My Results

Following a long long night yesterday, today i woke up very early....since i just woke up early....even earlier than my 2 alarms....that was how early i was. Well.... I was glad that my Tertiary Entrance Rank was OK....86.10....even though i could not managed even 1 A17.....which means...ya....i could not believe my Biology could not made it to A17...It was such a disappointment. But i am used to it anyway... This few days a lot of things had happened, My life probably have turned 360 degree. Still... I finally understand, that this is life.... I have come to term with that...finally, after spending some time with some friends....some friends that i not expecting to go to....but in the end are the one who besides me....at least for last night ;) Not being your boyfriend anymore dear, might be such a huge disappointment for me, but still, having be able to be your best guy friend or even best friend....for me, it is a great consolation. I will take back the 'bye' i said last night, because i believe maybe in the future....we might still have chance after all.... I won't rule it out yet the possibilities.... Perhaps this is just a breaking time for both of us to think about each other....who knows what might happen right.... Ok, i am stopping here, bye.... love you

Thank you

Thank you for giving me such wonderful past.... It was sweet....sweet...memory. These nearly 4-month relationship made me matured in many ways....and it also taught me a lot of valuable lessons.... I don't really know what should i write now. I could not think of anything in this moment... Please allow me to copy a poem...to express my feelings....

No more dreams of warm hands and soft eyes,
No more hopes of gentle kisses in the night.
The realization of losing you is slow in sinking in.
I never wanted it to be my fault,
So why do I feel like it is?

I always wanted someone who could make me happy,
I yearned for someone to make me feel loved.
And I received all these useless questions,
Which the answers to we don't know.
All left to this pointless wonder.

I don't mean this to make you feel guilty,
It's just that I don't know what to say.
I never expected to ever lose you,
It hit me like a slap in the face.
I hope you know that I still love you.

24 hours...

Next 24 hours is very decisive....i expect some results to be known in another 24 hours.... this has become very nervous 24 hours..... I don't know how i will feel by tomorrow...in fact i don't even know how i might already feel in this midnight..... Tonight...might just be another turning point of my life.... Whatever the results are.... let just...hope....i don't think i will be able to concentrate in my work d.... Watching the clock ticking, praying and daydreaming might just be what i will be doing for the whole evening... I am totally useless now, decisions are not in my hands.... Just....hope this would not be the worst night ever....and if it is....don't worry.....I will be tough..... i will never cry in front of anyone ;) crying is a sign of weakness

Listening to songs....

My media player finally working....and i am listening to this song....

曹格-背叛 (Gary-Betray)

雨不停落下来
花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀
爱只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段还在不在

Translation:
It is still raining,
And why the flower still could not blossom...
You don't love me anymore
And i am at the verge to breakdown
Speechless....
Not going to think anymore about it.
There are many keys in a piano....
But anyone of it go missing...
The song would not be nice.
If both love each other, how is it possible to say goodbye...
You know about this, so why still bother asking?
One turns brave when he loves madly.
I betray myself...
To satisfy you...
I release my hand, but i couldn't say goodbye,
Let this be the last time i love you...
After this, i would not care anymore,
As long you be happy...
Even though i truly regret...
Now....what else i have?
Before you close your door,
Can you check for me?
Check if our memories still remains....

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I know i had post this before....but...now, listening to this song....please allow me to post this again....forgive poor fellow like me....I am glad that media player finally working...at time like this, music is very important to express my inner feelings....

Taekwondo...I am BACK!!!

Hehe....i finally managed to make up some time for taekwondo already, after going for Sunday's training at center. This will give me some sufficient practices before this week examination. Not that i will be taking that exam...but i will definitely involved in it....hehe black belt test always need some senior to go give them some whacking de haha....that is the tradition XD and so i am always happily involved in it haha.... Oh yea, in the future...i should be involved in training more too....as i had arranged of my off day to be on Friday. This mean that i will be able to attend Friday's class already. Not only that, i also had my special request accepted on my Sunday schedule, which means that i now can attend 2 taekwondo classes in a week....yea hoooo....

Ok...laugh time over....my dad just went into hospital....According to my mother, he had some blockage in his kidney, and he had difficulties in urine and also having some constipation lately....just hope he will be fine....Lately it had not been smooth for me, let just hope all the bad luck end here....that my mum newly bought lucky charm for me....will work its magic....if really there is..... kkk have to work now....see ya

Just wasting my emotion

To be honest, i really don't know what i want to write, my mind now are totally blank.... I am lost...since yesterday.... Well, why? That is one that you don't need to know haha.... But my mood changed from excited...to moody after that....
I went to work today...with a serious face...all the workers kept asking me why so serious...or why so quiet....and i would definitely replied them with a smile. Professional right? I don't know what should i do now.... I mean.....I really don't know what had i done wrong....that i deserved all this..... I thought i had done all i can to.....but in the end, it backfired!!!!! I really....speechless. Now.... should i be stubborn? And if i do, is that a selfish act? Or should i just let it be.... i really don't know..... I need to learn to be tougher.... i had been very weak ever since this year.....tears keep coming down easily.... I hate myself.... Since when i did things right.... How it even turned into this situation...even the whole scenario i am not really sure, I am BLUR!!!! BLUR!!!! B...LLLL...UUU....RRR....

Sorry...I m back....

Hi everyone!!! I am back...actually i am back from china 6 days ago...but since i straight away go working in Windmill.....i have no chance to post anything....China trip? Erm....not bad lo! We followed tour de.... and surprisingly, there were girls of approximately my age, and even 2 of the same age as me, haha...oh yea and there was even one of the 18-year-old who was also from taylor's university college....and SAM too haha!!!! But i never see her before la.... Now working in Windmill.....working hour is like 10-2 and 6.30 to 10.30. Seriously....very tiring wehhh....my feet pain everyday, somemore the captain said what first week no off day....haiz.... Sorry ya Kah Wai....according to kit yee, you were asking about me everytime she signed in her msn, thanks for your concern....but since i work until 11 mostly.....after bathing, and all other stuff, it is quite late d, but i will try la....but for this few days i will stay awake until late night la... i have a lot to share with you.... Here is some photo of my trip la....i think i might post more in the future.