Trial ends.... Performance on the way!!!

Ohhh great...erm....or should i say damn...haiz what ever way is it....it doesn't seem to matter now.... i guess my trial is really awful. Still to be honest, i have always have slight confidence in myself no matter how bad the situation is....even for this trial.... Ok, better don't talk about sad things so much.... Oh yeah, the performance for my taekwondo is coming after approximate 1 month...which mean....if not mistaken, about the timing of my final exam. Talking about the performances....haha, seriously there are two types...one is kicking part, where master will choose among the seniors to perform it since they are the best. And another part is like music-based taekwondo...haha very funny but then very nice and cool too. haha. There are 2 types of music, the first is a slow and romantic but yet sad song....second one though....is something like kung fu music d....haha. Master had asked me to train wif my kicks as i might be chose to perform one of the kicks too...such an honour...thats what i will be really working hard on in the next week.... busy week haha...jumping back thrust over somebody....wahhh, can't really imagine how cool can it be if i manage to do it.....damn cool le....haha!!!! have to train that particular kicks already, and might as well do more stretching....mine sucks...haha

dismal trial...

Right until now...i really had a tough week of exam. Obviously i don't know how well or badly i could have done, but i thought until now...i sucks! Apart from my taekwondo grading, everything seemed to be going against me. I was struggling really really hard.... I was not surprised to find myself getting a shameful result after the break. What ever is it... i guess i will have to keep trying to do better for the last day of examination. Math and then Biology.... The former is something i am trying so hard so hard to do better...while the former is something i had did well all the while. Tomorrow might prove to be crucial.... everything, i am trying to be composed, just.....don't touch the games.... and STUDY!!! It is also imminent that i might just bet everything in this one and i push myself well beyond my limit by studying until early morning.... Just hope my plan...won't backfire.

Maze

I survived...obviously, given that i managed to write this post. Phew, somehow today the chemistry really made me sweat like hell, damn hard. Haiz....most people just felt bad of their chem-is-sick paper they just did.... I don't know how well they did, but i knew mine would not go that well. Then, i brought Kit Yee home. Surprisingly, she really did not know the road back to her own house...haha, well, i didn't expect her to be that bad....haha ( she is going to be mad again when she see this post XD ) We were going on a journey to the west it seemed.... After some U-turns, and some "emergency call"....Finally we made it to her apartment!!! Oh God!!! After leaving her apartment, i found myself in a unknown highway.... not knowing where myself was. I was just following the sign board, this is the very first time i find it so helpful. After some 20 minutes, i made it to a familiar road in Klang....and the remaining of the journey was just smooth..... I knew i wasted some times finding her apartment but after all, the fact that i know where she lives is more important of all.... At least now i can fetch her instead of her getting some hard time finding transport.... Still though i really doubt she is allowed to drive....Zzzz, you know what i mean right? People who don't know how to go somewhere....forgivable. People who don't know how to get back home? Funny isn't it? Haha... that is why i think even if she has her license, it might just be a waste. If she can't know where to go....you expect her to drive? And!!! And!!!! that is provided!!!! She does!!!! Pass her driving test!!!! Hahaha......XD.... great....Now i feel like i am going to get some lecture later...or latest....by tomorrow. Haha....

Mystery resolved....fate

I understand it is not a correct timing to write this blog...given all the upcoming examinations...but i had been thinking about this a little while yesterday....or possibly... much more in the past 9 months! I don't really believe in fate....Fate, for me, doesn't really exist....i believe it is all in our hand for us to manipulate our own future...our own pathway.... Well...certainly i am wrong then...

Just like the lyrics of the song 'So Close' i posted recently.... sometimes....even though people like each other, have feeling towards each other.... they ended up in different direction....if it is not fate, then tell me what is it?

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

A lack of communication, or courage? or commitment? or just....arrogance of waiting for each other to make the first move...well, it can all be summed up upon one word right? Fate. Romantic dreams will stop? I hope not... but what am i thinking in the past then? Yeah...this short part of lyrics is what a stupid mistakes i have made in the past.... Not believing in myself.... assuming this and that, and...of course.... i walked away from the dream; thinking it was the best solution to the tricky question.... indeed i don't get my answer then, and not knowing whether or not what is the answer to it.

Running away is just that stupid.....It is idiotic for anyone to do it....well although i think most people still practise it...including myself. So i am telling everyone out there...never never run away from any mystery....solve them and face the truth....you might want to avoid a possible critical damage u get if you face it....but isn't not knowing what the answer really are...is more.... erm....torturous? It is just like a frost bite.... it would really be a long term stress for anyone....right? At least you would have no more regret in the future...

So close
So close
And still so far

Take a good look at people around you.... Stop thinking of perfect love....there wouldn't be any until you seek it out and after you try it out. And it is just not the fact that they are the most handsome or wealthy or other positive qualities of your requirements of your partner. It is just simple.... go down to your heart, get the right feeling and say it out to her/him. Be a coward, and your life will be awkward....haha, one last advice... you two can be so close, so close but in the end, are so far far apart....

Times up.... i really need to get to work now... and after writing this post....i hope i manage to kill away any thoughts that distracting me.... Good luck everyone!!! hehe

P.S. I love you Kit Yee, don't worry about it.

Up for challenge!!!

Tomorrow will officially kick start my busy 1 week of test and examination....when i take on the taekwondo second dan test... Haiz...i totally don't have any time to train my body or skill during this week...nevertheless i am still rather confident to pass it....Let just pray for it...haha!!! Then next week....arrrgghhh....chemistry, english, physics, biology, and mathematics.....zzzz.... talking about my math....i need to get a near-perfect marks in the remaining exam...in another words, in my trial and final exam....god damn it.... Oh yeah...today, i bought a bouquet of flower for Kit Yee... she was very much surprised....haha just hoped she really liked it la....it was an 1-month-anniversary present for her....i mean almost reach the date d...but considering the congested-schedule of next week....the present was arranged slightly ahead of the anniversary la.... and... i guess she totally forgot about it...it seems so...haha whatever la then...have to go to study. God bless everyone that is sitting for any kind of exam.... of course.... most of them is for me la! hehe

So Close

So Close....

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Rush Hour

I manage to find a gap of time to write this post....a short one i guess...Although you won't want to know where i m right now while writing this post....you really won't want to know it...hehe.... Anyway the fact that i am now so busy to even find a time to write a post indicate that i'm serious in preparing for my examination....which is a very encouraging sign...haha...given the fact that i'm very very lazy.....Still....i know it is rather late but i will think back of what Jacinda often advised: nothing is too late to be done. That is one of my many support that hold me from collapsing....the burden...tiredness....exhaustion i suffering....i know i have no rights to complain.....i know that perfectly well.....anyway....i will push myself to the limit....until the very very last bits of energy.... i have....and try my best in the trial exam...after all, i won't want to let you-know-who down....haha... Bye!!!!