Fenner 1 Burgmann 2

Argghhhh... We Fenner lose yesterday night in the trial match...by the smallest margin and with us giving away the winning goal from penalty spot. Practically the whole match was kind of one sided in the first half (AGAIN!!!) and we improved great deal in the second half. Playing without Isaac (our main striker which kind of play like berbatov style), Randeep (right midfielder), Phil Gatt (left back) and HOLY!!!!(The now CDM)...So yeah...It was obvious that our midfield was dominated... Up front Loo Hao was alone finding space and using pace to seek for chances.... But mainly...it was all defenders in action. Burgmann was playing a bit physical but with lots of beautifully placed through ball...without Holy playing...I was placed in a sweeper role... I still kind of confused between sweeper and stopper...Burgmann had 2 brilliant chance to break the dead lock on either half...and surprisingly for both attempt I was at the right spot at the right time (this phase normally is for a striker but oh well...), i somehow managed to have a touch on both shots and critically both shots path just bent around the post... Auro later made a seemingly harsh tackle...from behind and in the PENALTY BOX!!! God Damn it...Fenner was giving away penalty kick and that seals the winning goal...

Centre Back in prospect...

OMG...OMG...OMG.... Yesterday training was really really like hell... The coach was like a mad dog...giving us all kind of tough fitness punishments... Now my legs muscles are still paining a bit...and I have a trial match vs Burgmann today what the hell??? The coach asked us to sprint between the 2 hockey post for 10 laps....You have any idea how far is it? AND one thing need to emphasize is...it is SPRINT!!! Not jog or run!!! Zzzz....

Then during training i realize coach is going to make some tactical changes and some position changes... I might not be playing... at RB...well...according to coach...I might be going up against the strikers...meaning....me...as CB (centre back). Well... it is not like i never play in that position before...but...playing as CB means I will have to head out dangerous crossing...and well...I can't head...and...even if i am forced to...I am not a good heading CB!!! Oh gosh...however...CB might as well fits me too in a sense that...My stamina is not that good ever since i am back to ANU...Being CB means I will not need to push forward that frequently haha I know I am a lazy bum... keke ;) Now...Holy the supposedly CB will be playing CDM (centre defence midfielder)... The match against Burgmann today is going to be at 8pm!!!! Who the hell place a match at night when the temperature could easily fall to less than 7 degree celcius!!! It is going to be freaking...and I mean FREAKING COLD!!!! Pity me...no extra layer of fat...T.T I guess I will have to wear thick jacket...gloves...2 pants to maintain my temperature haha!!!

Centre Back....lets just hope Tom (coach) has think that the best position for me is CB...and I hope I can really perform...CB is not a funny position to play in...God Damn It...I really under pressure now... Please...NO OWN GOALS PLEASE!!!! WAKAKA ;D Lets try our best to keep a clean sheet then FENNER!!!! Adios!!!

Brilliant schedule...

Well well...I printed out my time tables and look at the time slot...GOSH...Most of the box are filled up...God Damn It!!! Why is my friend's time tables always looked so empty while mine? Haiz... I have 21 hours of lectures at least...this hasn't include the tutorial for Chemistry and Biology and additional lab time for Spanish...I am so dead... If you think the 21 hours are all that i need to take care of for a week, you are so wrong!!! I have additional of 2 nights of work...each about 6 hours...so that makes it 12 hours + 21 hours = 33 hours!!! net ( I put net here because the 21 hours as i have said earlier...may rise few more hours... So 33 hours each week? Sorry it is not that easy...I have been involved in Fenner (My university accommodation) soccer team...each week training abt 2 hours...On the match day we take up 3 hours... and this week we even have a trial match against other opponent...and that will most likely take up another 3 hours too... now lets see...33 hours + 8 hours = 41 hours!!!! Argghhh.... I will definitely be freaking tired and exhausted... holy shit... Anyone willing to change their time table with me? T.T and one week the maximum hours are 168 hours...41 out of 168 hours are very much a quarter of the total time already... Not forgetting that if i sleep around 8 hours per day...it will be 56 hours gone... leave? Anyone please do the calculation please...haiz...alright...leave 71 hours.... It is so little time only...what the hell... and i thought that i am going to have a easy-going semester and concentrate on my studies more... but you know what? This semester will be worse than last semester... However...one bright side to this is that soccer match will only takes place in the first term of semester...so yea... I guess in the second term... I will have additional of 8 hours plus free time and higher energy level...ok have to go...bye! Take care you guys ;)

Lost virginity....

LOL!!! FIrst of all...don't think of dirty stuff or expect anything dirty wakaka ;D I went to clubbing with Tuck Wah, Jason, Ivy, Jonah, Pris and Michael....and the virginity i lost...was that the virginity of clubbing? Well...not sure if that sounds right for you...but since i never go clubbing before which was something Jason tried to force me so many times back in the past...well...I finally went...and well...it was noisy and loud? haha!!! But few things i like...OK!!! NOT ABOUT GIRLS OK???!!! It is the drinks... If not mistaken....I drank...not sure if it was whisky or vodka...plus either lemonade or raspberry...I tried both...and i prefer the liquor combine with the lemonade though...taste much better...at least no that sweet ;) and oh yea...I actually went clubbing the day i had the soccer match...we went at 12 and enter the club at 12.45...I slept at 4am that morning i should say? and I woke up at 9am... realizing i had a soccer match at 11am...great.... The musics...well...some of it were really nice to listen...and quite fun too haha

Then on Saturday and Sunday I went out with Jason...well he brought me around to taste coffee...On Saturday we went Canberra Centre with Ivy following along...and we had coffee and a dinner...$$$!!! Then on Sunday, we went out to Dickson with Michael this time...to a cafe for a lunch... I ordered flat white(coffee) and 'BIG BREAKFAST' ...which Jason said is famous of in Aus...so yea...I had that breakfast thingy at 1.30pm....and I almost vomited...it was ridiculously large meal....The story is...in Aus...if they say is large or big...IT IS!!! Wakaka ;D

Before that we shopped around in 2 Asian Grocery to get some stuff... I constantly seeking his advise on which ingredient is good in cooking noodles...and all sorts of information about cooking stuffs... He is a pro!!!

Oh well...I hope this semester i can really know some cooking...which is something i really want to learn... I always think that a man who knows how to cook is so cool wakakaka!!!! I even now trying to change my job from a waiter to a kitchen hand...but only if i at very least still getting the same amount or if not more pay than the waiter job i am doing right now....hehe...I really think kitchen staff...can learn much more thing than waiter...at least in kitchen i can constantly look at the chef cooking...and hopefully i can learn few dishes from him then haha!!! OK have to go to work now...take care!!! Adios!

Fenner 2 vs Unilodge 1

Today is the first match of the Fenner soccer team...and our first team is the dark horse...Unilodge! Why I say it is the dark horse? Well...according to our senior, Unilodge soccer team is the worst last year...but things change!!! This year Paul, a winger of our team (Hong Kong Youth Team) said that Unilodge had form a HK Youth Team Defence.... This is really something that can change an entire team...not only that...they had started training since last semester!!!! WAUU.... When Tom (Fenner's soccer coach) announce the starting lineup... I was there in the starting lineup as a right back!!! I was quite happy to be honest...

Still we started the match rather scrappy...The pitch was slippery...I even fell down one time while I was defending...luckily they couldn't score that time haha!!! Unilodge on the other side...had some good passing...and constantly tearing down our flank defence...meaning...me... We really just survived the first half...though in the second half after some corrections and reminding from Tom....The Fenner team changed completely.... Holy (CB) the defence tower had been magnificent at the core of defence...and with our defence suddenly holding off their offence...our strikers and midfielders...who are rather scrappy as well in the first half started to attack constantly... It wasn't a surprise when Tristan (MF) knock in the opening goal in a goal mouth scramble. We finally lead!!!

The game continues and we started to dominate possession and started to create loads of chances...and after a while Tom sub me out with Thomas going in... The next few minutes later Unilodge got a corner kick...long pass wiped in...and the opponents just knocked the ball into the goal...simple goal...worse still....I didn't able to recall any defenders making a challenge on him...well...they managed to equalize then... An unexpected equalizer while the defense wasn't alert that time....

As Unilodge spirits started pumping high...Fenner team caught them in a surprise attack... Somehow...Justin slipped past between 2 CB ...let me repeat this...slipped past BETWEEN 2 HK youth team CB!!! and with the ball under his legs still... I had no idea what happened to the 2 CB...they looked totally stunned and pressured...and Justin cooly send the ball past the GK....2 vs 1... Unilodge roaring back trying to equalize...but almost!!! Almost...Fenner extend the lead through Justin If the lineman did not put up the flag at the sideline... But as everyone was debating over the waived goal...the referee whistled and Fenner had won the match!!! Hooray!!!

情歌 Love Song by梁静茹 Fish Leong

情歌-梁静茹

作词:陈没作曲:伍冠谚编曲.陈建骐


时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽也磨成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头潺潺的溜走

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片定格一瞬间
我们在告别的演唱会说好不再见

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久


命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

长镜头越拉越远越来越远事隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会礼貌的吻别

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久

陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌心还热着
也该告一段落
还好我有我下一首情歌
生命宛如静静的相拥的河
永远天长地久
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This is a beautiful song...still there is one part...yeah should be only one part that really reflects my heart
你给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久....

She never write me any songs...thats why I delete the word 'write' (which is in chinese)...but she did send me lots of love songs to me before...Those songs will be my memories now...haha...I really love her but i guess love is not about give and take... Sometimes it is just happen like that...it just can't be helped...through this 1 year of relationship with 2 girls...let me know a lot of relationship...let me see through 2 different scorpio haha!!! Let me realize the cruelty of real world...(LOL like really dangerous like that haha ^^)

Tuck Wah might be right at some points... Never put girl No.1 priority in your lives... I will try my best...to study hard now...I know there will be some who will think ...'YEA RIGHT...' like my sister did...but I just said I will TRY!!! HAHA ;) I want to be a successful man...and to be successful...there are always some sacrifices to make... I will try to do that... I have make few moves in order to achieve that...for example...swaping the sure-distinction Math and Application course for the super hard Finance... That makes my overall 4 subjects combination seems so weird... Chem+ Bio+ Spanish+ Finance... Anyone has any idea of what am I thinking? True...by one look at my subject combination...nothing makes sense....But it is because it doesn't make sense that is good!!! Kind of weird huh the way I am saying it right now? But never mind...I can't explain it here if not it might turned out to be an arrogant post for some of you...or maybe all of you...haha!!!

The trip back to canberra

I was in the plane...on my way to melbourne...and for all that 8 hours...I did nothing...nothing except reading a book about success...and closing my eyes...recalling those memories. It was sweet....and pain... That 8 hours...were so long to pass...

So...if 8 hours in a plane was long...what about 8 hours later on in a quiet...melbourne airport? I was walking around...lying around and constantly visited MacD. For more than 5 hours i was lying on a long chair...staring at the wide ceiling...well...again..thinking back what had happened in this past month....and well...probably what had happened in this past few months as well... Whenever i think about that... I would feel sad...heartbreaking you could say... Those time would not be back... Yet...it had always been at this time of loneliness...that she will always be there for me...which...now...no more....

I thought of messaging her...but a lot of questions going through my mind... I was confused...I don't know if i should do that... Now...even after reaching my accommodation...I guess it will be very very hard to forget about her...even if she was never in fenner...but those 4 months back... She was the one giving me encouragement whenever I was feeling down and sad. Mentally as much as anything...I always feel that she was right beside me....

In the melbourne airport...I looked like the only one wearing the mask after checking in the domestic flight...Everyone looking at me... some teens even trying to make fun of it by sneezing and coughing heavily... I ignored them... again...memories of the mask thingy came into my mind... 'selfish'...'too selfish'.... those words whispering at my ears... I really can't take it anymore... Alone in a huge airport for a total of 8 hours... fighting off those sarcastic looks...funny looks showed by the children... now... I even had to constantly fighting off those whisper...This is exhausting... this was mentally demanding... and i don't even know if I can do anything about it...

Right now...this accommodation...looks so different... I don't feel at home anymore.... The room that I live in...though the setting and all the decoration is still the same...I just feel that it is never going to be the same anymore... For all the reasons... I know...this time... I am going to survive alone... There will be no more of supporting from her anymore.... It is not easy to adjust to it... or at least now...I still fail to do so...



Feeling helplessly...I don't know what should I do now... I keep thinking and thinking...about the same old memories....

It is... so sweet...yet so pain...