Officially Missing You...

She just got on the bus to Sydney for Australia Chinese Debating Competition an hour ago...and I have already missing her... This is really funny, I can't believe all I did in tutorial was just copying stuff as I could no longer concentrate myself... 'Oh man, she will only be away for 3 days...', I keep telling myself... No doubt, it seems that the next 3 days are going to be long for me... I think I am officially missing you...


Tamia-Officially Missing You...

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go

‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away

And today I’m officially missin’ you





I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I’ve fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today I’m officially missing you





Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...





All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at

all





Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I’m officially missin’ you





Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially





Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way to let go of you





Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...





It’s official

Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I’m officially missin’ you

Memorable weekend

31st July, I went out with a friend... We had an early lunch in a cafe, then a movie (inception). Believe me, it wasn't a relaxing movie at all... Got me headache and puzzled the whole 2 hours. We went KoKo Black later to have sips of Ice choc and Ice choc mocha as well as some choc dessert, marvelous!!!

1st August, I was sick at first, and she came over with a lemon honey to cure my sore throat... Something happened along the way... In the end, it was a sweet sweet ending :P

If I can go all the way up...it is all becz of you(s)

It has been a while since I last post anything... My life isn't smooth at all... A lot of things has happened and I faced lots of them... I have made some important decisions... I fell from heaven to hell... but I will crawl all the way back up... I truly appreciate those supports...and the last thing I want to do is to disappoint you all...again...

Confused

What has gone...sometimes I still hope I can take it back...What is in my heart remains...those feelings never change... I'm not a coward if I can take on IB...but why? Why am I so worry of tackling this sensitive issue...? This is so unlike Caesar... or maybe...after everything that happened last year...I have changed after all? I wonder...

Inward Bound (IB)

Recently I have decided to have a go for the Fenner IB team. I believe that all of my friends in Malaysia would definitely have no idea of this IB thingy. Thus, I would explain it here. Inward Bound is something like a marathon, but it is much much harder than a marathon. What is the same is that both needs stamina to run long distance. The difference? IB requires navigation skill, in other words...ability to read map, use compass and identify your location. Yes, so basically in a marathon, you would run according to the designed path. On the other hand, in IB, your eyes would be covered before being left to some places (most of the time in forest) and all you have are a satellite phone (you call means you lose), a letter with the position encoded, foods, drinks, sleeping pack... That is right...that is what IB is all about!!! Oh yea, lets talk about the distance... IB has been the most popular and probably one of the most extreme interhall sports event. There will be 7 division...For each div, each hall will have to send out a group of 4 ppl in a team to compete. Just for your knowledge of the distance possibly covered...the lowest div...7...the team will be left approximately 16km from end point, and the higher the div...the further you would be thrown away from the end point. Div 1 if not mistaken would be about 40-50km away from the end point... Recently, I have quite a few pains here and there... I almost twisted my left ankle few times while training...my right knee looks sore...and pain at times...but what is worrying me is my back pain. It is kinda spontaneous...at one time, I suddenly feel painful while I'm sitting on my chair!!! The second time it hurts was when I was walking slowly to my room!!! How weird can it be??? One good thing though was that my stamina now has become pretty awesome... I could actually finish running 20km...and now even after finish 10km, my breathing is still smooth... Anyway, hope that I can make it into the team, I am included in the second draft for div 7 but the end results would be posted on next Monday...

Back to primary school...

Just finish watching 鹿鼎记 (Royal Tramp), I felt that it was a really nice story. I watched it before, but I always love to watch it again.

Today, I went back to SJK(C) Perempuan school under the invitation of Ying Sing (the temporary teacher there). Sitting in the hall, with so many students, I felt that time has been going so quickly. I still remember what I used to do when I was small... One thing that i must and will and loved to do in primary school first grade was to buy a 20 cent durian ice cream... Yup, just a 20 cent durian ice cream and I will be happy to attend school. I bought it everyday in school without my mum knowing it, which they knew in the end like 7 years ago when the seller bumped into me and greeted me. He even told my parents that he remembered me because I always wanted that same durian ice cream for 2 years...

In 3rd year of primary, I got 10 strokes of rotan. Year 4 was my torrid year, skipped that part. Year 5 and 6, being a bully in bus and always got into fight with first class student and the arrogant Kenny Yeap of our class...haha. Me playing my last chasing games in Hin Hwa first year of secondary. After 3 months, I left unwillingly. The letters that I got after I got to Penang from those friends, I always kept it to myself. How naive was I at that time, to keep on writing letters to her after I gone to Penang. That was a short sweet memories. I was back in Klang the next year and entered Kwang Hua...and my adventure continued...

Coming back to being in the hall, it was so comfortable in this new hall...with air conditioner available. Looking around the school, it was never the same, There was no more field, no more basketball court, no more single storey classroom...all that we have now are 5 stories building, beautiful garden, and colourful canteen.

Right now, looking at those kids, correcting their exercise books...I couldn't help thinking how tough can a teacher be...

FIFA World Cup Trophy Tour

On the 29 of January, our gang reunited again to attend to one of the most prestigious event of the year(LOL sounds so grand haha). We gathered in Tze Sin's house as usual. At 6.45pm, we left and headed to Mid Valley for the event. However, the path to Mid Valley wasn't at all boring, in fact it would have been said to be rather...exciting...? In a horrendous traffic of Federal Highway, we were all laughing because of all the jokes from TS and Siok Kim. Exciting too I said because we...almost got into an accident with me looking at the camera of SK at the back(I'm the driver). My bad my bad haha ;P To be honest, probably I exaggerated the situation too much by slamming the break. It was the moment I turned my head back front to realize my car was about to kiss the butt of others LOL XD It seems that recently I have been driving rather dangerous hmmm... Anyway, as my patience was about to be tested to the limit in that lengthy jam...we finally made it to the parking lot...well at the entrance of parking, more confusion and irrational driving from me again... -.- After meeting Jun Loong up in the parking, we proceed to the event...being 30 minutes late...(8.30pm)

In there, there were quite a few interesting and funny activities. Chong Tat and I played the rope-pulling games. The rope in this case was more like a rubber band type and while we are running and pulling the rope further until we reached a certain point where 2 persons were holding us...you could say it was the elastic potential energy being stored LOL physics. The moment we jumped backwards, oh man...for once in my current lifetime I felt the strength of elastic energy, completely being pulled behind and flew rolling back to my original spot...Gosh, it was painful...and that was how I got both my elbows some bruises...

Then we went for some painting haha, JL, TS and SK opted to have their selected country flag painted on their arms or hand. Chung Guan, CT and I were painted at our cheek hehe ;P Later, JL, CG and I had some goal celebration video too haha...all just for fun. We took pictures here and there before going into a separated department and watched a few-minutes 3D video of the World Cup. It was then that we were being brought to take some quick pictures with the World Cup trophy. Quick I said as each and everyone had only about 3 or most...3.5 seconds? for them to take a snap shot of us ;D The photos being printed though...was FOC!!! That was one of the great thing about them...oh yea not to mention there were plenty of Coke for everyone too haha (Don't tease me, I was thirsty in there alright keke). Finally we had our supper in SS2 before returning to our own sweet home lullullluuu~~~

畫沙-袁詠琳.周杰倫

午後的風搖晃枝椏　抖落了盛夏　
我對著蟬認真說話　在對你牽掛
晚風輕敲著海沙　浪堆積起無暇　
我跟純真在比傻　愛上你放不下　
這風景如畫　（開滿鳳凰鳳凰花）　
院子裡花灑　（澆灌著那種情話）　
等最美的晚霞　等故事長大　

用手中的流沙畫一個你呀　曾說過的永遠我們一定不會擦　
我的青春開始在喧嘩　因為大聲說愛你而沙啞　
用手中流沙輕描著你的臉頰　也答應說好的未來絕不會重畫　
許過的承諾我就不會再去拿　因為我愛你呀　

將思念壓成花　有你的記憶乾燥成瓶中沙　
像沙漏般想著你滴滴達達　
擦美美的趾甲　喝你泡的茶　原來幸福可以這優雅　

不論多大風沙　路多分岔　我一樣找到你呀　
管它風怎刮　管雨又怎下　越痛我就越來（越瀟灑）　
不摘不屬於自（己的花）　喔愛閃著淚光為你我可以當傻瓜　

這風景如畫　（開滿鳳凰鳳凰花）　
院子裡花灑　（澆灌著那種情話）　
等我們的童話　等誓言落下　

用手中的流沙畫一個你呀　曾說過的永遠我們一定不會擦　
我的青春開始在喧嘩　因為大聲說愛你而沙啞　
用手中流沙輕描著你的臉頰　也答應說好的未來絕不重畫　
許過的承諾我就不會再去拿　因為我愛你呀　

用手中的流沙畫一個你呀　曾說過的永遠我們一定不會擦　
我的青春開始在喧嘩　因為大聲說愛你而沙啞　
用手中流沙輕描著你的臉頰　也答應說好的未來絕不重畫　
許過的承諾我就不會再去拿　因為我愛你呀　因為我愛你呀

Death is just meter away...

Today i driving back to home...on my way, i passed by the ever-under-construction Klang new bridge...and there was where I almost died...and maybe just...some serious injury to my important right arms.

Frustrated following a lorry in that area...and looking at my right, the van is slightly behind my car. Without having another check, I slammed the accelerator and next moment, I have a quick right turn to my right. Probably at that time, the heaven shined on me, and when I have another look behind my right shoulder, I could see nothing but a silver metallic right in my eyes. Absolute shocked but luckily alert enough, I turned my car immediately in an opposite direction. That van driver did not even have the time to hon me...and luckily enough I am, I spotted the van at the very last moment. I steadied my car and quickly I winded down the window and punch my hands high into the sky...with all five fingers pointing to the sky...(an apologetic hand sign...well at least that is the case for me)

After that incident, for a full minute, not even a vehicle (including that van) dare to passed by my car. When I turned off the engine, I could not help but wondered what could have happened if I had not make that quick second turn... That was when I woke up...and knew that I would have brought along some truth with me.

Life can short...and it can be taken from you anytime...and because of that, at some point, I am afraid I will not be able to say something to some important persons... Letting them know that how much they have mean to me...(hey come on, don't just think of love in this kind of scenario haha :D)

說謊（林宥嘉）Lie

是有過幾個不錯對象
說起來並不寂寞孤單
可能我浪蕩　讓人家不安
才會結果都陣亡

我沒有甚麼陰影魔障　你千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱　何況那算甚麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你懂我的　我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊　請別以為你有多難忘
笑是真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳　沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口　聞得到玫瑰花香　被你一說是有些印象

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你知道的　我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊　是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
愛一個人　沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊　人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊　是愛情說謊
它帶你來　騙我說渴望的有可能有希望
我沒有說謊　祝你做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請你全遺忘

歌曲：左右为难-郑中基张学友

左手写他右手写着爱
紧握的双手模糊的悲哀
我的决定会有怎样的伤害
面对着爱人和朋友
那一个我该放开
一边是友情一边是爱情
左右都不是为难了自己
是为你想吧该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拨
装作不在意的你如何面对
右手写爱左手写着他
摊开的双手空虚的无奈
我的无言有最深沉的感慨
最亲的朋友和女孩
我的心一直在摇摆
一边是友情一边是爱情
左右都不是为难了自己
是为你想吧该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拨
装作不在意的你如何面对
你比我适合她她是你梦想的爱
你幸福我开心给你让你爱她去吧
一边是友情一边是爱情
左右都不是为难了自己
是为你想吧该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拨
装作不在意的你如何面对

我听見有人叫你寶貝 - 林健輝 Someone call you baby

你問我為什麼　不再給你安慰
在寒風中漫步有家不回
好幾天不見面也無所謂
你問我為什麼　把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不後悔
你問我為了什麼開始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉

不要說我做得不對
不要說你永遠不會
因為我在無意間聽見有人叫你寶貝
不要說這是個誤會
請不要在我面前流淚
因為我明明聽見有人叫你寶貝
你讓他叫你寶貝

Bodyguard -.-

Yesterday have to accompany Tze Sin to a marketing company...said that she scared of going alone and whatever...and her boyfriend was working...Zzz so yea no choice...for her safety...have to go...and luckily I had prepared a thick folder of information to read there. It was 2 hours there and around the building there was nowhere for me to go... It was kind of weird though...for me to sit in an office with others(officer but looked so young...and other promoters too) looking at me...Ohhh come on...zzz I asked one officer who passed by how old was the company and realized that it was a 2-and-half-year-old company...no wonder all the people looked so young... There was one promoter who was cute too hehe ;P While we were on our way back, Tze Sin laughed, saying that those people said I am her BF...Zzz...what to expect right? A guy accompany you from start to finish... Looks like the cute little promoter will surely thought I am her BF d...OH NO!!! LOL ;D What a waste...haiz... hehe. I took away a bitter herbal tea recommended by TS in berkeley... When I went back and drank it...GOSH!!! It was really bitter man!!! Knowing it is beneficial for my health(as I am still coughing non-stop and have sore throat), I swallowed the whole cup... Haha I am always like that. In the past, I have always don't like to eat stuff like pig intestine and all that...but my mum will said it is really good for health and sssuuuppp!!! I have swallowed it up LOL!!! The same thing happened for golf too, I hated it very much in the past, to the point that my dad pulled me to the golf club and I still refused to learn...now I stunned my dad by saying I want to learn golf seriously. Now, I am really struggling with it... It is so much harder than what I have expected... Kelly(sister), don't tell other people yea that I learning golf, later mummy knows already I will surely die haha...that time you will know wakaka!!! OK! It is late, bed time, woa...what a thunderstorm out there, it should be a howling night!!! Buenas noche!!!(good night!!!)

Once in a lifetime

*Cough cough* Haiz, I have been having sore throat and coughing since yesterday. I am just too weak... Anyway, I am watching a korean drama 'flower over boys'. In that drama, it is mentioned a very special phase that I kept it in me. Once in a lifetime, and all other women are just repetition. I paused for a moment when I watched it. It just mean, in one's life, there is one true love, once in a lifetime (I guess... haha) Once that woman walk away and you miss it, all other women are just the same...a repetition. I have to admit, I gave it some thought, and felt that it is kind of true...and false. Argh...I don't want to think about it.

There is one thing that is in my mind...and I kind of struggle a bit... You hope that the girl that you love have all the happiness...yet why when she is with other guy, despite wanting her to be happy, my heart ache... It feels like I am chewing something sour in my mouth, and despite not really like it...I have to swallow it up...zzz. Maybe I am really one selfish being after all.

Nothing s gonna change my love for you... by Glen Medeiros

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not to be so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Just like a guiding star
I'll be there for you
If you should ever need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to now by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

3rd United Taekwondo Championship

It was 4.40am in the morning before my alarm rang me up...it had been a while since I last used it...like...hmmm...in the early of Nov for the exams? I drive to the centre and meet up with other people and had to carry all the stuff (floor mat and other equipment to Taman Rasnah Secondary School... We took almost arranging all the equipment and set up the scene for the championship to take place...and by 8am...all the people rushed and got themselves into the referees outfit. I was a bit nervous and it seems to be rather obvious as Ernest (the Head of Court for our ring)and Cheok Wei San (another referee in our ring) asked me to cool down...after I sent out 3 consecutive kyong-go (warning penalty) to a fighter and Ernest said I was too harsh LOL XD but since then I cooled down a bit...and gave out lesser warning penalty haha but it just seems that all the matches I refereed had got some really tough fighter, and in one of the matches, the fighter twice got the medic over...and eventually gave up the match... After all the matches were finished, the seniors battle started and all the involved referees quickly changed their clothes and put on the sparring equipment and fought against each other. That was the highlights of the championship, the brilliant stuff of the whole championship. Then we again packed and cleaned up the hall and then moved the equipment back to centre before we could have our dinner together in a restaurant. Nice meal after a tired day...

My summer holiday so far...

I am tired...worn out...I haven't been to any karaoke or even a movie!!! It have been 3 weeks since I am back, and I only played basketball once... Taekwondo training, taekwondo refereeing training, property talk...then golf training...then checking workers for unlimited, random hours under the hot suns... and now coming right up a bird nest managing seminar??? Zzz... I am tired... I feel it mentally... I can still play Wii games or PS2 everyday...but I just a bit worn out... I don't know why...coming back home...I guess does make me feel relaxed and enjoyed...but coming back here makes me learn a bit more things...from a lot of different perspectives... Learning bits and bits, knowing little by little...from sweating under the hot suns...getting sun burn...then others smirking at my clumziness of learning... Zzz...My arrogance dashed... Yet I feel satisfying. I mean this is probably all I want...to do stuffs and learn all those stuff...and probably and hopefully be someone as successful as my dad. I am always amazed by his knowledge...I mean...he knows so much...I always wonder...why does he knows this? How does he knows that? He is getting older...and my mum is worry that his health might suffer from his lengthy working hours. That is the reason why before I even get back home, my dad already make it clear that I will be back watching the workers...instead of him...so yea...I am pretty much the supervisor...a young one perhaps. I think I can finally understand how tiring adult world is... But I will keep learning everything... Learning it now will prepare me for the future... Hopefully...

丁当 我爱他 I love her...

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好


我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂


我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我和他不再属于这个地方

最初的天堂最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
让他知道我可以很

王力宏 Lee Hom - Everything Lyrics 歌詞

故事裡的 起承轉合 有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇

原來波折 才暗示著 該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻

就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際 求和相遇 有多少機率
多少煙火 墜落無痕跡

因為幸福 沒有捷徑 難免要繞道
不被看好 越是要走到

就算別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因 我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Liar...bluff the whole world...but himself...

I am a great liar... The fact that I am a gemini makes me a somewhat more of a double personality person...and so it is at times too hard to know what I am actually thinking... Still, at times despite the fact that I can easily guide my friends to the point I want them to think...in other words...despite me able to hide my emotions and bluff them... In the end, I am just the biggest loser...

One who could have easily cheat the whole world but himself...Is it actually a smart thing to do? Sometimes, it is heartbroken for me to scold someone off...saying hard words like...'fuck off'...and regret later... I can't change the truth...and truth at times...is really hurtful...

What about memories... That is the worst... Time and time again...I have been haunted with memories of the past...unable to move on...One have often tell me to forget about all those memories... I tried...well...I find it hard though...but i believe time heals...but how long it will be needed? I don't know...

I never blame God...What goes around comes around... I truly understand the feeling of someone now...How she felt back then... It is true...I was just too inconsiderate at that time...and I pay for it... I deserve it!!! Thinking back, I could not imagine how terrible I am...I was mean...How she might be feeling back then, was something I could never ever forgive myself... I realize that no matter what i do now...those wound would not be healed jz like that. I am just thankful that... she still think of me as a friend...despite all the things I have done...

Angel and demon shows in a moment... She is an angel... and me? I am just the demon...