Uncomfortable

Currently, I am writing this in a rather sick state. I wonder why, i just have a bad headache and body just feel so hot. Damn! Sunday is supposed to be a rather enjoying and relaxing day...well....not for me, and more specifically, not today! I made Melissa unhappy in the morning, then i was made to wait for the stupid fridge to arrive. It all started on Friday when i played some 2 hours or more basketball. Since then, I have pains all over my body....haiz...Oh yea, parents are booking their flight to Australia on 13 of March, I am looking forward to it.... They will bring me lots of cooking utensil and all the things i want hehe...

Nice day out

Yesterday was a great day out with Yun Xin and her friend. We went Illawara and Wollonggong... We went to see waterfall too...and it was really a great trip given that it was suppose to be a rather eventless Sunday. Yun Xin's friends were funny and friendly, all of them were really helpful and i really appreciate that...Thanks for everything Yun Xin and all you guys.

New gang...

Here i kind of join a new gang...but seemingly similar characteristic haha... Ivy is so much like Tze Sin....kind of troublesome and yet useless at times haha(this is not like you though ts)...Pricilla...Kind of like Siok Kim...well just bit bit...haha because both of them like shopping...and so that make them look like ts and sk. Tuck Wah is like Chung Guan...haha, according to Ivy, Tuck Wah is very calculative and very stingy...haha very much like cg if...of course according to others' description of cg(not me though...because if cg is stingy, i am too haha) So yea, and i guess we will form a cooking group together and so can save lot more money yea....tomorrow going out with M'sia neighbours, Yun Xin, hope i will have a happy day then bye!

Thanks for the present

Every night...before i close my eyes... I will look at the photo frame my sister did for me.... A photo frame with all my family members in it (and i looked so cool YEA!!!) haha. It was really sweet...with all the little messages decorating the photo and acting as a frame...Brilliant!!!! It was such a great mental boost. It was like every night.... without fail, i will look at it and smile... Thank sister. Next is Melissa my dear. She made a 3-quarter-bottle full of daily quotation overnight....and really it touched me a lot. But then when i reached Australia, and after i got back my luggage...i opened up the valentine present she gave me- a leather wallet...with her photo in it. Cool... i like it really much....i appreciate ur photo very much. It means a lot to me.... both this photo...(family photo as well as Melissa photo) were things i will take extreme care of in Australia...i will definitely treasure it. One sad thing though...in ANU there is no Taekwondo...only Jujitsu or Karate and Kick boxing as well as other stuff...damn...don't know what should i choose la... right now i just joined Malaysian Society only.... See how things work out la...bye

Torrid week in Australia

Really you can't asked for any worse than mine.... Going there all alone... and all in a sudden, luggage gone? Oh my god, you couldn't believe how helpless i was at that moment...No cutlery or simply nothing...No towel... No pillow...and not even a blanket were provided... sad case..... I barely hold on to that situation....

But...she gives me life and hope...Melissa...really, your encouragement at that vital time really was crucial... I became tougher and really tried to move on...and now i made it...

I was lonely last time...but you said i will find some friends and and i had got some now...really i couldn't have made it without you... You had been so important to me and you will continue to be very important to me as well...

And at this point, i just finished reading your email...and i understand your feeling very very much... You should be unhappy... i understand that... but i can just say one thing...everything i had do for you...was solely for you....no other meaning than the plain...you means whole lot to me... I understood now why you had been so unhappy over days... The accommodation here was organizing a party...and i just joined....and i also knew that you felt left out because i had not called you that often or even called you that long anymore...but i hoped you can understand...you are not the fallen tree in a busy road....and you will never will be one.

Those past post...were yea...obviously for her....but not after mid of January though... It is true that i loved her a lot last time...but now we are together....and i have never feel so happy and satisfied or even assured before....really, i could not find any other words to express my feeling anymore...just, I love you, and i hope to continue our relationship for as long as possible.

Goodbye everyone

I don't know why... I just feel that this departure is quite emotional....probably because this time i am going to somewhere far far away.... and probably...this time is the twist of my life.... First time in my whole life... I am going somewhere far....ALONE!!! I not really scare though....or excited.... Still, i feel sorry for Melissa because i can only spend a little time with her on this special day. Anyway, I am leaving today(Valentine's Night). I just want to thank everyone here for all their support all this while.... First of all 5s3.... I didn't invite so many people on my farewell party...but in the end it ended as though it is yet another of 5s3 reunion, which is NICE!!! Well even though i m busier than i expected, but i m glad to be busy. Next come G1....I am so grateful to be able to involved in this class activities all this while...College life is really busy right guys? But all well....we have killed SAM rights? So no more worries hehe....

Now i will pick out few people to personally thank them myself.... First of all, Tien Wei, my primary school best friend, i couldn't believe it when you were in my party, it means so so much for me....thanks... Second, Ying Sing... thanks for still supporting me all this while...I told you quite a lot of things about relationship...so yea, you are a few primary friends i still in much contact, that's why i trust you much =) Third up.... Of course who else but another best friend of mine.... Choon Yon. We have been going out quite a lot recently to eat bak kut teh....and or go play cyber last time... I am glad to know you....you are a sincere friend, you care for friend, and that alone make you a very very nice friend. Following up is....Lee Beng and Arvin, I put both of them in same rank because they practically 'hate' each other haha...but both of them really accompanied me a lot....and helped me a lot too...thanks for all the help and sincere advice. Kah Wai....Friend with by far....perfect personality...really, i have nothing negative to talk about you... Whenever i look at you, i will feel embarrassed....how terrible i am...great friend in conclusion. Chung Guan...thanks for being at my side all this while, it is you who encourage me to study hard thanks ;) Chong Tat and Siok Kim....almost forget you two haha, nahhhh....thanks really i am rather speechless already....but i just want you two to know that you two have make my life beautiful by Siok Kim your laughter and Chong Tat humours at times too...Up next is going to be my top 3 that i feel so so thankful of....3rd....goes to who else but Tze Sin.... I think Tze Sin would not be happy that she is ranked 3rd...but of course, 3rd...is the highest i can give to my very very very best friend....and of course, leader of our gang. You have been very helpful all the while....and even though your Italianese birthday surprise didn't work out....it is just so sweet of you to thought of that....thanks....2nd...is well you all should know her very well....Kit Yee. Of course, why would i hate her...after all, those memories of us being together so closely in those 4 months....it is just so so impossible to erase her....I just hope we will be good friends still, those memories make you someone really important in my life....even after what have happened lately...

1st goes to Melissa Pillay, my girlfriend of course. Who the hell would dare to place his gf in second place haha =) Thanks for this short yet extremely sweet 2 weeks memories....it was really great...really... in such a short span, we have went to all over the places....from almost everywhere in Klang to KLCC.... You have lightened up my life when it is at its darkest point.... and really really... even though now i not putting much hope into it....deep down in my heart, i wish that our relationship can go on....lesser date might be a problem, but now with you having Skype....at least we can see each other still... I said it once...No one will bother us....or bless us...they will only criticise....i just wish that i am able to prove the critics wrong....I would not we definitely can work out....but we will see....

Goodbye everyone.....Farewell....

Lagoon Date

Today Melissa and I went to Sunway Lagoon. We bought a ticket of 3 parks-water park,amusement park and scream park...and it was really really great and nice! Actually we should had go there on Tuesday but...somehow the stupid Lagoon off on that day...so yea, we came today again. Melissa was learning how to float when we were in water park....haha i had to catch her a lot of times...if not she might had drown a lot of times already haha....still she insists of going to the deep region...>1.5m....so yea,haha I was quite busy. We also played the all the slides and water tunnels....really exciting!!! Before we went for our lunch, we sat under a big 'mushroom' and wauuu...relaxing....haha.... The scream park though....was really fearful....shocking....haha Melissa kept holding my arms tightly and kept pulling me to catch up the front line....scared to be left behind to get frightened perhaps haha....and i just dragged by her all along the journey haha.... We had dinner at Station One near Giant after coming back from Subang....and oh yea, a couple was splitting in front of us....the girl cried....sad. Erm...my body now is like red hot...gosh, forget to put on sun block cream....i am so gonna be a blackie d haha. Ok, i better go pack my stuff now....not finish yet haha ;)

Useless piece of shit

Useless piece of shit...that is the word that suit me the best now. I know i am selfish, stupid, not knowledgeable.... Yea, i am just so not good...yea, i just so irritating....and i too love to dig up old wounds.... Yea yea yea...i am just a selfish person after all living in the world of myself.... YES!!!!!! I'M JUST A PIECE OF SHIT...FINE!!!!!! I don't need sympathy...I just don't know how to satisfy everyone....i do this...i am wrong at another... i treat this person...i hurt another.... Sometimes...i just don't know what should i do... I am really helpless....i always could not get the best solution out of a question.... I am just...so useless... There are times that people just judge someone from their wrong doing....what if they have reasons behind it? A story perhaps? I am selfish and i always live in a world of mine? Where are the peoples when i am in the darkness, crying alone.... Did you really understand what i been through for the whole last 2 months? After all that months, i learn to be independent or perhaps more to being alone and try not to trust too many people... You just never know when they will just launch a missile on you....you never know when they will turn their head against you...Really...sometimes people closer to your heart...could just flinch you easily.... FINE!!! It is good i am leaving anyway.... I am just an eye sore.....leaving will give everyone peace....I am of no good.... bringing disaster after disaster....fair enough.....How can i be so stupid that i even don't know about the fire in Australia? Great, perhaps i can just jump into the fire....i like fire....i like red...and right now, perhaps that is just the place i should go to....

Ending of Taek...what is next?

Sunday...an emotional day for me...that day was my last day of training...taekwondo training in center....I tried to be as aggressive as i can...tried to win all the sprint...everything...i just wanted to be perfect...for the last day... Master Tan gave us a sparring section for the last 30 minutes...as what i had wished for...and i sparred for most of it...as long as there was a empty slot...i will slot in and sparred...and it was just so much fun....And i had sparred like 8 times or 9...and ended it with 6 sparring match in a row, damn exhausting....in the end. But it was just so much fun. After the training, in full uniform, i thanked Master Tan for his teaching for 5 years. It touched my heart when he said he was glad to have me as his student....and before i left the training...i gave Master Tan a full 90 degree bow...as a token of my appreciation and respect. As much as i concerned... He is the one that made me who i am today... Thanks Master Tan. I will make you proud in the future...i will remember you forever....You gave me something very very great....and that was taekwondo...Yes...i still couldn't match up with any seniors yet...but...I am proud of myself....I tried my best to catch up with the difference of 5 years trainings and experiences.... Whether or not i will continue training abroad...that will be a different story... last line of mine is.... Thanks for everything Master Tan....and all my friends too...THANK YOU!!!!!

Thanks for coming

Wauuu...i was really really tired...especially during taekwondo training...just can't keep myself going...i was so poor now....can't even stand the training for more than 1 hour...there was like another 30 minutes training at least...haiz...looks like i really gained some fat during Chinese New Year...and yea i was still feeling very tired...which for sure was caused by yesterday busy BBQ party...i was like sleeping at 3.30 and woke up at 9....dying...luckily MU still won, if not it would be worst haha.... Talking about the BBQ party...thanks a lot for everything 5s3... it was a really great support from you all.... I thought of just inviting some of it only because most might not make it...well in the end, half of them came uninvited haha...not that i was complaining though haha XD...but of course...i had endure a torrid night with all the phone calls haha....Bandar Botanic really a maze isn't it? hehe.... oh yea, thanks for your present too yea... well...until now i haven't touch the present yet...so yea...i don't know what you all gave me yet but anyway thanks...and yea i thank Choon Yon, Chong Tat and Chung Guan for staying overnight too... it was great to continue having some fun even after midnight haha.... it was really fun playing cards with you all...even though i loss all the time haha...oh yea, thanks Chung Guan too for watching football in Sri Melur with me haha...Hope everyone enjoy yourself in the BBQ party yea! And...this is the photo of my girlfriend Melissa ;)

Subang Parade

Second date... was on 30 of Jan (Friday as well). We went to Subang Parade this time...well the truth was i was asked to accompany sa because her mother had a reunion with her friends...and sa decided not to join their lunch so yea...it happened perfectly for our second date hehe... After we had our lunch, we started to walked around...and i started to buy a series of stuff for her...haha.... I asked her to be the model this time...testing 2 shirts...which i bought one of it in the end. Next was a doll :) We went to a shop lot...and yea we saw some cute dolls and what was so great? The dolls we liked were sold at a 'buy one free one' promotion!!! Hehe, of course i bought one for her and i got another identical one for myself haha...couple doll it seemed XD.... Oh and i gave her another gift....well...actually it should be more appropriate if i give this on Valentine Day but well....to be on the safe side....i asked her to come to a stall and choose a ring that she liked and...of course to make sure the size of the ring was nice too... Haha, she was so surprised....and we choosing a nice ring for around 30 minutes haha... After that we went back to Klang with her mum dropping me around Jusco.... It was a great day after all....yyeeaaaa!!!

Dating with sa ;)

Wahhh...it was such a long time since i last blogged....haha i had been so so lazy...haiz, i had gotten a layer of fat around my stomach....i hated myself so much now haha!!! On 23rd of Jan(Friday), it was my first date with Melissa( in short i will call her 'sa'). Well...we went to One-Utama and had a movie...'Bride War' haha...it was so funny and nice the movie...and we had a wonderful time too!!! We had our lunch in The Garden...really fairytale like the surrounding....well...that was of course according to sa la! Erm...we walked around then...and oh yea, she wanted me to try some formal outfits....i was made to be a model for her haha....and in the end she bought one for me. So yea, that was a present she got for me....really embarrassing...haiz...but still it was so sweet haha...i couldn't deny it XD Oh yea, when we were planning to go back....we spent another 1 and 1/2 hours finding my car...i felt really really stupid...haha. Eventually we found it with us going out and entered the basement parking again...this time by foot haha...sa made a mistake of remembering the parking slot after all haha but it was also my fault too for not remembering it haha ;) then that night we went to watched Tze Sin ballet performance before i sent her home.