Going to China

Lets talk about yesterday first of all... I had a great fun in Greenbox at Bukit Tinggi Jusco....with Ying Sing, Chung Guan, Chong Tat and surprisngly....Kuang Seng!!! Wow...the 3-hour-karaoke really was fun haha.....since we had so little people...we were singing with the mike in our hands almost everytime.....And the food there...the tidbits...which were like mashed potatoes....junk foods stuff...and drinks too of course.... Since we can took how much we wanted....we took a whole lot of it. I ate 4 bowl of mashed potatoes....drank 3 or 4 glasses of vanilla coke...(my favourites!!!)....and i thought 2 bowls of junk foods....i even had difficulties to stand up and walked myself back home after we finished our singing session....My tummy T.T was nothing small....felt like a big fatty....or like other crouched potato...haha (do i spell it correctly, Miss Sydney Cheah?haha) Ok, that was thursday...then back to Friday...today...then. Yep, i won't be going to tonight training...sad to say, i wonder whether i had attend my final class in center...but well, i don't think that it was my last though....haha. Erm... tomorrow early morning i will be catching a flight to China already...it is a 8-day-trip...so in that meantime, i would not be able to check mail or reply anyone...so be patient la k? haha

Not forgetting my dear of course... I am extremely sorry that i could not be with you on Monday as you are taking on the driving exam.... But i wish you all the best, and i want you to know that i will always be in your heart....supporting, encouraging and believing in you :) Don't put too much pressure on yourself.... No matter what happen, I will always be at your side, promise ;)

Exit of United Taekwondo

Today i found myself a job in Windmill....I should be happy actually, but then....the working hour of my job means...that i will have to sacrifice United Taekwondo.... and possibly the precious gathering of 5S3....I thought that....in this final 3 months of my Taekwondo life...i can enjoy it as much as i can...but now, it seems like the date of me quitting United Taekwondo....has to be set much much earlier....I want to enjoy the possibly final week of Taekwondo...(this week)...Perhaps...in the future, i could only go training once in a week...And the 5S3 gathering? I think i will only reach there at late night....this could mean that i will miss the opportunity to meet some of my old friends...who leave earlier...Lastly... the job could also greatly limits my free time in December and January...or even until mid-February...Direct victim of this is surely my dear....I could only spend time dating with her at specific day i think...but don't worry, i will find more time to visit you more often.

Farewell...?

Well....again....i was sleepless this time...and so i write some posts....this had become my habits recently...whenever i could not sleep, i find ways to express my thoughts and by hoping that everything is thrown into the laptop.....my mind would be empty. The SAM Corroboree had ended in a high note.... this means...we had finished our SAM program officially!!!! But sometimes it was quite hard to accept the fact that all of us had to leave to separate places. I hope our friendship could be long lasting though. For this past one week after the exam....we had been heavily involved in lots of events....or i should say, for the past 11 months, we had been together for very very much, suddenly i feel that you all are my family as well.

~Maybe i am a dreamer rather than a realist, to be honest i loves stories with sad ending, the impact is just there to be seen, but....for my case, i hope it will be happy ending after all.... However, i guess i should try to think more realistically? Things are slipping from my hands....and for once, or maybe few more times in my life that i ....again feel helpless to stop it from slipping away. A supposedly happy one week holiday ended in a way i think is very much worthless. All the thing i hope for, never really happen...and it be blamed(i hope)that i am very much disappointed with it. I am starting to think that maybe....there are things that when it is not yours for the taking.....It will never be yours.....It is kind of like destiny. When you love something or someone, there is no need to possess them, time and again, these words come around ringing at my earside....How much more can i hold firmly my fist....and hold tightly to the thing i treasurred.... or should i...instead of getting a hold of it..... release it for the benefits of everyone? And maybe stop being childish, naive and selfish? I never know......but at least...please let the dog know about it....~

SAM Corroborree

Yesterday it was the SAM Corroboree, and it was such a grand event for us...student of SAM!!!! However, i felt that it was rather disappointing... the fact that maybe i was just expecting too much from Taylor i guess.... We managed to take a lot of pictures with classmates and lecturers too. The lecturers were completely a different person from the one we recognize in class that was for sure... and some of the performances were great...well, i did said 'some' right? The food wise, it was definitely what i was expecting, i thought it was rather nice.... But what was disappointing was maybe that i was expecting some romantic songs that i could perhaps danced with Kit Yee.... Instead, it was all other songs except it....and ended up everyone jumping up and down and some shaking and twisting their bodies haha.... The whole scene was quite a mess by that time....

Memorable Class Trip

It was great going to Genting with a bunch of college friends....The whole gang- Suren, Alyssa, Wan Dee, Pao Yee, Nazneen, You Xian, Hui San, Tze Chien, Lee Beng, Kah Wai, Yap, Charles, Kuo Chern and I. The trip was rather an interesting one...we shared our thoughts...chatted long during nights(which maybe i was the few that slept earlier) and enjoy ourselves with great excitement greatly in the days time.The first day it was rather a matter of settle ourselves at Genting. We missed the bus and had to get another bus to there.... After we reached there...the fact that there was only 1 toilet...made the whole scenario of bathing far more interesting....Getting everyone ready was a real challenge.... Girls were practically the slowest but guys wise....it was nothing much better either...so it took hours for everyone to finish their baths. We had steamboat later then at night. Oh gosh....we forgot to bring seasoning....no sugar,salt, ...no flavour.... Our steamboat soap was just plain....if not maybe a slight of seaweed taste then.....the only thing we could had added since we brought a lot of it with other junk food. The second day was again...we were late to the theme park merely because of the bathing problem..... The rains constantly spoilt our fun in the afternoon....But other than that, it was an enjoyable afternoon....or should i say, but far my best afternoon in Genting!!! We played everything but seriously nothing got more scary than the one that just dropped us right from the sky....That one was really exciting, and i played for at least 4 times!!! The last day, Lee Beng, Kah Wai and i went swimming in the pool at Aswana(the place we lived in Genting). The water was freezingly cold...at least for me...i was shivering all the way....and after getting myself a maximum of just less than 4 laps...i had to get right up....it was just too cold for me. We packed our stuff later and checked out then..... The trip was really fun, and i hope if there is any possibilities that you guys are planning for another trip....call me up ok? I will try to make it....^^ promise!

TONIGHT I CELEBRATE MY LOVE (Peabo Bryson and Roberta Flack)

TONIGHT I CELEBRATE MY LOVE (Peabo Bryson and Roberta Flack)

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
It seems the natural thing to do
Tonight no one's gonna find us
We'll leave the world behind us
When I make love to you
Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And hope that deep inside you feel it too
Tonight our spirits will be climbing
To the sky lit up with diamonds
When I make love to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And soon this old world will seem brand new
Tonight we will both discover
How friends turn into lovers
When I make love to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you

Genting Trip

Well...i am going to Genting with some of my college classmates...zzz Kit Yee not going...how sad. But well, i think maybe in this way, i can really hang out with my friends then(optimistic thinking). This means that for 3 days at least that i will not be able to have any connection with the internet... And so could not look at others' blog for any updates haha. Haiz...I still haven pack my stuff yet...don't know what to bring actually...I keep thinking do i need to wash my clothes there? I washed mine in my last class trip...which ended being the only one washing clothes there....well, in the end, it was quite a joke but ohhh well i am not going to tell the embarrassing story here out loud haha^^.... ohhh I am going to skip another lesson of taekwondo again...haiz....my stamina has been poor recently...can't believe one round of frog jumps and duck walk can make my knee cap pain de....given that i use to do that for the whole round of Jit Sin compound(a secondary school in Butterworth)....in form 1...(kadet polis that time la). Anyway....again i will say it....Wei Shan...recover soon la....you know Tien Wei? Well, he is my best friend...if not one of my good friend la....he has asthma too...so i always kind of worry of people having asthma de but he is not THAT active in sports as you la(if taekwondo consider as one that is), not forgetting you are actually a former marathon runner....Siao eh....I never know you have asthma....now think about it again...I am really touched by how much your love to taekwondo... With all those 'difficulties', you still continue....and even now third-dan....well even though physically you are not even a black belt wakakaka. I hope i can see you in next week training then...i guess the whole United team will miss you laughter de haha...even though might look idiotic at times haha jk^^

Use public transports? Reconsider!!!!

I was just back from taekwondo training...ohhh damn, my feet feel so pain. I just got back from Sunway Pyramid with my fellow form 5 classmates...people like Chung Guan, Chong Tat, Kuang Seng,Ying Sing, Min Min, Chun Fah, Elaine, Chooi Wen, Maggie, and lastly shen yi ...i guess so...forget her name d cham...Shiiii...haha...oh well, it was rather relaxing...there were discounts everywhere and i hated myself so much for not bringing more money...i would had bought a lot of shirts or even a coat for myself. We had our lunch at 3 pm in Subway, while some went to some pancake shop....What made this whole thing all too memorable surprisingly was....THE PUBLIC TRANSPORTS!!!! First Jacinda and Chun Fah they all could only reached pyramid by 2....given that they said they would show up at 1....all because of delay to ktm....zzzz what was the worst if anyone ask? It was the Rapid KL!!!! What the hell?! I waited for 1 hour and 30 minutes to get into my bus? And for the whole long period i waited, there was all kind of other Rapid KL there but not one was U62....and when one came, there were another 2 following behind!!! What was that? How terrible is the system of it!!!! Talking about taekwondo then....zzz Wei Shan did not came surprisingly....i thought she was lazy again though...or maybe dating ...who knows? haha^^ But i just found out from her blog that her asthma striked again, poor fellow, I hope she recover soon la then....It must be torturing not being able to train when someone like it so so much haha.....Maybe you can find yourself more time for dating d haha....Anyway, may God bless you then (since you are christian Cheok^^).

曹格-背叛 (Gary-Betray)

雨不停落下来
花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀
爱只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段还在不在

Translation:
It is still raining,
And why the flower still could not blossom...
You don't love me anymore
And i am at the verge to breakdown
Speechless....
Not going to think anymore about it.
There are many keys in a piano....
But anyone of it go missing...
The song would not be nice.
If both love each other, how is it possible to say goodbye...
You know about this, so why still bother asking?
One turns brave when he loves madly.
I betray myself...
To satisfy you...
I release my hand, but i couldn't say goodbye,
Let this be the last time i love you...
After this, i would not care anymore,
As long you be happy...
Even though i truly regret...
Now....what else i have?
Before you close your door,
Can you check for me?
Check if our memories still remains....

Nightmare

When is the last time you see me waking up at 3.30am writing post? Never i guess,i do not wake up purposely to write this post, or that i wake up to watch football....I just....could not sleep or....should i say....the moment i close my eyes. I had a nightmare straight away. I wonder why.... I just keep having different dreams of seemingly similar dream..... being left alone out in the dark...being abandoned....i just could not dare to sleep.... How sadly can it be, one day after exam over, and i have start to feel like i am having nothing to do....I look at this and look at that....all that i had so wanted to do...ended in such a way i have lost my interest...i mean PS2 ok? or mangas or animes.... I feel tired...but just afraid to close my eyes....perhaps afraid that the nightmare might come true.... How nice...if the moon can shines that brightly....I just hope i will have a fine day today.... And that....nightmare...will just remains as a dream

Sorry Dear

Sorry la dear, i have no idea when you will read this post, nevertheless, i insist myself to write this post...to apologize if i had hurt you. Please do not take it seriously, or you can simply just forget about it. It is not big deal after all. I was just slightly frustrated that's all. I still love you, no doubt about that. I just thought that i should let you know what i think the problem with us only, i never think more than that, so anything, don't ever think too far away ok?

Raining

It is raining outside....Looking out at the window, the chilly wind, it is just so cool. i had thought before that someday i want to try to experience the storm, according to Gerald(my English tuitor), that is to be one with nature. It should be great when you can just get into the storm, screaming and shouting and just lie on the floor and enjoy the 'shower'. You can let every emotions of you running through and you can cry out loud, i doubt anyone can differentiate tears from the all-wet condition of anyone....I wonder why? The rain always get me thinking a lot of things, sad things mostly to say the least. It can't be helped then. It just brings back the memories of that moments.... the moment we played chasing of each other in form 1 and the moment of me leaving, looking at some of your expressions...which is so much different than my stony face. I wonder why? I keep recall time in Hin Hua...even if it is just 3 months old. It could be among the best period of my life so far. It is genuine, and i was so innocent(I am now still though^^). Time passes quickly. I had explore 3 other schools and i gained so so so much of experience of being in a well-respected school(Jit Sin...so far the best school with excellent student, Hin Hua and Kwang Hua). I had a short 2-week-trial in Sri Andalas and believe me, the 2 weeks was more than enough action movie that i could possibly watched in a month. You judge yourself whether it was good or bad yourself then. The period of growing up is never easy and i understand that the tougher challenge you faced, the stronger you will become. That is my sole motivation when i was struck by any discouraging tasks. In the past, perhaps it would be my habits to sit at a corner and look at another corner, perhaps had few drops of tears...and that is all. I was a lone wolf by then(well anyone recall mamamia lone wolf?haha) but i have change... or so it seems. I learn to have more friends around...trust them more, open my heart to them, which means(according to Kit Yee) allowing them the best chance to rule over my heart or just crush them into pieces. Nevertheless, i trust this bunch of friends, i learned from consecutive terrible mistakes made in form 2....i learned too much and had suffered way too much...but suffering is good...isn't it...in my case? I will bounce back ten times stronger and revenge for what they did....in the future. I am sure of it.

Chem the last!!!

Just finished biology....and i was glad...that it is just one more to go...and then i am off to go enjoy my holiday^^ haha. Talking about the biology paper, it was never easy...haha well, although i think i can get at least a 'B' at very very very least haha...but i really hope i can get an 'A' who doesn't? Now it is all about chemistry it seems, i can't wait for the exam to be over, and have my vacation holiday to start.Wednesday movie, Friday a reunion with former form 5 classmates follow closely with a 3-day trip to Genting on Sunday, before i get back here in time to attend the corroborree on next Wednesday^^ Speaking of corroborree, i hope i can get my dress ready on Friday at latest. I am counting on my former classmates, i will keep testing all types of coats and formal dress until they agree with my outfits...since i don't have Tze Sin, or Siok Kim or even Kit Yee out there to have their professional opinions....Oh yea, those going on this Friday...Kit Yee not going lo... She has something to work on that day and will not be free, haha, too bad haha...But that means i can focus on you all then wakaka!!! Think about it, that means i will miss this week Sunday's taekwondo training again....Damn!!! oh yea!!! How about my fitness? and my body shape....T.T Die already....No time to work in gym before corroborree to get back in shape.... Better don't eat too much in Genting then...haha!!! Anyway, better get myself prepared for chemistry haha i hope...haha. Bye and see you all in the near future

Bio and Chem coming in the way!!!

This week it will be Biology(Monday) and Chemistry(Wednesday) exam. To be honest, as the 2 hardest subject for me had passed....This week i hope i can do much better for the 2 which i feel are my top 2 favourite subjects...and also top 2 most comfortable subjects...Well....after the first week of exam, i understand just how hard this exam could be...and i know even for my favourite subjects...i might even turn out to be doing badly as well....Biology has been my top scoring subject and i certainly want to keep it going. Ms Param has been doing a great job motivating me and i pay her high tributes for her encouragement and her hard work of teaching us. I really really don't want disappoint her. Next come is Ms Isabel...my chemistry teacher. To be honest, she is not among the best teacher i have....but i do respect her. She is still young and inexperience and i can see her really commit herself when teaching us. Anyway, i always want to score well in chemistry... This is because the i job i want to do in the future is very closely related....or should i say...it is all about chemistry....See that? Thats why i have to do well in that subject!!! I hope to continue my studies in biotechnology and thus, all 3 sciences are vital in all aspect!!! Not to joke around, but i actually apply for farming and agriculture in New Zealand as well...and even considering doing food science, plant technology, biotechnology in Lincoln, Victoria, Otago or even Auckland University(all which is in New Zealand)....but all that are just back-up plans....my priorities is in Australia!!! I had applied for 7 universities if not mistaken and more than 10 courses already...and had received 6 back-up conditional offers from back-up universities. Haha i refer it as back-up mean that those are not my first few choices of university but simply applied as a precautions^^ I really really hope i can enter ANU!!! Australia no.1 University- Australia National University!!!! But it will be very difficult, anyway just try my luck la....Now i will better take on biology and chemistry....oh ya, not forgetting you of course....

Happy Birthday
Cheah Kit Yee ^^

Happy Birthday...I Love You

There are things I'd like to say

to you my love on your special day:

I am forever thankful God sent you my way.

Like a gift from up above,

you showed me how it is to feel real love.

I know many mountains we've had to climb

and sometimes forever

has seemed like a very long time.

Yes, we've endured our share of pain,

but together we have so much to gain.

Bigger mountains may lie ahead,

but together there is no hill we can not tread.

So always remember my love for you,

and there is nothing together we can not do.

I'll be here forever - my love is true.

The person beside me, that would be you.

Tiring MUET

What a day...It should be a good nice Saturday whereby i sleep until late 9am....instead...i had to wake up at 5.30am....and i actually reached Taylors by 6.50...zzzz to be precise...i parked my car at about 6.30...then i walking back and forth few times along the way, deciding whether to take along the Big Apple donut or not for Kit Yee....worrying that the donut might melted in my car. In the end i decided to keep it in the car....and after walking several 100m away....i was like..."why i park my car so far? Today is Saturday, i can park wherever i want haha". Quickly i turned back and drove my car to a place much closer to the college, and it was already 6.50....20 minutes loss just like that haha. After that, Kit Yee, upon knowing that i bought the donuts for her, said that it might just melted in my car when i asked. I dashed to the car and just brought the donuts for her then...The MUET stupid la....the first was...erm....reading! Gosh, i was like ok...erm....y...aaaa....and after finishing halfway, i started to snore....and another and my eyes started to feel heavy....then another snore...damn...quickly i finished the reading and without even checking the answer.....pom!!! Down i went, and i closed my eyes for some much-needed rest....haha...that was just how tiring and boring the reading comprehension was...not mentioning how frustrating i was that i could not absolutely sure that i got the correct answer along the way....Up next, writing...zzz...i not sure about this one la....i thought it was easy but after discussed with my friends....i thought maybe i got the wrong idea and it might just be a case of me getting the whole essay a big fat 'ZERO' T.T..... Nevertheless, i will not think about it yet, let the people who mark my paper decide...bleh i refuse to admit i was wrong even though i know i was.... kind of....aiya feel a bit optimistic better haha....Last....Listening wakaka....well certainly we don't have radio...without amplifier or additional loudspeaker....poor Wei Shan haha, don't scold me weh senior~~ since i get your name right already haha....But i was really laughing...silently i meant....at part 3 when suddenly the cd stopped and gave us time after just 2 questions haha....i was liked har? What happened? haha...stupid la me, i was like ok rush hour haha, thinking i had to listen and write damn fast haha^^ however i could not be sure of my answer though so i would not say that i will do well, but obviously i am confident for that part at least....then....should be nothing d....oh yea, i am anxiously waiting for the Red's showdown at Emirates Stadium, i guessed no one understand my meaning right? Haha....try guess then...haha i gave a very very good hint d....Read newspaper la if still don't know haha....XD

Dejected

Haiz... Today's Math examination paper really was quite tough....I really was feeling the heat the whole 3 hours,the jacket i brought along was of no use at all....(stupid air conditioner). Seriously, this was yet another harder-than-past-year paper....Lee Beng (my classmate) had mentioned that physics was very hard if compared to previous years...Well, i could not comment on it...not because i thought i was easy...but because i did not touch the physics past year paper at all haha...^^ However, this math paper i did feel that it was something far beyond the past year papers.... Worst still was that the girl sitting on my front left....(45 degree to my left in front) had actually kept her stuff and started checking her answer (or so it seemed, maybe she finished earlier because she had no other question do-able wakaka...i will hope the latter was the case then haha)...anyway i dare not to let my parent know about this...or should i specifically say...my father haha no offence... I can just imagine how he react to my comment if i do tell him...."Why you want to be like others? People cannot do, so...?! You have to be better!!! Don't give excuses, you never study and that is what you get when you don't...blah blah blah" To be honest, i admit i do not study much or as much as others might be studying....and i will not say that i am studying smart as well....this is why i always feel sad when he gives me such remarks....I know i am lazy la...Haiz, i never try to improve....arrrggghhh damn...why i get into this topic....Now everyone know that i am lazy....well ok stop laughing and teasing me or being critical.....I know that everyone know i am lazy....FINE!!!! I will stop writing then....and go do some beneficial things....online isn't a bad idea isn't it? haha

2 down...3 to go

Physic exam just finished...phew...finally i can gasp for some air...it had been some quite nervous this few days...Haiz, now with what i rated as the hardest subject gone...I am fired up to get the job done on Thursday, this time my sparring target is MATH!!!! Oh yeah, i am so going to hit 'Him' down hard haha!!! Although i don't have too much expectation la really...My math isn't that good all along this year, so i am not setting myself a high target. Well, in fact i always do not set a high target for myself...knowing that i do not want to disappoint others and more importantly myself.... By setting a low target....i can always be at the positive side....because i always make sure that i will only get the better of it and not the other end of the result. Now thinking back of it, i have never achieve a good result when i think that i am doing well OR going to do well.... First....SPM...then the Taekwondo championship, to be honest, the championship failure is haunting me still. I really really could not get on with it...i totally regret it, and could not forgive myself....><....Anyway, i should be focusing on exam now.... Oh yeah, Pek Kuan and Hui San!!! Why you all the blog name have United on it de...cheh... never call me to do the same...never mind la, i prefer julius_chencaesar haha, easier to remember... Before i end my seemingly lengthy post, i hope everyone not just those facing exam, but also including those facing problems...any problems....hold yourself together, do not breakdown....Once you feel like breaking down, go to a friend...I don't mind if anyone find me though haha....but seriously....Friends can help....it really will help ease your pain....just believe it ^^....Now.... STUDY!!!!!!

Christine Glass - My Love Will Get You Home Lyrics

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

Exam begin

Damn...i am really nervous now knowing tomorrow is a big day for me...the final exam!!! Well well, it is the English paper, but given the fact that all this while i wasn't doing good at that paper certainly make me feel not assured. I know the importance of getting a good result for an A.... However the A is not really there for the taking anymore...given that i did not that well in the external assessment which counted for 50%....Anyway i will give my best and be alert and not do any stupid mistake....if not an A...at least a strong B will be fine for me. Physics the day after English... and Thursday...it would be another calculation subject-Math. Next week will start off with Biology and I will be able to cheer 'Hooray' on late Wednesday after finishing my Chemistry exam....Wish me luck then....Bye