Kit Yee, don't worry about it.

Up for challenge!!!

Tomorrow will officially kick start my busy 1 week of test and examination....when i take on the taekwondo second dan test... Haiz...i totally don't have any time to train my body or skill during this week...nevertheless i am still rather confident to pass it....Let just pray for it...haha!!! Then next week....arrrgghhh....chemistry, english, physics, biology, and mathematics.....zzzz.... talking about my math....i need to get a near-perfect marks in the remaining exam...in another words, in my trial and final exam....god damn it.... Oh yeah...today, i bought a bouquet of flower for Kit Yee... she was very much surprised....haha just hoped she really liked it la....it was an 1-month-anniversary present for her....i mean almost reach the date d...but considering the congested-schedule of next week....the present was arranged slightly ahead of the anniversary la.... and... i guess she totally forgot about it...it seems so...haha whatever la then...have to go to study. God bless everyone that is sitting for any kind of exam.... of course.... most of them is for me la! hehe

So Close

So Close....

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Rush Hour

I manage to find a gap of time to write this post....a short one i guess...Although you won't want to know where i m right now while writing this post....you really won't want to know it...hehe.... Anyway the fact that i am now so busy to even find a time to write a post indicate that i'm serious in preparing for my examination....which is a very encouraging sign...haha...given the fact that i'm very very lazy.....Still....i know it is rather late but i will think back of what Jacinda often advised: nothing is too late to be done. That is one of my many support that hold me from collapsing....the burden...tiredness....exhaustion i suffering....i know i have no rights to complain.....i know that perfectly well.....anyway....i will push myself to the limit....until the very very last bits of energy.... i have....and try my best in the trial exam...after all, i won't want to let you-know-who down....haha... Bye!!!!

Exam...just around the corner!!!

Yup... it is going to be my trial and i am totally unprepared for it yet...the trial papers are very important for my future...but i just can't help but being lazy to do revision or even study or do any past year question...So, it is common that if you are actually questioning my future...hehe....Just 1 more week...what can i expect much from this single week preparation? (if given i finally study hard for this last week that is!) My parents will be very disappointed and i guess...even...Kit Yee will too... Damn!!! And not only that...this coming Saturday is going to be my second-dan taekwondo test....zzz... that one i think i should be able to pass with ease...never think that anyone can fail a taekwondo test...hardly see any example too...even the worst ( you know yourself...hehe ) pass... It is just so unfair since some people work very hard to be good in order to pass...those scum can just pass even when they can't do good-enough-kicks, and other stuff.... Looking at the increasing number of senior belts ( red-black or black ) in my school....i couldn't help but sigh that the quality isn't that high anymore ( No offence to anyone ).....Whatever is it....i better burn both end of the candle this week to catch up with my trial preparation!!!! See ya ;)

Cheah Kit Yee

Who is she if you ask...well clearly u did not read the post entitled 'girlfriend'....alright... I don't mind saying this one more time...she is my girlfriend!!! This is my 50th post in this blog, not a relatively large number but nevertheless, it is meaningful for me...and so, I would like to dedicate this special post to her, make her feel my true heart...haha can't believe i really saying this XD!!! She is my classmate of G1....Really i often call her....fatty, auntie, stupid turtle...blablabla... But, deep down in my heart, the picture is always clear: someone who has breath-taking both inner and outer beauty, with the silky black hair....full of character and personality...innocent and naive at times....even fierce at some cases....but soft at another...everything of you are just what attract me the most! There is no need to doubt me for writing all this sweet expressions of yours....after all...you deserve all this compliment....The tears you shed last time hurt me seriously....but in another way, it warms my heart as well....I promise you i will try my best not to let you cry ever again. I understand you have a lot of admirer like...Andrew. He had been very sweet towards you....a luxurious dinner and beautiful roses...in a wonderful western restaurant...i guess...it should be very romantic...I can't really provide that but i provide my heart and soul to you....

There are so many people
who would do anything
to ride in the Mercedes with you.
But what you really deserve
is somebody who would want
to board the bus along with you
when the Mercedes breaks down.

There could be more to talk about you....but since this post is already quite lengthy....i will just sum the whole thing up in this few heartfelt words:

I LOVE YOU !!!

Turtle....zzz

Oh yeah...I really need to start my study now...if not it is too late already. Well, even Kit Yee had said that i must studied really hard d... erm.... since she asked me to study hard...i guessed i really had no other option do i? haha!!! Aaarrrggghhh... today she had to went back early because her mother suddenly can fetched her home, but sweet thing is, i took a ride with her as well...ok...not to her house...just to somewhere near the train station. Her mother left foot seemed to injured as it was bandaged...just hoped she recovered soon... Oh yeah...can't believe Kit Yee mother is so pretty and young....in contrast... Kit Yee is....well...you know it....totally opposite.....erhem!!!...pretty as well la...haha ( if i don't say this, who know what will i get from her...she is damn fierce...seriously haha!!! ) Today Miss Param looked touched when everyone in the class seemed to be deeply involved in the mission to 'rescue'...or actually 'adopt' the baby turtle....zzz...and the fact that i don't want to join made me a 'turtle eater', 'ninja turtle', and bla bla bla... Xue Ni and Li Ying even made me felt like i had done a crime by not joining them to adopt a turtle; a murderer most likely....even threaten to kick me out of the group....Lame....haha....I have my genuine reasons for not adopting a turtle...though i won't say it out....not here and not in college...it ain't important... But it should be made clear that it wasn't sured yet whether or not i will not give my support into adopting a turtle.... I might...just might...join the group too...that is...if i manage to dig some money out of my parents....hehe...ok then, i really have to go study for my trial already... Good luck everyone!!!!

Tired....

Tired...after thinking for so long for a suitable title for this post...i decided to use this one simple word. Indeed, this should be among the best word for this post....you can expect nothing cheerful and optimistic thing in this post just by looking at this word. It had not been a great year for me...everything including examination result, training result, stamina... relationship...just everything; gone from bad to worse. What a year i had actually....Losing too many of my over-relied friends, it was a black out....a sudden lost in the middle of desert....I had been very tired... waking up early sometimes to study...though it wasn't too many of such occasion...the outcome of just 1 time had drain too much of me....As time passes, i am now more of a programed machine, emotionless and controlled. Losing faith in everything....starting everything from scratches....with nothing but my skinny-looking hands....everything seem to be impossible for me at this point. And it is at this time that nightmare keep invading my sweet sweet dream...Life is just be too tough for me...or it is actually the fact that i took it too lightly in the past and just somehow managed to get through everything? Dream crashed, every record of mine had been crashed or renewed but none other than the presence of my girlfriend is for good sake....Really...the life is just so tiring....and I am actually still a student, a teenager...what will i go through in the future then? Haiz...

Wild fire!!! XD

Well...undoubtedly...if you are among G1 members that are reading it...well... you should know why the title of this post is 'wild fire'...since the news really spread pretty quick today! I can't really imagine what i will been through today when i was still lying down pretty lazily in my bed.... Things just changed so fast that i can't really believed it....just like a football or a basketball match. Last week, we was still doing quite well together and with no one noticing. I thought that my blog would not be visited by any G1 friends....I was wrong quite clearly that time....haha!!! I thought it was Alyssa who told Wandee about our relationship...since Alyssa saw us in a bench last Friday.... with Zi Fen....But it looked like it was me myself who broke the secret i had kept so well for past few weeks...For some stupidity i have shown in my ridiculous blog... what recognition har? Kah Wai!!! Now everyone really recognize both of us d...haha...just kidding...

My girlfriend

Yesterday, i told Arvin about the fact that Kit Yee is my girlfriend...well, he looked at me with a clear doubt and said ' is it one-sided? Erm... she liked you or another way round...' I was like...what the heck.... Did you know what is the meaning of girlfriend? After a while... he was like realized that what i was telling was the truth...and he then said that Kit Yee and I was acting great.... haha!!! Ohhh and Lee Beng knew the truth about us too.... Oh well, he knew probably because i told him...though he seemed to be very blur that time...but then when i accompanied Kit Yee to the bus, he finally understood what i was trying to tell him all that while. Haiz... and then Tse Chien and Hui San found out my relationship with Kit Yee as well.... We was holding hand and just coincidently met the 2 girls and their friends... And they laughed out really really ...LOUD!!! haha well... Ok, and for those who don't know the truth yet...well since not many G1 friends (my classmates in college) visit my blog... I guess it wouldn't matter much if i just tell the truth here... Erm.... Kit Yee is my girlfriend.. haha, i guess it is very lame right...given the fact i am actually talked about her so much before that, anyone would have already know that ...hehe

Sorry dear

Erm... i am sorry... seriously i did not know that you actually trying to find a place for us... and i left you without saying goodbye... I know you are furious and frustrated...and you really should. I did not expect that to be honest. You keep trying to make me happy...and i really appreciate it and deeply in my heart i m very touched.... And about whether or not u asked that Mandeep threatening me back then.... well, I do not think he really means it de la....and by the way... I won't give in to people who threatening me like that... so do not need to be worry.... Love you