Sweetest cookies ever ...

Today i went to Life Care Diagnostic to have my medical checkup. Before leaving house, my parents were like giving me more and more money...saying that it might not be enough...In the end, my left pockets contained a sum of RM800...zzz...and the sum in fact....was just RM205...haha... And i had to drive all the way to the unknown place...God knows where it was... Unexpectedly....i found it very much easy to spot...and i managed to get myself a parking slot...well...not exactly a parking slot...but still, i got myself a parking ticket and put it in my car... I wondered since when i started to get myself a parking ticket...haha...oh yea, i met Eva too in the Diagnostic centre. She somehow had to redo her urine test...hehe Eva, what happened? haha!!! Oh yea, back to Windmill... Melissa gave me her hand-made cookies!!!! Wauuu...there were so lovely and they tasted great!!!! I couldn't believed it!!! Haha...The cookies were probably the sweetest cookies i ever had....It was just so so sweet haha ;) Thanks dear....

And..this is by far the list of people going to attend my farewell party...whoever don't find their names in it when they should...inform me immediately!!!

Master Tan and his family(3p), Kin Chin and Meng Yee, Jervenn, Tze Sin and her bf, Chung Guan and Chong Tat, Chuey Wen.

Melissa Pillay

Ok...19 of Jan...Well...Melissa Pillay is my girlfriend now. I will try to put Kit Yee behind my head now...Those that remains...might just be the sweet memories between us. Yes, i will still be there...like always whenever anyone need a help... That is the promise to all my friends ;)

Melissa Pillay...i have blogged about her before...making some short introduction about her. To be honest...it was indeed shocking that it all happened to this stage...when i realised that i will go overseas soon. One that made her being such an impression in me...was perhaps afterall....'her' shadow....at first! Melissa is another scorpio like her, good in English as well (we communicate in English)....family background, personality and so at times do make me feel that she is a replicate to her. But NO! It may not be long that we know each other...but considering all the time in Windmill....most of the time, we will be standing together and talking...I don't find it a surprise....considering...everyone in Windmill calling us couple or husband and wife....that is how close we are in Windmill...

One thing for sure...Melissa does knows about the fact that she might be living in her shadow... since...they are quite alike in some areas. But she believe in me that all that remains is only memories...and that well...it might sounds ridiculous for some....but well...she is willing to try out the long distance relationship....having confidence and faith in me. I understand...for most of my friend...that this might just be another joke...considering how sad i was just approximately 1 month ago....and now boom!!! A new girlfriend... Melissa might get a point...it is possible that because both of us got hurt just a while ago...and that...we kind of met each other in a right place and right time....and that maybe we just want each other to fill in the emptiness.... Well...i don't know, what i want to say is... another relationship....both seemingly commited...and both like each other. Kit Yee was my first love....those memories in college were impossible to be erased...nor replaced. But now,i thought perhaps it is an opportunity for both Melissa and me to try out a new relationship....after all...just like Kit Yee...Melissa has a her-so-called-lauzy-close-friend...everything just too similar...one thing i hope not same though...is perhaps the outcome of the relationship....

Fever

Well...Today was my off day and so no work! i woke up at about 8.30am...clearly i was still very very tired...This last few days i really could not sleep tight...constantly wake up and then sleep then wake up again... So yea...and today i went to Aus-Ed for a Australia Pre-departure talk... The talk really was informative and not at all sleepy...so i should said it was great overally! Still...before i went for the talk...i did my gym training at 12pm...but i felt very weak...God knows why...so i did not do as much as usual and had to stopped earlier than i expected... After the talk....i had a chat with some going-to-be-ANU-student...strangers i should said...but well... I played basketball after that, and went back to my house and found myself extremely wore out and whole body was red hot... Not to say that i lost my appetite completely...erm...not exactly...but maybe lost about 50 to 60%?..but FEVER!!! Holyshit....i was not going to Windmill to check them up afterall...Ok, i guess i will just stop here...bye

Lazy...

It had been a while since i last blogged...felt damn lazy, haiz... I will just talked about recent things in Windmill and some details of my daily live then. Starting with Windmill then, there had been 4 new faces in the past 10 days...the first that came was an Indian guy...Reuben if not mistaken...Well, he knows how to take order now...and that makes our (captain and me) live much easier...or should i say...sometimes too easy...he kept taking all the orders...and so...most orders were taken by him. Last Friday came a Chin-dian (i don't know what is the correct spelling,correct me if i am wrong)...and most importantly...is a GIRL!!! That news was like a waves spreading so fast among us(people in Windmill)...haha XD...Most people were like wauuu...finally a girl?! haha... Yea she came and she was like...a Chinese more than a Chin-dian(Chinese and Indian)...Melissa Pillay and bla bla bla was her name. Then yesterday came another 2 guys...a chinese and an Indian i guessed...not really know them much yet since just the second day...anyway...about me then, well, I was having my gym training back in my schedule now. Not only that, I actually went to training on Saturday in primary school...Very much different... and it seemed that there had been a lot of red and red black belt...as well as black belt already...Well...I missed my number 1 position a lot though XD wakaka... I was like barking my sister...'It is all your fault that i will be late and could not get the number 1 place d'... My sister was like replied....'Who dare take that place when you present.' Haha, and i was really lucky enough, she was right after all. Chee Kiang (black belt) took one step back and allowed me to slot into that top right corner after i arrived. In fact....the whole row had a big change...My sister was like standing beside me too! Ok, too much of taekwondo suddenly...Lets change a topic...erm....Oh yea, recently i watched football in the hostel (windmill) with other staffs... The night before yesterday's me and Jyam(captain) went mamak to watch how ManU crushed Chelsea into pieces...So Shock!!! haha... Ok la i guess i have write too much huh? Lets continue next time then shall we? Bye ;)

Gang reunion

Well,Tze Sin told me last week that today our gang will go out together....maybe for the last time before i leave...so yea, i only work during lunch time and after that we went out. We had a seafood steamboat buffer dinner just opposite Sunway Pyramid. We like started eating at 5.30(the few earliest table that time) and stopped eating at 8 like that...haha holy shit,i almost threw out everything when i rushed to bathroom. Talking about our gang, it actually expanded! Haha, i meant that the number of gang increased by 1. Of course, that was Choon Long...Tze Sin boyfriend (not you la cy) haha XD. There were times i called Choon Yon instead, how embarrassing.Oh yea, not forgetting that they made something for me...well...i guessed i should just give all the credits to Tze Sin, Siok Kim and Choon Long gua...haha, they were probably the one making it...The thing...is weird...but the thoughts that count...and it is so sweet of you all(ts and sk especially).Thank you too Chung Guan and Chong Tat that despite you all have school during morning..you are willing to spend your rare...evening free time with me ;) We kind of left at about 8.45...after Siok Kim molested me XD...sounds so wrong haha... That time, ts was like punching my chest for fun...then after she said, i got...'breast'...zzz...you know the outcome of it? Ts was like holding my arms, and sk was trying to touch!!! What the hell!!! I liked kept retreating nia haha,sk! You really scared the shit out of me haha ;) Even when we left, i was so scared when you wanted to hug me that time haha! Anyway, thanks for everything la you all...I will miss you guys...but seriously, i might not be back even during the semester break...lets see how thing goes la...

The picture below is the thing they make specially for me...thanks a lot!

*Actually the one making it was just ts...haha i knew it the next day and so i i will say it here.
*Sorry ts boyfriend...Jun Loong, i spelled wrongly your name...haha...sorry ya ;)

Sorry for everything i have done

I will leaving here...and perhaps....not trying to come back to this piece of land anymore...for at least another...1 year....I had no idea that...i...'stressed' you out back in the past.I don't even want to talk about it anymore. It is foolish to be talking about it anymore...especially...for everything i have done and said...it could only turned into another message for you.Or maybe, i was just....an arrogant fellow...perhaps i have just hurt a lot of people but i just don't know...for those people...i apologize here...i could not name you all out,...because as far as i concern...if ever i know i hurt someone, i would apologize to him or her straightaway. Nevertheless,i will leave you in peace then...don't worry, i will not be there anymore,disturbing you in all kind of days anymore...and i should be especially glad that my flight to Australia will definitely be ahead of valentine day... I won't be bothering you for anything anymore. I will disappear from your world...at least i will try my best to hide myself in your shadow...if you need me in any case,just look back then....that is always the promise i make to my friends...and you as well

陈势安 抱歉 I am sorry

我尽量不去怀念
反正都遥远
多美的画面
都是昨天
其实最好别碰面
问候都避免
朋友的界限
太难拿捏

我不懂如何敷衍
假装已事过境迁
这角色该怎么演

非常抱歉
并不想知道你生活的细节
我的感觉
永远不会成为你的感觉
非常抱歉
离开你我打算更彻底一些
需要时间
慢慢复原
练习如何去遮掩
对你的感觉

I will try my best not to recall the memories
since it is already out of bound,
no matter how beautiful it is...
It is the past already.
I will try my best not to see you...
not even saying anything even if we meet...
the boundary line of friend and boyfriend
is just too thin...

I don't know how to pretend...
that i am no more your boyfriend...
I just couldn't act it out.

I am sorry,
I will try not to ask you about everything...
I finally understand that our feeling to each other
will never be the same
I am really sorry...
I need to leave you for now...
I need some time to recover...
I will learn how to cover up
all my feelings towards you

SHE 安静了

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你


Only a piano is accompany me here
The wedding song in my dreams
have become a plain,lonely melody
In this love tug o war
You had choose to love yourself.

All the pictures are what you like last time
Now i am still standing here...
but memories are what remained for you.

You say i love you too much,
making you feel uncomfortable...almost drown
You are scared to commit yourself
worrying that this relationship will collapse any moment
Splitting is a good way of letting you decide what you want,
And that whether or not you can give me what i want.

You say i give you so much,but you can't give me anything...
You could not tell whether i am just...
a crush,or true love...or a responsible....and that you are confuse.
Love is a deep wound,letting both of us to suffer so much.
Not disturbing you and be quiet...is just the only thing i can do for you...
Because I LOVE YOU

Only a piano is accompany me here
The wedding song that plays in my dream...
have turned silent in my bedtime dream.
I know loving each other is not easy,
Love is not like mathematics.
1+1 will not definitely be 2
Sometimes no matter how many effort you put into it...
It just don't have the ending you want...

All the pictures are what you like last time
The tears on my face are still hot...
but there is no one holding my hand already at this moment

You say i love you too much,
making you feel uncomfortable...almost drown
You are scared to commit yourself
worrying that this relationship will collapse any moment
Splitting is a good way of letting you decide what you want,
And that whether or not you can give me what i want.

You say i give you so much,but you can't give me anything...
You could not tell whether i am just...
a crush,or true love...or a responsible....and that you are confuse.
Love is a deep wound,letting both of us to suffer so much.
Not disturbing you and be quiet...is just the only thing i can do for you...
Because I LOVE YOU

Farewell party on 30 Jan

There will be one farewell party in my house on 30 Jan (Friday)...any former classmates or college friends please feel free to come. Inform me first though that you are coming. The time i will let you all know in another few days time.