Confuse

I received a email last night... The strange thing about it was the fact that in the 'sent' column... There was not my email address, and was others. Is that for me or just simply a coincidence that it reached me? Rishi did explain to me the fact that how an email can hid its target person address... but was that possible.if so, then i guessed i will had to intepret it. Still, i would not complained much, why if you asked? Sorry, I ought to keep this a secret... haha. Oh ya, I think i might be going to training in the center this Thursday night... All the selected fighters are going to train for the last time i think for this Saturday National Remaja Sparring Competition. So... that means that this Thursday should mainly be a sparring training, and that is what makes me excited and stimulated. Training with all the strong one would make me feel better... and afraid no one. By fighting against the one above my level, I will make myself phychologically immune to the fear of strong opponent, if, i meet one in the upcoming sparring competition on National Day. The last thing I want to try out though is to fight against Master Tan. I will tell him that when i meet him on Saturday or maybe, Sunday. But definitely this week i will tell him and fight him. I maybe just a pawn to him but still, i want to be strong, and for me, I will be strong if i fight against the strong one, and if i get beaten up, i can get anadditional bonus of how nuch an opponent can inflict the pain on me too.... Ei, i am not mad ok? haha

Pain is training!

Yesterday, i was going to Kong Hoe school for the taekwondo training. It was quite nice... I kind of like to train there more already...compared to Chung Hwa. Reasons? Simple; more challenge, that really excites me more hehe. We had a sparring section at the end of training. That was a 2-minutes-sparring section. It was what i expected right from the first lesson here. I was fighting against a black belt fellow.... a weakling to be honest. Not to say that i was good... but really i had always wanted to fight against people stronger, and clearly people who can't give me the sense of horror, is just an easy fighter. Whatever then, i guess starting from next week, when the center is reopen... i will start to challenge Master Tan to a sparring section before every training section. He is damn strong and quick, i know that but only if i fight against the top, i will be able to climb higher, or so i think. Jeez.... talking about the opponent i faced yesterday, though he wasn't the strong opponent, i got to learn something too... Never try to block your opponent kick when unnecessary. My middle finger of left hand was now in real pain...there was clearly some blood sign there (red ink, no blood that flow out though). My finger was damn pain when is touched. Well, at least i learn something, after all, pain is what makes you learn of something better ^^

Treasured memories...

This few days... our gang liked to chat about each and everyone story in their respective secondary school... and love history had become a hot topic of all. Kah Wai seems to be the one kept asked by the girls, and the girls seem to be constantly amused or rather stunned at some part of the story. When i was being asked though..."Did you ever liked anyone before? And then thinking of someone when a song was played... i mean like bringing back the memories?", she asked. I was thinking for quite some while, deciding to avoid the question before the girl questioned me again. Pondering again, knowing that i had no choice but to answer..."Yes, I did..." I answered it, but then felt empty and wondering... A few classic, famous English songs were played, Kah Wai was emotional again...haha ^^ I guessed, I was right after all, those songs did bring back the memories...whether it is sweet or sad... it ain't no mattered... Such memories were treasured the most, by me.

Scattered pictures of the smile we had
smiles we had given to one another
was all so simple then
the laughter all we had
I never will forget...

March of the death....

Weekend is just around the corner... somehow i hope that it will never come. Surprise? You should...since weekend is the best day ever ever... haha...Haiz.... But next Monday is the decisive battle... There is Biology common test 3, Chemistry practical write up, physic oral presentation(possible delay), Math mini project and even Malaysian Studies presentation is on next Monday.... It is a 5 vs 1 situation... Gang bang! Damn... With no way to escape, I have to face the prospect of losing out at some subject... It is quite tough to take out all 5 different subjects at once... Not mentioning that the Math mini project will last until Thursday and the English essay is on Wednesday to Friday. That will makes the whole week being filled with things that include internal assessment marks.... Moreover, even now both Thursday and Friday i am already filled with Physic investigative project, practical and even English essay... My life is now really is congested. I am thinking of going for more taekwondo classes to further improve my speed and kicks, guess i have to delay it...since this week will be really really busy! Oh ya, for anyone who read bleach manga or watch the anime... my favourite character is Kuchiki Byakuya!!! For Naruto is undoubtedly Uchiha Itachi... they are so strong man!!!

Prom Night

It was quite a boring prom to be honest... The performances were alright though some were seriously boring and lame haha... But whatever it was, the main thing about the prom had turned out to be my partner-Li Jing. She was just form 2 and i was thinking what she might wore yesterday... well well i guess i was just thinking too much. She was brilliant... or perhaps should be perfect for the prom night... and if there was any imperfect, that would be me... haha! :D Even Chong Tat, one of my friends admitted she was very beautiful that night... I guessed all in a sudden i was in heaven haha... perhaps it was the "angel that brought me here" (song sang by Guy Sebastian)...The funny part was when she arrived, i couldn't find her although she was just in front of me! At the end of the prom, the beginning of the free dance was mainly of those hip hop and it was a mess. I though it was going to end so i asked her to leave then... but after she left, god damn it... the hip hop songs were off and out those slow, romantic songs.... haiz... what a waste... haha... Some more one of those songs was "so close", by Jon Mclaughlin in the Enchanted movie.

Almost...the reborn monster

Today, i went against the teacher...The Malaysian studies one...Shit Malay woman, so yeah, i argued with her.... I never really liked her in the past and she just keep on going with ..."I don't like your attitude, blah blah blah. Well, that was not the worst case scenario though. Xue Ni turned back to me and said something...I not really remember what she said but from what i managed to recall, it wasn't something i wanted to hear and so i shouted at her "Shut up". Annoyed, she turned back. Then a girl wanted to search for her graphic calculator. Perhaps Charles phone lost case had gotten into the two girls, Li Ying and Xue Ni. They trying to help out. I looked underneath, knowing that it was quite hard for me to spot anything with all the bags and long legs blocking my view... I asked for them to move their bags. Well Xue Ni just said," Just look la! Look down there see whether got the GC or not!"... I was really fed up and a monster was close to reborn in me. Li Ying looked down at my row and asked the same thing to the ladies or gentlemen sitting on the chairs, and i wasted not a second to roar back to her...."I thought you just looked down and can see through all the bags?!!!" Xue Ni and Li Ying looked in disgust, clearly the 2 were furious at my comment... The monster was purring!!!I admitted... I might overdoing it, but she shouldn't just keep talking some bullshit at me...while my head was steaming!!!!! I went to toilet later, allowing myself to cool down with some punch straight to the marble wall.... Ouch, that hurt... still self-caused-pain can eased my anger unlike those pain inflicted on me by others... will only caught me in fire and excited me. Then back to the club, the 2 damn bustard officer kept telling me that i can't entered the gym with long pants...FU!!! 1, 2 , and 3!!!! 3 times kept telling me those bullshits.... As i am still in no mood, i simply glared at them, without any reply and just give them a smirk smile.... "So what now? Gonna kick my ass out here? Try my patience... if you dare." was what i was thinking back then. I knew this is a terrible attitude but sorry... When i am hot headed, better don't mess with me, and i had know nothing but to strike back if you get me too much... because i am someone with pride ( most of the time no, but when I'm desperate, different story then...) and i hate to lose... Because i have really fed up with that!!!

Miss...miss...and still miss!!!

Yesterday,choon yon and i went to take the train as usual... However, the moment we reached the station, i heard..."The train break down due to technical failure...Please look for other means of transports!!!" Other transports?...Damn, cy said he never met any of this situation before, indicating that it should be really bad. we went to Carrefour, thinking to take the Rapid KL back home instead, but found ourselves few minutes late as the bus went off at the opposite road. God damn it! Cy was frustrated and decided to go back to Taylor to take the bus there...Hoping there will be some seat available when we got into the bus. Madness raged as the bus drove past just at our sight!!! Knowing that we already walked or maybe run a bit for 1 hour ++.... Cy wanted to go cafe to make his mood better... I was crushed ( not really wanted to mention about this but well, i will gave cy some credit that he actually won against me, haha ). After that, we went to train station again, with hope that the train had recovered its service; and it did!! Phew, the day was a tired one but it prove to be a good workout for my legs as i walked 4 times the length of the train station to Taylor! The pool with Deng Jye that day... nothing better as the bad luck seems to be haunting me still.... and the Malays bar fellow was damn irritating...showing off like he was that good... Arrogant fucker, what a bad day for me... How David Powter got over when he had such day i guessed?

Technique, fitness and physical race!

The sparring championship which is going to be held at Rashnah school is just a month away... Knowing that i am not among the favourites and personally i know i will be sandwiched in between some tough fighters. Thus, judging from the possible category, i have a difficult decision to made... Basically, normal sparring tournament separate the participants prior to weight or height. Since Master Tan had already assured me that weight is taken into consideration... I guess 60kg++ will be placed in different category as the 50kg++ or 55kg++. That means, if i manage to cut down my weight to 57 or 58kg... i might be able to avoid some same-age fighters. Although i can avoid those 60++kg fighters... those 60kg below fighters are not that easy either... in fact i would say... is almost as tough to handle as those from 60kg category. Those red-black-belt fighters including the most fearsome opponent, but of course, one of my most excited opponent-Nigel Lim! He is MSSD runner-up and is Master Lim and Madam son.... Just imagine... how good can his father or mother train him into... But then...wauuuu!!!! From what i get from a friend, Pek Kuan... Nigel is only 44kg, this might means i could avoid him as well... Nevertheless, there is too many great opponent, and so i would better train myself physically and technically fit to match the best one out there!

Gymarooo!!!

Back to GYM!!! Well, it is not like i am too lazy and miss the gym training. My useless hands seems to hold me off from the gym for weeks.... and it really gives me a slight tummy... i mean i want to be fat but... i want to be muscular la... not FAT!!! Anyway, i went to gym today and i thought the same image will appear again... Old fat folks with me, the only young and seemingly skinny guy training in the gym room... NONO, No erm... i means this time things is totally different... well... ok, to be honest, there is actually not much of a difference , the only difference is today there is a not-bad-looking girl there training... but it really changes the whole thing. It is like adding color to a dull picture... You get what i mean... And i need some motivation to be back to the gym room right? Haha! That is a good motivation!!! However... i was regret that i didn't plan to swim this evening, never in my life that so many young bikini girls (young one of course) come swimming in this club... What a waste! Haiz...

Betrayal

Being betrayed wasn't a good thing at all, and wouldn't feel good as well... that was simply foolish right? I mean, who don't know about that? To be honest, outside there somewhere in this world...there is such a bustard that hoped for his or even her ass to be kicked... no kidding!!! I was once being betrayed by a friend... not to mention his ugly, irritating name, i will just call that guy as "bustard"... it might be too rude... but after all this is my blog, for me to express fully my disgust towards him... there is perhaps no better kind word to used. I meant he was the one who stole the girl which i admire from me, with what i called a back stab. I know that love is blind and it may happen that he likes her too at that time, but even so, he should let me know about it. He said he wants to say some good things about me and then he sits besides her all days since then....to a extent he held her hand few weeks later. That was what he called helping hands... That incident was a huge blow to me and from there onwards, there was a period when i looked at friends as a tool. But even so, i was so glad that he took her away... because after that from what i heard from others... she turned out not an angel but rather a devil. When she wanted something from someone, she will sticked over to that guy and gained the benefits...such bitchy act! That is also why i hate whiny girls... it will forces that forbidden memory back into my mind, and the dark side, emotional side of me will just take over me!

Lucky trip but twice unlucky games

Today choon yon and i decided to give ourselves a deserved rest and took the scheduled 3.27 train back home instead of the rushing-3.07-train. This mean that we had more than 25 minutes to walk from Taylors to the train station... For your information... normally when we took train scheduled at 3.07, we had only about 10 minutes to spare!!! That also given that we were lucky to be released before 2.55pm. Today when we reached the train station, from far i noticed that there was someone guarding at the entrance... meaning we had to waste RM 2 to buy our ticket home ( normally we just pass through if no one is guarding ). Well, at first we did complaint, if not mistaken that is... but it turned out to be extremely worth the money this time round. I couldn't had ask for the better time for the officer to check the ticket in the train... since i had bought the ticket. Choon Yon was delighted and glad that we were to bought the ticket, mostly because of the guy in charge at the entrance. The RM 2 turned out to make us had a profit of RM 8 as a fine for not having a ticket was RM 10. Things turned out too good for me though and it seemed that that lucky escape cost me quite a lot of my luck. Deng Jye ( a neighbour ) asked me out for few games of pool, why not? was what i thought... We played 2 games and in the first games, i trailed by 3-0 in the beginning but then managed to counter and only the decisive black match ball to put into hole. He on the other hand, had another stripes ball to be holed before can took the black ball. I missed the chances and loss to him. Feeling unlucky, i challenged him to my unbeaten arena-the British pool. The previous one was American pool. This time around, i quickly stormed to a tremendous lead and in the end, what left for me was another similar scenario. I just needed to score that black ball but this time around he needed to score 5 more yellow balls!!! before had his chance to win the game... He got all his luck just in time while mine seemed to depleted... my target ball kept sticking around his balls or being blocked by his ball... he managed to score all his yellow ball and now it was a tight match again... He had the initiative to finish the game, but his placement was just slightly off and the ball ended just in front of the hole!!! My win! That was what i thought...even he already looked stunned by the position of the ball. He stopped the game, wanted to take down the picture of the ball ( showing how unlucky he was to his friends, that was what he said ). I smiled and bended downwards and prepared to take the suppose-to-be winning shot. I charged my stick backwards and just when i tried to hit it... I miss the shot completely!!! The stick only sliced past the upper region of the ball!!! and it isn't moving at all... well ok...perhaps few mm? I was struck in horror and i knew just how badly did i just miss... He won eventually... since it was an easy shot after all. Today, my proud record over him had ended in both British and Americans pool...

Prom Next Week!!!

On 19 of July, few friends of mine organize a prom night in Klang Executive Club ( KEC ). The details are said to be semi-formal...meaning that long sleeve is enough for us to enter the prom... Still though, I could not find a partner for that night... I try to ask few girls like dana, kit yee, sook, li ying and even min min... but either they are restricted from going out at night or simply no transports. Well, although my friend told me that lots of girls are going there alone, it is just simply quite embarrassing not to have a partner in a prom. I guess i am just destined to be prom-alone this time... Hopefully, the prom will be quite interesting and i can get to dance with pretty girls... Only then my RM 45 is worth the value of the prom...haha. About my hands, I am thinking to use a white glove to cover it up, though it will then left me no other choice of dressing then....

Good Friday

Yesterday ( Friday ) i went to cinema with Kit Yee, Ling Eng and Yee Ling and of course Arvin and Lee Beng. We were late for the 3.20 show and so had go for the 4.10 slot. We took our time for some interesting video game and some dancing, drum-beating game. But the most memorable one obviously was the dancing game.... Damn embarrassing for me as i was stoned when dancing... Lee Beng wasn't any better though...Haha... Arvin and the rest of all were busy laughing and even both the dancers could not helped but laugh along for their idiotic dance ( if it can be even called as a dance ). Well whatever it was... it surely helped to get all of us some laughters and got us closer to each other. The movie we watched later then was Hancock, starring Will Smith and others ( since I dun know other actors, they are referred to others then ) haha! The Hancock movie was great to be honest, and it was damn funny.... Smith was fantastic... i had to admit that... Brilliant actor, the ending was unexpected and thus so it really was surprising... In conclusion, the fact that i chose to go out with this bunch of friends proved to be well worth it.

G1- Gangster No. 1 !!!!

Gangster group no. 1? No doubt when you look into the lower picture... so i guess this can be called my classmates for this year. Nice, funny, lively are all the description i can think of for my class... Looking at the upper one photo... The funny 'couple' in front of the picture is the jokers of the group... Thanks to them, we have lots of fun and...sometimes stupid jokes too! The left joker is called Suren the Black Panther! ( guess there isn't any need for me to explain why is black panther instead of pink right? ) Haha!! The right joker is called Sanjay, the Sanjaya ( girl name since he acts like a girl last time )! Hehe... since we are G1, we can call ourself Great One or Grand One or... ok judging from the lower picture... Gangster No. 1!!! Don't you dare to have a cross with us... well challenge us if you have guts though... and better make sure it is when there is a teacher around... cause that is when we will just make a fool of you instead of whacking the shit out of you...haha!!!

Empire of Caesar- form 4/5 part 1

This is a photo taken in the my school graduation ceremony... From the left is Khoo Chung Guan, me, Cheah Tze Sin and then Ng Siok Kim. We are like a gang... just that in this picture...there is one member missing... By the way... you can see that all our gang members are handsome guys or girls. Alright, you can exclude me for that if you prefer so. Haha! Tze Sin the so-called gang leader in this group, is beautiful as you can see, her personality though isn't that wonderful but otherwise still perfectly fine. Siok Kim a good friend who can really make your life colorful and eventful; always has some stupid jokes or ideas...



From the left... the first one is undoubtedly me, followed by the little red apple-Jacinda ( pretty isn't it? Damn lucky hor me? ), Sook Kien, for which is called the sexy girl in our form 5 class ( though i doubt that, nevertheless, she has a lovely personality and some beauty too... hard to find someone with such inner and outer beauty... other one with such perfection is jacinda! ), the most right is another nice and adorable friend of mine- Hui Hui. Cute name right? Just judging from her name make you feel that she is a wonderful person to meet with already.




This is a boy gang.... well you surely can say that! The one left-est is Kuang Seng, a friend that evolve surprisingly in form 5. In form 4 i could say that no many people even notice his presence, who would know that he truly makes his presence felt in form 5 by pairing up with my former partner ( i mean sitting ) Yee Siang, the one who stand next to him in this photo. Yee Siang has been regarded as one of the most talented chinese chess player in Kwang Hua, well, he is the one who truly teach me to be good, but not the best though...haha! The one standing at the centre is the one i said earlier who is missing, the member of my gang, Chong Tat! He is a guy that slightly... i mean just slightly better looking than me, maybe slightly more gentleman...erm... maybe slightly honest person than me... ok slightly better man than me. Damn... talking about another great guy again... Chung Guan ( second from right ) is a truly wonderful person... his only weakness according to some girls ( but for me is a strength ) is the fact that he is stingy... well girls are complicated aren't they? Last but not least... me of course on the most right... OKOK no introduction needed i know that... no need to show that faces! Haha!!!


Well... she is Hoi Min Min... I guess there isn't any need for me to say which one is the she right? Erm... she is not my girlfriend but nevertheless, i have to admit i do fall for her in form 4. Thus news spread like wild fire in the forest... the whole class know that. Damn... is that part of my miscalculation that leads to my failure of secondary kingdom? Perhaps... who knows? Quiet at first sight, talkative once you get to know her is what i can describe of her. She is...according to my friends, a really good, hardworking girl that i shouldn't give up with... but still, a past is a past... though she never reject me nor accept me. What can i say? Not being accept is as good as a failure already right?

My Hand

My luck this year can be described by one word-bloody. This is what a fortune-teller told my mum. Mother warned me about it and said i would better take care of myself... Fine then, then a lot of misfortune happened to me...countlessly, and this recent weird injury...caused my hand to be in a really terrible form. Still wondering what actually caused my hands to feel weird, now my hands had been terribly dehydrated. The skin of my both hands had peeled off... hard to imagine that, and better don't think too. Or u might suffer a nightmare. Even today when i went to bank and needed to do a thumb scan. The thumb scanner could not read it... it was a total blank...meaning i did not have any thumb print. Shock? That was what i felt back then... Looking at my bad-looking hands, even i could not know when will it fully recover. I can't go gym, neither can i play badminton, and obviously basketball is a no no... all i can play is just pool ( like snooker ). Everyone thought i m crazy about it.... I'm not... But what else can i do then... even opening the calculator cover, writing hurt me from time to time....and i cannot allow any expression of it...because it is a sign of weakness.....