Mystery resolved....fate

I understand it is not a correct timing to write this blog...given all the upcoming examinations...but i had been thinking about this a little while yesterday....or possibly... much more in the past 9 months! I don't really believe in fate....Fate, for me, doesn't really exist....i believe it is all in our hand for us to manipulate our own future...our own pathway.... Well...certainly i am wrong then...

Just like the lyrics of the song 'So Close' i posted recently.... sometimes....even though people like each other, have feeling towards each other.... they ended up in different direction....if it is not fate, then tell me what is it?

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

A lack of communication, or courage? or commitment? or just....arrogance of waiting for each other to make the first move...well, it can all be summed up upon one word right? Fate. Romantic dreams will stop? I hope not... but what am i thinking in the past then? Yeah...this short part of lyrics is what a stupid mistakes i have made in the past.... Not believing in myself.... assuming this and that, and...of course.... i walked away from the dream; thinking it was the best solution to the tricky question.... indeed i don't get my answer then, and not knowing whether or not what is the answer to it.

Running away is just that stupid.....It is idiotic for anyone to do it....well although i think most people still practise it...including myself. So i am telling everyone out there...never never run away from any mystery....solve them and face the truth....you might want to avoid a possible critical damage u get if you face it....but isn't not knowing what the answer really are...is more.... erm....torturous? It is just like a frost bite.... it would really be a long term stress for anyone....right? At least you would have no more regret in the future...

So close
So close
And still so far

Take a good look at people around you.... Stop thinking of perfect love....there wouldn't be any until you seek it out and after you try it out. And it is just not the fact that they are the most handsome or wealthy or other positive qualities of your requirements of your partner. It is just simple.... go down to your heart, get the right feeling and say it out to her/him. Be a coward, and your life will be awkward....haha, one last advice... you two can be so close, so close but in the end, are so far far apart....

Times up.... i really need to get to work now... and after writing this post....i hope i manage to kill away any thoughts that distracting me.... Good luck everyone!!! hehe

P.S. I love you Kit Yee, don't worry about it.