Feelings, stories,flash memories and imaginations.

Officially Missing You...

2010-09-09T21:13:00.000-07:00

She just got on the bus to Sydney for Australia Chinese Debating Competition an hour ago...and I have already missing her... This is really funny, I can't believe all I did in tutorial was just copying stuff as I could no longer concentrate myself... 'Oh man, she will only be away for 3 days...', I keep telling myself... No doubt, it seems that the next 3 days are going to be long for me... I think I am officially missing you...

Tamia-Officially Missing You...

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go

‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away

And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I’ve fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at

all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I’m officially missin’ you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

It’s official

Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I’m officially missin’ you

Memorable weekend

2010-08-02T06:48:00.000-07:00

31st July, I went out with a friend... We had an early lunch in a cafe, then a movie (inception). Believe me, it wasn't a relaxing movie at all... Got me headache and puzzled the whole 2 hours. We went KoKo Black later to have sips of Ice choc and Ice choc mocha as well as some choc dessert, marvelous!!!

1st August, I was sick at first, and she came over with a lemon honey to cure my sore throat... Something happened along the way... In the end, it was a sweet sweet ending :P

If I can go all the way up...it is all becz of you(s)

2010-07-31T15:33:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I last post anything... My life isn't smooth at all... A lot of things has happened and I faced lots of them... I have made some important decisions... I fell from heaven to hell... but I will crawl all the way back up... I truly appreciate those supports...and the last thing I want to do is to disappoint you all...again...

Confused

2010-03-10T04:48:00.000-08:00

What has gone...sometimes I still hope I can take it back...What is in my heart remains...those feelings never change... I'm not a coward if I can take on IB...but why? Why am I so worry of tackling this sensitive issue...? This is so unlike Caesar... or maybe...after everything that happened last year...I have changed after all? I wonder...

Inward Bound (IB)

2010-03-10T04:26:00.000-08:00

Recently I have decided to have a go for the Fenner IB team. I believe that all of my friends in Malaysia would definitely have no idea of this IB thingy. Thus, I would explain it here. Inward Bound is something like a marathon, but it is much much harder than a marathon. What is the same is that both needs stamina to run long distance. The difference? IB requires navigation skill, in other words...ability to read map, use compass and identify your location. Yes, so basically in a marathon, you would run according to the designed path. On the other hand, in IB, your eyes would be covered before being left to some places (most of the time in forest) and all you have are a satellite phone (you call means you lose), a letter with the position encoded, foods, drinks, sleeping pack... That is right...that is what IB is all about!!! Oh yea, lets talk about the distance... IB has been the most popular and probably one of the most extreme interhall sports event. There will be 7 division...For each div, each hall will have to send out a group of 4 ppl in a team to compete. Just for your knowledge of the distance possibly covered...the lowest div...7...the team will be left approximately 16km from end point, and the higher the div...the further you would be thrown away from the end point. Div 1 if not mistaken would be about 40-50km away from the end point... Recently, I have quite a few pains here and there... I almost twisted my left ankle few times while training...my right knee looks sore...and pain at times...but what is worrying me is my back pain. It is kinda spontaneous...at one time, I suddenly feel painful while I'm sitting on my chair!!! The second time it hurts was when I was walking slowly to my room!!! How weird can it be??? One good thing though was that my stamina now has become pretty awesome... I could actually finish running 20km...and now even after finish 10km, my breathing is still smooth... Anyway, hope that I can make it into the team, I am included in the second draft for div 7 but the end results would be posted on next Monday...

Back to primary school...

2010-02-06T09:07:00.000-08:00

Just finish watching 鹿鼎记 (Royal Tramp), I felt that it was a really nice story. I watched it before, but I always love to watch it again.

Today, I went back to SJK(C) Perempuan school under the invitation of Ying Sing (the temporary teacher there). Sitting in the hall, with so many students, I felt that time has been going so quickly. I still remember what I used to do when I was small... One thing that i must and will and loved to do in primary school first grade was to buy a 20 cent durian ice cream... Yup, just a 20 cent durian ice cream and I will be happy to attend school. I bought it everyday in school without my mum knowing it, which they knew in the end like 7 years ago when the seller bumped into me and greeted me. He even told my parents that he remembered me because I always wanted that same durian ice cream for 2 years...

In 3rd year of primary, I got 10 strokes of rotan. Year 4 was my torrid year, skipped that part. Year 5 and 6, being a bully in bus and always got into fight with first class student and the arrogant Kenny Yeap of our class...haha. Me playing my last chasing games in Hin Hwa first year of secondary. After 3 months, I left unwillingly. The letters that I got after I got to Penang from those friends, I always kept it to myself. How naive was I at that time, to keep on writing letters to her after I gone to Penang. That was a short sweet memories. I was back in Klang the next year and entered Kwang Hua...and my adventure continued...

Coming back to being in the hall, it was so comfortable in this new hall...with air conditioner available. Looking around the school, it was never the same, There was no more field, no more basketball court, no more single storey classroom...all that we have now are 5 stories building, beautiful garden, and colourful canteen.

Right now, looking at those kids, correcting their exercise books...I couldn't help thinking how tough can a teacher be...

FIFA World Cup Trophy Tour

2010-01-30T07:35:00.000-08:00

On the 29 of January, our gang reunited again to attend to one of the most prestigious event of the year(LOL sounds so grand haha). We gathered in Tze Sin's house as usual. At 6.45pm, we left and headed to Mid Valley for the event. However, the path to Mid Valley wasn't at all boring, in fact it would have been said to be rather...exciting...? In a horrendous traffic of Federal Highway, we were all laughing because of all the jokes from TS and Siok Kim. Exciting too I said because we...almost got into an accident with me looking at the camera of SK at the back(I'm the driver). My bad my bad haha ;P To be honest, probably I exaggerated the situation too much by slamming the break. It was the moment I turned my head back front to realize my car was about to kiss the butt of others LOL XD It seems that recently I have been driving rather dangerous hmmm... Anyway, as my patience was about to be tested to the limit in that lengthy jam...we finally made it to the parking lot...well at the entrance of parking, more confusion and irrational driving from me again... -.- After meeting Jun Loong up in the parking, we proceed to the event...being 30 minutes late...(8.30pm)

In there, there were quite a few interesting and funny activities. Chong Tat and I played the rope-pulling games. The rope in this case was more like a rubber band type and while we are running and pulling the rope further until we reached a certain point where 2 persons were holding us...you could say it was the elastic potential energy being stored LOL physics. The moment we jumped backwards, oh man...for once in my current lifetime I felt the strength of elastic energy, completely being pulled behind and flew rolling back to my original spot...Gosh, it was painful...and that was how I got both my elbows some bruises...

Then we went for some painting haha, JL, TS and SK opted to have their selected country flag painted on their arms or hand. Chung Guan, CT and I were painted at our cheek hehe ;P Later, JL, CG and I had some goal celebration video too haha...all just for fun. We took pictures here and there before going into a separated department and watched a few-minutes 3D video of the World Cup. It was then that we were being brought to take some quick pictures with the World Cup trophy. Quick I said as each and everyone had only about 3 or most...3.5 seconds? for them to take a snap shot of us ;D The photos being printed though...was FOC!!! That was one of the great thing about them...oh yea not to mention there were plenty of Coke for everyone too haha (Don't tease me, I was thirsty in there alright keke). Finally we had our supper in SS2 before returning to our own sweet home lullullluuu~~~

畫沙-袁詠琳.周杰倫

2010-01-29T18:30:00.000-08:00

午後的風搖晃枝椏　抖落了盛夏　
我對著蟬認真說話　在對你牽掛
晚風輕敲著海沙　浪堆積起無暇　
我跟純真在比傻　愛上你放不下　
這風景如畫　（開滿鳳凰鳳凰花）　
院子裡花灑　（澆灌著那種情話）　
等最美的晚霞　等故事長大　

用手中的流沙畫一個你呀　曾說過的永遠我們一定不會擦　
我的青春開始在喧嘩　因為大聲說愛你而沙啞　
用手中流沙輕描著你的臉頰　也答應說好的未來絕不會重畫　
許過的承諾我就不會再去拿　因為我愛你呀　

將思念壓成花　有你的記憶乾燥成瓶中沙　
像沙漏般想著你滴滴達達　
擦美美的趾甲　喝你泡的茶　原來幸福可以這優雅　

不論多大風沙　路多分岔　我一樣找到你呀　
管它風怎刮　管雨又怎下　越痛我就越來（越瀟灑）　
不摘不屬於自（己的花）　喔愛閃著淚光為你我可以當傻瓜　

這風景如畫　（開滿鳳凰鳳凰花）　
院子裡花灑　（澆灌著那種情話）　
等我們的童話　等誓言落下　

用手中的流沙畫一個你呀　曾說過的永遠我們一定不會擦　
我的青春開始在喧嘩　因為大聲說愛你而沙啞　
用手中流沙輕描著你的臉頰　也答應說好的未來絕不重畫　
許過的承諾我就不會再去拿　因為我愛你呀　

用手中的流沙畫一個你呀　曾說過的永遠我們一定不會擦　
我的青春開始在喧嘩　因為大聲說愛你而沙啞　
用手中流沙輕描著你的臉頰　也答應說好的未來絕不重畫　
許過的承諾我就不會再去拿　因為我愛你呀　因為我愛你呀

Death is just meter away...

2010-01-22T06:29:00.000-08:00

Today i driving back to home...on my way, i passed by the ever-under-construction Klang new bridge...and there was where I almost died...and maybe just...some serious injury to my important right arms.

Frustrated following a lorry in that area...and looking at my right, the van is slightly behind my car. Without having another check, I slammed the accelerator and next moment, I have a quick right turn to my right. Probably at that time, the heaven shined on me, and when I have another look behind my right shoulder, I could see nothing but a silver metallic right in my eyes. Absolute shocked but luckily alert enough, I turned my car immediately in an opposite direction. That van driver did not even have the time to hon me...and luckily enough I am, I spotted the van at the very last moment. I steadied my car and quickly I winded down the window and punch my hands high into the sky...with all five fingers pointing to the sky...(an apologetic hand sign...well at least that is the case for me)

After that incident, for a full minute, not even a vehicle (including that van) dare to passed by my car. When I turned off the engine, I could not help but wondered what could have happened if I had not make that quick second turn... That was when I woke up...and knew that I would have brought along some truth with me.

Life can short...and it can be taken from you anytime...and because of that, at some point, I am afraid I will not be able to say something to some important persons... Letting them know that how much they have mean to me...(hey come on, don't just think of love in this kind of scenario haha :D)

說謊（林宥嘉）Lie

2010-01-22T06:26:00.000-08:00

是有過幾個不錯對象
說起來並不寂寞孤單
可能我浪蕩　讓人家不安
才會結果都陣亡

我沒有甚麼陰影魔障　你千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱　何況那算甚麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你懂我的　我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊　請別以為你有多難忘
笑是真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳　沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口　聞得到玫瑰花香　被你一說是有些印象

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你知道的　我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊　是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
愛一個人　沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊　人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊　是愛情說謊
它帶你來　騙我說渴望的有可能有希望
我沒有說謊　祝你做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請你全遺忘

歌曲：左右为难-郑中基张学友

2010-01-20T03:02:00.000-08:00

左手写他右手写着爱
紧握的双手模糊的悲哀
我的决定会有怎样的伤害
面对着爱人和朋友
那一个我该放开
一边是友情一边是爱情
左右都不是为难了自己
是为你想吧该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拨
装作不在意的你如何面对
右手写爱左手写着他
摊开的双手空虚的无奈
我的无言有最深沉的感慨
最亲的朋友和女孩
我的心一直在摇摆
一边是友情一边是爱情
左右都不是为难了自己
是为你想吧该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拨
装作不在意的你如何面对
你比我适合她她是你梦想的爱
你幸福我开心给你让你爱她去吧
一边是友情一边是爱情
左右都不是为难了自己
是为你想吧该为她想吧
爱虽然已不可自拨
装作不在意的你如何面对

我听見有人叫你寶貝 - 林健輝 Someone call you baby

2010-01-07T07:12:00.000-08:00

你問我為什麼　不再給你安慰
在寒風中漫步有家不回
好幾天不見面也無所謂
你問我為什麼　把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不後悔
你問我為了什麼開始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉

不要說我做得不對
不要說你永遠不會
因為我在無意間聽見有人叫你寶貝
不要說這是個誤會
請不要在我面前流淚
因為我明明聽見有人叫你寶貝
你讓他叫你寶貝

Bodyguard -.-

2010-01-06T08:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday have to accompany Tze Sin to a marketing company...said that she scared of going alone and whatever...and her boyfriend was working...Zzz so yea no choice...for her safety...have to go...and luckily I had prepared a thick folder of information to read there. It was 2 hours there and around the building there was nowhere for me to go... It was kind of weird though...for me to sit in an office with others(officer but looked so young...and other promoters too) looking at me...Ohhh come on...zzz I asked one officer who passed by how old was the company and realized that it was a 2-and-half-year-old company...no wonder all the people looked so young... There was one promoter who was cute too hehe ;P While we were on our way back, Tze Sin laughed, saying that those people said I am her BF...Zzz...what to expect right? A guy accompany you from start to finish... Looks like the cute little promoter will surely thought I am her BF d...OH NO!!! LOL ;D What a waste...haiz... hehe. I took away a bitter herbal tea recommended by TS in berkeley... When I went back and drank it...GOSH!!! It was really bitter man!!! Knowing it is beneficial for my health(as I am still coughing non-stop and have sore throat), I swallowed the whole cup... Haha I am always like that. In the past, I have always don't like to eat stuff like pig intestine and all that...but my mum will said it is really good for health and sssuuuppp!!! I have swallowed it up LOL!!! The same thing happened for golf too, I hated it very much in the past, to the point that my dad pulled me to the golf club and I still refused to learn...now I stunned my dad by saying I want to learn golf seriously. Now, I am really struggling with it... It is so much harder than what I have expected... Kelly(sister), don't tell other people yea that I learning golf, later mummy knows already I will surely die haha...that time you will know wakaka!!! OK! It is late, bed time, woa...what a thunderstorm out there, it should be a howling night!!! Buenas noche!!!(good night!!!)

Once in a lifetime

2010-01-05T08:11:00.000-08:00

*Cough cough* Haiz, I have been having sore throat and coughing since yesterday. I am just too weak... Anyway, I am watching a korean drama 'flower over boys'. In that drama, it is mentioned a very special phase that I kept it in me. Once in a lifetime, and all other women are just repetition. I paused for a moment when I watched it. It just mean, in one's life, there is one true love, once in a lifetime (I guess... haha) Once that woman walk away and you miss it, all other women are just the same...a repetition. I have to admit, I gave it some thought, and felt that it is kind of true...and false. Argh...I don't want to think about it.

There is one thing that is in my mind...and I kind of struggle a bit... You hope that the girl that you love have all the happiness...yet why when she is with other guy, despite wanting her to be happy, my heart ache... It feels like I am chewing something sour in my mouth, and despite not really like it...I have to swallow it up...zzz. Maybe I am really one selfish being after all.

Nothing s gonna change my love for you... by Glen Medeiros

2009-12-22T06:24:00.000-08:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not to be so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Just like a guiding star
I'll be there for you
If you should ever need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to now by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life thru' but
Nothing's gonna change my love for you

3rd United Taekwondo Championship

2009-12-21T06:26:00.000-08:00

It was 4.40am in the morning before my alarm rang me up...it had been a while since I last used it...like...hmmm...in the early of Nov for the exams? I drive to the centre and meet up with other people and had to carry all the stuff (floor mat and other equipment to Taman Rasnah Secondary School... We took almost arranging all the equipment and set up the scene for the championship to take place...and by 8am...all the people rushed and got themselves into the referees outfit. I was a bit nervous and it seems to be rather obvious as Ernest (the Head of Court for our ring)and Cheok Wei San (another referee in our ring) asked me to cool down...after I sent out 3 consecutive kyong-go (warning penalty) to a fighter and Ernest said I was too harsh LOL XD but since then I cooled down a bit...and gave out lesser warning penalty haha but it just seems that all the matches I refereed had got some really tough fighter, and in one of the matches, the fighter twice got the medic over...and eventually gave up the match... After all the matches were finished, the seniors battle started and all the involved referees quickly changed their clothes and put on the sparring equipment and fought against each other. That was the highlights of the championship, the brilliant stuff of the whole championship. Then we again packed and cleaned up the hall and then moved the equipment back to centre before we could have our dinner together in a restaurant. Nice meal after a tired day...

My summer holiday so far...

2009-12-17T09:55:00.000-08:00

I am tired...worn out...I haven't been to any karaoke or even a movie!!! It have been 3 weeks since I am back, and I only played basketball once... Taekwondo training, taekwondo refereeing training, property talk...then golf training...then checking workers for unlimited, random hours under the hot suns... and now coming right up a bird nest managing seminar??? Zzz... I am tired... I feel it mentally... I can still play Wii games or PS2 everyday...but I just a bit worn out... I don't know why...coming back home...I guess does make me feel relaxed and enjoyed...but coming back here makes me learn a bit more things...from a lot of different perspectives... Learning bits and bits, knowing little by little...from sweating under the hot suns...getting sun burn...then others smirking at my clumziness of learning... Zzz...My arrogance dashed... Yet I feel satisfying. I mean this is probably all I want...to do stuffs and learn all those stuff...and probably and hopefully be someone as successful as my dad. I am always amazed by his knowledge...I mean...he knows so much...I always wonder...why does he knows this? How does he knows that? He is getting older...and my mum is worry that his health might suffer from his lengthy working hours. That is the reason why before I even get back home, my dad already make it clear that I will be back watching the workers...instead of him...so yea...I am pretty much the supervisor...a young one perhaps. I think I can finally understand how tiring adult world is... But I will keep learning everything... Learning it now will prepare me for the future... Hopefully...

丁当我爱他 I love her...

2009-12-08T01:36:00.000-08:00

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我和他不再属于这个地方

最初的天堂最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
让他知道我可以很

王力宏 Lee Hom - Everything Lyrics 歌詞

2009-12-04T16:44:00.000-08:00

故事裡的起承轉合有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇

原來波折才暗示著該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻

就算別人都說我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際求和相遇有多少機率
多少煙火墜落無痕跡

因為幸福沒有捷徑難免要繞道
不被看好越是要走到

就算別人都說我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Liar...bluff the whole world...but himself...

2009-12-04T08:13:00.000-08:00

I am a great liar... The fact that I am a gemini makes me a somewhat more of a double personality person...and so it is at times too hard to know what I am actually thinking... Still, at times despite the fact that I can easily guide my friends to the point I want them to think...in other words...despite me able to hide my emotions and bluff them... In the end, I am just the biggest loser...

One who could have easily cheat the whole world but himself...Is it actually a smart thing to do? Sometimes, it is heartbroken for me to scold someone off...saying hard words like...'fuck off'...and regret later... I can't change the truth...and truth at times...is really hurtful...

What about memories... That is the worst... Time and time again...I have been haunted with memories of the past...unable to move on...One have often tell me to forget about all those memories... I tried...well...I find it hard though...but i believe time heals...but how long it will be needed? I don't know...

I never blame God...What goes around comes around... I truly understand the feeling of someone now...How she felt back then... It is true...I was just too inconsiderate at that time...and I pay for it... I deserve it!!! Thinking back, I could not imagine how terrible I am...I was mean...How she might be feeling back then, was something I could never ever forgive myself... I realize that no matter what i do now...those wound would not be healed jz like that. I am just thankful that... she still think of me as a friend...despite all the things I have done...

Angel and demon shows in a moment... She is an angel... and me? I am just the demon...

The Launching of Mercedes Benz E-series and Julie Woon

2009-12-02T07:01:00.000-08:00

Julie Woon is a celebrity who acts in 'Blogger Boys'

Everyone in the photo with Julieeee!!!

My sister was really excited!!!

Another shot of sis with Julie

A shot of me and E 250 Coupe

Sis have a pic with the exact same car too...but with white colour instead!

KaiDi posing with Mclaren SLR

Yet another pose...

The gorgeous Mclaren SLR

Spread you wings and Fly away!!! =)

SL 300

The main character of the night-E 300!!!

On 28th of Nov, my family and I went to Naza branch in Klang for the launching of Mercedes Benz E-series. We had a decent buffet dinner...which included some nice roasted lamb meat, salmon fish, king prawn, and some Japanese dishes too. While we were eating, my sister noticed a gorgeous-looking lady and suspecting that she was the celebrity named Julie Woon. It was a surprise later when my brother actually had the courage to ask that lady and it turned out to be that SHE WAS JULIE WOON!!! Quickly, we snapped some photos of us and Julie. Wao...looking at her closely, she was really hot!!! Her body shape was just marvelous!!! The launching was quite...hmmm...normal? I meant that it was just normal like normal other launching...but the cars were really cool...though I had seen them the day before too... The best part about this launching was the fact that so many hottie were there posting with the cars!!! LOL!!! So...it made those cars even more attracting wakaka ;D Sadly though...since at first I did not take the launching seriously...I did not had a much better-looking outfit for that night, and it was quite embarrassing to take a picture with them...haiz... anyway...above are some pictures taken on that night ;P

刘若英:很爱很爱你...Really really love you

2009-11-26T06:50:00.000-08:00

想为你做件事,让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字.
求时间趁著你不注意的时候,
悄悄地把这种子酿成果实.
我想她的确是更适合你的女子,
我太不够温柔优雅成熟懂事.
如果我退回到好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子

很爱很爱你,所以愿意舍得让你,

往更多幸福的地方飞去.

很爱很爱你,只有让你拥有爱情,

我才安心.
看著她走向你,那幅画面多美丽.
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜.
地球上两个人能相遇不容易,
做不成你的情人我仍感激.

很爱很爱你,所以愿意不牵绊你,

飞向幸福的地方去.

很爱很爱你,只有让你拥有爱情,

我才安心.

Summer plan!!!

2009-11-15T16:48:00.000-08:00

After more than a week not blogging...I have actually went on a blogging spree by creating 2 post consecutively... Well...this is a post regarding what I will be doing during my summer...a seemingly busy summer plan...

First thing... Helping my dad to watch over the construction site...for a few minutes ;P My dad wanted me, who he said will be very free to watch the construction on a daily basis...God damn it...well I guess it couldn't be helped...but after all it is not like I will be watching them the whole day... My dad even said he want to turn me into a negro before going back to Australia...NO WAY!!! XD

Secondly, GOLF!!! Yup yup...it is golf...I want to learn golf during this 3 months period in Malaysia... My dad will definitely be very helpful in this haha...it has been a while for him to persuade me to play it!!! How funny when he even said that he will ask someone to coach me, saying he want me to have a perfect swing and all... Looks like when it comes to golf, everything is fine for him...haha!!! My mum, who has always oppose my dad being involved in golf so much...was like...huh? Not working part time but instead spend money on golf? Well...I told them the reason I want to learn and they happily accepted...at least I am sure my dad is haha!!!

Third comes gathering and friends!!! Oh yea, of course, I will definitely meet up with all my friends right? Those include...well a long list...I will just keep it quiet LOL...

Next is Taekwondo!!! i will be learning refereeing for the upcoming Taekwondo tournament as Sir said I am rather old to compete in sparring anymore...he would prefer if I help out and be a referee instead...hmmm...what a great idea too haha...that must be cool~~ hehe...and also I want to attend the taekwondo classes...how good to sweat a bit and be sticky hehe ;P

Then is gym!!! I will be back to gym for workout...don't think it will make me fitter but at least I feel happier going gym and workout...I just love to exercise lalalaa~~ then I will go play basketball, football, badminton, and maybe pool too (and this pool I mean is snooker type...not swimming pool wakaka)...

Finally I guess I might also go for a vacation with my family...but that is something remain unsure for the moment as my sister will have end-year-trip with her classmates... I have suggested a cruise ride!!! I have never try that before, it sounds so cool, classic and elegant too!!! LOL anyway I just want to try out since I have never have cruise experience before haha and it is not like I will be in the Titanic-like cruise -.-'''

One great alcoholic experience ;D

2009-11-15T15:59:00.000-08:00

Yea!!! Exams are finally OVER!!! Now I am free!!! Lets talk about something that happened few days ago...I drank with Nathan, Melvyn and Randeep. Nathan had this bottle of Bombay Gin(alchoholic percentage...47%), and he wanted to finish it...so we gave him a help ;P I mean what's wrong with that when our exams are already over right? The funny thing was...Nathan still has exams on coming Monday...well good luck for him then wakaka!!! We started with 3 straight shots of Gin+solo...God hell, the Gin liquor tasted like listerine...and the taste was awful...After that, we played cards!(Chor tai di)...and the last 2 losers drink... Nathan and I kept losing...and so yea... One funny moment was when I was trying to get up...I straight away fell sideway and tumbled down to the floor LOL!!! Then on my way to lift, I couldn't walked straight and then I fell again...I was dizzy alright...Upon reaching the lift...I actually picked a photo from my wallet...thinking that it was my student ID and swiped it...of course the lift couldn't opened..and Randeep swiped his instead...zzz...so in the end...I fell into my comfortable bed and couldn't wake up until Tuck Wah called me up...which was already 12pm... I continue sleeping after that until it was 1.30pm though haha!!! A while after waking up...well...headache and vomit...and I did not had any meal until dinner which I made a porridge... Drunk is never a good idea haha ;)

You Are So CUTE!!!

2009-11-05T15:49:00.000-08:00

I chose to waste some my of internet quota to post this up to my blog...this is the best video I have seen!!! SO CUTE!!! I even find that this little boy is so so much like my little brother haha... I am so gonna watch this short video to crack a smile on my face next time whenever I am down LOL... A must watch video!!!

比我幸福..歌手：孙俪 .... Have a better lives than me...

2009-11-02T16:33:00.000-08:00

望着广场的时钟你还在我的怀里躲风
不习惯言不由衷沉默如何能让你都懂
此刻与你相拥也算有始有终
祝福有许多种心痛却尽在不言中
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐

望着广场的时钟你还在我的怀里躲风
不习惯言不由衷沉默如何能让你都懂
此刻与你相拥也算有始有终
祝福有许多种心痛却尽在不言中
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐

放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿孤不孤独都别在乎!
请你一定要比我幸福才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐
请记得你要比我幸福才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐
放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿...

Painful

2009-11-02T04:11:00.000-08:00

The truth...like people always say...is normally not a good thing to know...which is why some people prefer to tell lies instead of the truth. I, for one, just suffer another moment of painfulness of the truth. To be honest, probably the truth has been there all the time...while my friends...all of them...probably with the exception of just one... had been telling me all this while. I was ignorant...was... I face the truth now...knowing deep down that it is just worthless... Regardless of what I can do about it, it will never going to change the fact. It was weird though...but despite the fact that my friends had been presenting the truth to me... I had actually just stood firmly by myself... having faith...believing in myself....hoping... The results? I was...crushed...yet again... It seems like it has been fated. I am cursed... every time I had prepare something for someone I really care... something bad will happen between us... FOR SURE!!! Not once...not twice...but three times??!!! All my friends scolded me all this time...and now, I have lost...they had won... I think I ought to give them an apologize too huh... for being so stubborn... People do change... I guess all that left for me now... are just memories that never go dull in my heart... I couldn't even pass her the present I picked, bought and kept for 3 months... Did the unicorn ever arrive... I don't even know it... Probably the unicorn is lost too... Just like how I was... I will walk alone right now... This is the path I have chosen....

Done...

2009-10-29T20:35:00.000-07:00

Yup...it is finally done... My Spanish exams...oral exams and my Chemistry report...Now I have a full week before my next exams...Chemistry!!! The Chemistry report took me longer that I thought...2 days!! and even the words count i had was astonishing as well....3800 words...20+ pages...Zzzz

Now...it is time for me to step up and go all out... This is the time to be serious!!!

I have not start my Biology revision yet...so that is my main focus this week... I will see what I can do this few days...It will be exciting...

Tamia- Officially missing you...

2009-10-20T23:01:00.000-07:00

Hmm...

Ooh...ooh...

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go

?Cause this pain I feel it won't go away

And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I've fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at

all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I'm officially missin? you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there's something I just can't do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I'm officially...

It?s official

Hoo, you know that I'm missing you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I'm officially missing you

1 Month...

2009-10-20T14:47:00.000-07:00

Yes...1 more month of suffering...1 more month to go for me to be back home...1 more month for the STPM to start (though it doesn't concern me at all)... Everything...in 1 month time now...

Sigh...I am so tired now... I have been sleeping very late for the last few nights...and this might well go for at least another week... It is going to be much serious now on... First I have test today and Span essay to hand in...Next week oral exam of Span and Chem report...and I believe another week after that will be Chem exam...and finally the Finance and Biology on the following week...

Basically it is like a marathon...long journey but if you are to say anything I would say (might a bit too confident) I think I finally able to cope with it... This might all because of the fact that I am attending almost like 5 to 6 chem tutorials in a week to make damn sure that I really know everything... Even last Thursday and Friday, I have been sitting a total of 4 hours of tutorial and ended up listening to the same tutorial sheets all that time. Stupid you would most probably say...time wasting some would even consider....but I find it essential...it is after the third and final test...and as I seriously screwed it up in my first test...failing at a mark of 43 (i guess...). Thanks to some hard work, firm decision to leave out soccer from my lives (including quitting Fenner team) and huge piece of luck...I got 83 for the second test...somehow I was very relieved...and happy and I know very very well that I can make the last push in my next time and might JUST manage to scrap a distinction out of it...

Things are going alright for Finance...that is another subject hopefully I can score another D from... SPAN? well I have already R.I.P. -.- I have not really perform well this whole semester for SPAN...I could definitely avoid a Fail that is for sure...but I think credit is a reasonable target...Distinction? I guess it is rather impossible for me now... Haiz...I have to blame myself for the horrible first half of semester....where I totally messed up SPAN and Chem... Bio though I have not touch on it...but I will try to finish the studies before the exam (well...for sure right haha ;) ) but for that I am aiming for a credit or distinction as well... basically...this is the current overview of my situation...hopefully everything will work out fine. I need more motivation... It is so hard to really focus and perform at this stage... My concentration is really bad...my heart waver easily...but I hope I can get it through somehow...hope you guys will support me hehe...hope you will too MP,get me motivated...sometimes you might not realize that a few simple sms from you is all I need to get motivated...Alright got to go....have to study for Finance and Span now... Hope everyone will be fine...I wish all the best in your upcoming exams!!! Adios (Bye in Spanish)

Experienced...

2009-10-14T14:42:00.000-07:00

Oh well today Ivy and Priscilla will move to their new house, and it well... makes me sad little bit haha... I don't know why, despite having so much experience in dealing with friends leaving or separation, I feel that I could never have done it well. Back in Form 1, I was forced to leave Hin Hua because my dad are changing his work station to Penang. Moving away from Klang is tough for me as I have to leave behind my best friend whom I have basically play with almost everyday for the past 2 years or so... It was tough but life move on...I always wonder what would I have become had I resisted and not follow my parents to Penang... I certainly don't know... In Penang, I join the Kadet Polis and it basically makes me feel more energized and train my stamina well...only 9 months though as I return to my hometown...Klang...and due to the tough syllabus...I know I could not catch up my former Klang secondary school friends standard... Not able to get into the best chinese private school in Klang...I entered the best chinese government school... and there goes my new lives... I learn to play basketball and football...I slim down tremendously as I grew taller...I met Choon Yon whom become a close friend of my since then for now...probably the 6th years? He gone to Ireland though...and I was rather sad about the news...It was so unexpected and suprisingly one too... Nevertheless... I hope he is going there for good sake. I have difficulty dealing with separation again in Form 5...and I tears (though no one notice it except Huei Kim haha...luckily he never tell out to anyone else... Then in Taylor's College, well I dealt with it alright, no tears...but maybe still a bit low...but basically I am able to go through it...but oh well... hope both Ivy and Pris will enjoy their time in new apartment, wish them all the best. Sorry yea for not able to help you move your things as I have a tight schedule on Thursday... See ya!!!

Ivy's Birthday

2009-10-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

Those 3 guys standing behind from left: Me, Chia Hung, and Jason
Those in front...from left: Tuck Wah, Ivy, Michael and Hui Wen.

Everyone is having slices of delicious pizzas with sips of red and white wine... well...maybe not just sips...but glasses of wine instead haha ;)

The Cream attack begins... I have planned with Tuck Wah and Chia Hung for this...and Ivy whole face was fulled with cream because of us....The picture is Chia Hung and Tuck Wah attempting to walk silently to avoid Ivy and Co's (Ivy, Hui Wen, Jason, and another guy)capture.

Surprisingly...Chia Hung got caught first, and next up...the picture is how Tuck Wah was brutally tortured with cream wakaka ;)

Ivy posing as she waits for her last prey...the last survivor...CAESAR!!! that is me!!! haha ;)....

Running after just finish my pizzas and wines...my stomach give up...and having a bad stomach, I was caught though in the end I managed to escape...I was being conned and eventually...look at next picture to know what happened to me !!! Look at Tuck Wah!!! A cheeky smile...

That is me...I was fooled and just when I was looking at the pictures taken by Pris... Tuck Wah sneakingly passed the CAKE to Ivy...and so...PIAK!!!

Of course...never forgive traitor...here comes the CAKE!!! and piak... Tuck Wah got a double cake attack from both me and Ivy wakakaka ;D

This picture was taken when we continue our celebration by karaoke!!! We were splited into 2 group, this group consist of from the front : Chia Hung, Tuck Wah, Jason and ME!!! ;)

Summary of this year of university

2009-10-07T23:42:00.000-07:00

It has been almost the end of semester, it is just another month left and here I am...about to end my first year of university experience. Yes, it might be still early for me to conclude my first year, but nevertheless, hehe I want to know what I have learn in this year, so here are those new things that i learn or improve.

First of all, cooking ;) Eh-hem...I mean my cook still at a novice level...but anyway living alone in Canberra force me to learn some cooking skill and so i basically improves a great deal or at least learn pretty much from Jason, Ivy, Tuck Wah.

Secondly, I have been a more independent man. Independent as in I can start to be able to arrange my own time, manage my lives and lives alone without help from parents (well except for the money they gave hehe).This gives me much confidence for my future lives.

Thirdly, I have been living in a different culture than in Malaysia, that is the one thing for sure!!! Staying here make me someone who is more of a combination of both culture. I sort of able to value 2 different culture and lifestyle, and understand at which area which is a better pick for me.

Fourthly, I have been improving my pool(something like a snooker) ability ;) It is a great concentration-enhanced game to me. It requires great concentration and imagination...well at least that is what it is for me hehe.

At fifth, I learn more about wine and this in particular, I would like to thank Jason for all his teaching about wine knowledge...I am also thinking to go and drink cocktail with him next time to learn more about cocktail too...though it might be costly...but knowledge is invaluable...well that is the case for me, and wine and cocktail knowledge...for me.. I feel that it will be very beneficial when working as businessman.

The sixth will be clubbing. Haha i never club before in Malaysia, nor that i ever drink wine before...so these are all that i experience in this much alcoholic country ooops :P Those shots i drink in the pub to be honest, is great, like vodka+ raspberry, vodka+ orange juice, vodka+red bull , bourbon+coke.... those i feel are much better than any beer or wine i have in either Australia and Malaysia...and seriously...I can't take any beer in Malaysia...it is so bitter... In Australia, there are so much more variety of beer...Pure blond is much sweeter, but i personally think Stella Artois, the Belgium Beer Jason introduce to me...is very nice.

Ok ok...even though i have been talking a lot about clubbing, wine and beer, that doesn't mean I drink a lot...I just drink more than my whole lives in Malaysia...thats all :D but i never got drunk as i always control myself...what a good boy I am ;P

Oh yea, the girls here are more sexy and good looking too...same goes for the guys as they have so much better body parts than us(Asian). Nevertheless, they are very very open-minded...and believe me...very open minded indeed... Their wearing is very sexy, and they just don't mind at all...

Haiz, one month to go, I really wish my bak kut teh!!! My Malaysia food!!! My family, all my friends and MP very very much!!! Can't wait...though, leaving Australia means I will probably going to experience yet another culture and livestyles again...but this is probably more exciting for me then ;D yeepee!!!

What a nightmare....

2009-09-08T16:07:00.000-07:00

Waking up at 6 am when my alarm was set at 7.20 am... I thought that it would be best for me to continue my dreamless sleep...well...dreamless until then... I was entering a nightmare... I was being chased by a murderer who was someone I was so close to and believe so much in... I couldn't do any harm to that person...how could I? The murderer then managed to caught me and hung me up... I was dying...and POP!!! I woke up directly!!! I couldn't moved my left arm as it was numb due to bad blood circulation...though after a while it just feel better again... Yet this time I woke up at exactly 7.19 am, and by the time I was about to remove the alarm... the alarm sounded...

I had never be able to recall a nightmare clearly for a seriously long time now... That was terrifying... For the 30 minutes after I woke up... Mentally I was frozen up still... I thought I was dying...and I felt like I really were!!! I even felt cold too!!! (stupid chilly wind that blows in through my window...)... Damn... last few nights were a rough night which I found it hard to get into my sleep...and now...zzz

Anyway...I better go now... take care

Oh no...if it stands like this....

2009-09-03T18:01:00.000-07:00

Oh God...I just finished Finance Mid-sem exams yesterday...and I also had my Chem test results out already...as well as my Spanish...nothing for Bio though as it only have a final exam and reports to account for its marks.

But man...right now...i am suffering from the early meltdown of the semester...Chem is the most obvious case...I got a D (distinction and not DONKEY!!!) and did not fail in any 3 test last year...now...I failed it...what is happening....? Spanish...another D that I got for last semester...as it stands now...I am just in the pass/credit border line...(50/60) line... So now I just realize how much I have lose...from the only 2 D i got last semester...to now both subject on the brink of failing... this ain't funny at all!!!

Finance...I have no more quiz to give out...the quiz result they take the best 6 out of 8...which means i have screwed up 2 of them...and have to do well in the remaining one...which are all tougher....than the previous... Right now...for Finance...I guess I am within the credit column...

For Biology...up until now...there is only a online test...and I just got 7 out of 10...though I admitted that I didn't touch the notes or attend much of his/ her (not sure who the lecturer even is...) lectures...because I feel that it is too easy and a waste of time... Haiz... So I will put the Biology in the column of credit as well knowing I screwed up my last semester report (a fail...) but save it up in the final exam and eventually got a credit.... I will think that right now...my Biology should be within the credit range...

So...If everything stands like it is right now at the end of semester.... Chem (F), Span (C), FiNM (C), Biol (C).... To be EXTREMELY HONEST!!! even if I am a rather casual...and not really care about the results much... That results...is beyond what I could ever imagine... beyond terrible... beyond explaination... How can I even get a fail for CHEM!!! Which is suppose to be my career in the future!!!!????

Just because I used up a month to settle myself back....to calm myself down...the consequences of it...are too great...I stopped my soccer involvement after just 3 games...knowing that I could no longer keep it up with my Chem and Span...and Finance...
Now...I can only move on...what is done has been done... At the end of semester...I will see if my results will stand as it is now... If it is...then I will just say this to myself... " Caesar has died....You are just a scum...worthless..."

Gemini...twins of evil and angel...

2009-08-31T17:19:00.000-07:00

My eyes lie....

My mouth curse...

and My MIND BETRAYS!!!

....But then...

My legs support...

My arms that protect...

and lastly MY HEART THAT LOVES...

Evil (eyes, mouth, and mind) vs Angel (legs, arms and heart)....

Whichever side win the fight,

takes control...

And I am just a medium...

of never ending struggle...

between those 2 sides....

A year of changes....

2009-08-31T03:33:00.000-07:00

It is me again!!! ;D Oh well...after I have finish writing the random post, I suddenly feel like writing something that is in my mind... 31 August...Not at all a special day...ok it is Merdeka...but end of August last year, I found my first love... sometimes when i think back, it is just sweet and funny...I guess relationship is always like that... In Dec, things changed so much...and sudden...and then of course in Jan...yet another event happened... That...I believed...was the twist of my life...that was a decision that I bravely...or some might say...foolishly took. Now thinking back...how selfish I had been at times... She was hurt pretty badly I guessed... and I had just realized after that...though it was too late...I had to be responsible, I just can't hurt both...I stick with my decision...5 months later...We broke up...I still don't know what was the reason... Selfish was what she said...I guess...what comes around goes around huh? Now, a year have pass...and I am back to the same spot... I know that I have learn a lot...We will never know what might happen seconds later... My friend said that...maybe you should learn how to do things for yourself...and not because of others... I don't know... I have to say...until now...I still don't know who am I? But I guess that is not important isn't it? There is no need anymore for me to say who I need to love isn't it... probably from now on...I should learn to keep those things with me...it has been a taboo now... Who I love...is in my heart...no point saying it out...no point writing it down...and certainly no point making any promise because of it... I will love those who love me...I will protect those I loved...No more promises...no more vows...Action speaks louder than words....

Random

2009-08-31T03:18:00.000-07:00

Well...I feel like blogging...but then I have no idea what I should blog about so yea...i guess this should be a rather random post...

Recently I keep thinking what I should do during my mid-semester break (not exactly mid-semester)... this semester is a 10+3 semester...meaning after 10 weeks only we have a break and then continue the last 3 weeks...which in fact, the 3 weeks i guess are exams already anyway...so yea...this is it... That break is more like a study period for us...zzzz...and since i have Bio (100% weightage), Finance (60% at least), Chem and Spanish(no idea...) Most probably I should study during that time...but it will be impossible for me to sit there whole day for 2 weeks to study....no way man...that is the truth, that is the fact...I can't do it...I know myself very very well...so I am thinking of adding little bit of fun...I have ruled out the possibility of going to Sydney with Tuck Wah...That would take a hell lot of about 4 days... Hehe...I was trying to learn to play 1 song or 2...well...when i mean...play...I mean yea...piano... ;) It have been 5 years since I last really play a song...I wonder if that really could happen...thats why i say I want to learn how to play 1 song or 2...not all songs... hehe...oh yea...anyone who has piano sheet...please let me know... I want to ask you if you have a particular song piano sheet haha ;D Please!!!

Well...enough for that...oh yea...My best friend had just made it to the final of a talent show, and won a prize too...haha well...Congratulation Tze Sin!!! I heard that she had stressed a lot because of it too...well well...how pityful wakaka!!! Since she had won something... I guess next gathering dinner is going to be her treat right? Agree? hehe ok it is set then haha!!!

Blue- If You Come Back

2009-08-24T23:52:00.000-07:00

C'mon c'mon
Yeah
Can you feel me?
(Baby can you feel me?)
I've got something to say
Check it out
For all this time
I've been lovin' you girl
Oh yes I have
And ever since the day
You left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh, the reason why

So if I did
Something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are

I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yes you are

Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybe
I didn't know
What to say
This time
I won't, this time
Then we can
Build our lives
Then we can
Be as one

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
(Come back to me
Come back to me)
Oh yes you are

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to me
Come back to me
Here's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side

Should I? Or should I not?

2009-08-21T21:24:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was asked by a friend...they wanted to move out and they asked me whether or not I was interested... 'No' was my first thought, but of course, I didn't say that, instead I just asked them to keep talking. They told me about the apartment and then about the payment and then about the place where I will be sleeping...In the end, I ended up in their room discussing the plan and the possibilities... It will be cheaper...but should I go for it? I mean....I know these friends well...I have no problem coping with them, I can have a kitchen just for 4 of us....and the apartment...well to be honest looked cool too... But then if it is so wonderful, why am I hesitating then? I was thinking about my friends here...I was thinking about my football...I was thinking about other thing we could have if are to stay in Fenner...so yea...I was in deep thinking throughout the night.

We are not sure yet to move into the place...since they have not contact us...but we have certainly made an enquiry about the apartment and my friends are all desperate about it... I am just thinking that it might be good in a way that I can learn to live in a house...sounds strange? well maybe kinda haha!!! Another factor is that it is near city and so I could practically walk to city centre as it is really close. In other words, it is also quite close to the university too... As I will be having a special place to sleep in the apartment, my share of payment will be much cheaper even is to compared to Fenner(cheapest accommodation of ANU)...zzz but that is not the point...so should I or should I not? Well I have reach a decision that if they get the apartment....I.....will follow....but if they couldn't get it....it all depends on whether they manage to find another place....before Fenner's enquiry of our staying next semester....

This is problematic...but I guess can't be helped then... Let just hope this will be a good experience....

Really sick

2009-08-17T17:25:00.000-07:00

Since last Wednesday,all of a sudden i continuously coughing like hell...and my nose were blocked as well...bad flu...everything was so random and all out of sudden...without any notice... All i have done for Wednesday and Thursday was lying on the bed and rest...on Friday...nothing seems to go right yet...keep resting... I need to stay strong...However, just when I constantly bombarding myself with panadols, medicine and water (I am like a water balloon in the end)...On Sunday, while I was preparing my lunch...blood came seeping out...REAL QUICK!!! I was stunned, and when i realized it was my nose, I even more shocked!!! First time ever my nose actually bleed...It had never happened before... It is really that terrible? I wonder that myself in the bathroom...my nose keep having blood dropping out of it...It seems like i just had a fight or something and break my nose... Worse thing was... It was not stopping, I stopped the blood (well i thought i had) but when removed the tissue from my nose...all in a sudden it came flowing out again...ARGGGHHH... It was just terrible... I planned to start study on Wednesday and on that day since I was fallen sick....and until now...My coughing doesn't seems to be having any improvement at all... my nose certainly have stop bleeding (of course I have, if not i would have die of excessive loss of blood)...My flu is not a problem already...but really my coughing is really irritating...even to me now...but it is too hard to hold it off.... I will try to get myself second appointment with the doctor to seek for a solution... This week is whole lot of hell for me...lots of exams and essay and reports coming up...screw them...all coming at the time I am sick...

Thredbo skiing

2009-08-08T17:07:00.000-07:00

I went to skiing at Thredbo yesterday and it was really great!!! We had lots of friend going along like Jiaer, Chai Yun, Hong Yun, Yen Fong, Chia Hong, Michael and Ivy. We walked to B&G hall to get to the meeting point with other people and it took us 45 mins!!! Oh yea, not forgetting to mention that we walked at 3.45 am!!!! Haha!!! In Thredbo, we went for few high slopes and wauuu...it was so fun...haha and Ivy and I started challenging for the second highest peak... and woo yea, GREAT!!! Everyone just laughed at someone when anyone fell wahaha!!! Talking about falling off...I fell once....being knocked off balance from behind by a stranger...sigh i though i had escape from him...T.T but overally i guessed everyone really enjoyed it ;) There was a time when I want to challenge the highest peak...and Ivy though very scared at first...in the end followed and took the lift up as well...and she regretted after that... The peak...was 3 times or even 4 times higher than we expected...and when we arrived....we were actually at the peak of the MOUNTAIN!!!! HOLYSHIT!!! I bet Ivy legs had been shaking and constantly asked to go back... Me? Haha...I was scared off too in the end by the steepness of the slope wakaka!!! The very few incidents that i saw people carried back from the mountain with a motor car makes me suspect that this is the killing slope haha ;D Well I didn't go for that slope given that it was about 4 times the distance of the second peak... I just thought that I didn't want to risk myself haha!!! There are too many unfinished business, so yea in the end both of us came crawling back to the ground level with the help of lift haha but then the scenary was beautiful too at the peak...so oh well it was still good despite not playing the slope in the end.... Nevertheless...skiing yesterday was really enjoyable...I am looking forward to the winter next semester and most probably I am not going back to Malaysia in Jun next year...choosing to go for another adventure in Australia or even other nearby country instead...Okay then i guess i better go have my breakfast now...see ya everyone!!!

Soccer No More?

2009-08-01T04:18:00.000-07:00

Well... Fenner team losed to John 2 vs 1...well although up against physically dominating John team and still just losed by 1 goal with several highly-debated issues... I had all of a sudden lost the will to play for Fenner...In the whole match I was dominated by that one-head-taller striker...who could easily head the ball for the entire games...though still he didn't scored any in the match...

The fact is I have no more motivation to play for them...Some players either sick or just did not turned up in the match...This had become increasingly frustrating for me... and the fact that soccer really taken up too much of my time also become a real problem too...

Haiz...I have constantly losing concentration in the match, hesitating when going for the ball...everything is just not right...I don't like being the one that causes our team trouble...Although I played the whole match without being substituted this time... I seriously could not forgive myself for not playing more aggressively in that game... Probably the coach was right...Maybe I was really intimitated by the opponent's size... that was why i hesitated that much throughout the match when about to make the tackle...

I just wonder what kind of defender am I if I can't keep a clean sheet for my team... what kind of defender am I ...if I can't even defend my own...relationship...

Fenner 1 Burgmann 2

2009-07-29T19:28:00.000-07:00

Argghhhh... We Fenner lose yesterday night in the trial match...by the smallest margin and with us giving away the winning goal from penalty spot. Practically the whole match was kind of one sided in the first half (AGAIN!!!) and we improved great deal in the second half. Playing without Isaac (our main striker which kind of play like berbatov style), Randeep (right midfielder), Phil Gatt (left back) and HOLY!!!!(The now CDM)...So yeah...It was obvious that our midfield was dominated... Up front Loo Hao was alone finding space and using pace to seek for chances.... But mainly...it was all defenders in action. Burgmann was playing a bit physical but with lots of beautifully placed through ball...without Holy playing...I was placed in a sweeper role... I still kind of confused between sweeper and stopper...Burgmann had 2 brilliant chance to break the dead lock on either half...and surprisingly for both attempt I was at the right spot at the right time (this phase normally is for a striker but oh well...), i somehow managed to have a touch on both shots and critically both shots path just bent around the post... Auro later made a seemingly harsh tackle...from behind and in the PENALTY BOX!!! God Damn it...Fenner was giving away penalty kick and that seals the winning goal...

Centre Back in prospect...

2009-07-28T18:33:00.000-07:00

OMG...OMG...OMG.... Yesterday training was really really like hell... The coach was like a mad dog...giving us all kind of tough fitness punishments... Now my legs muscles are still paining a bit...and I have a trial match vs Burgmann today what the hell??? The coach asked us to sprint between the 2 hockey post for 10 laps....You have any idea how far is it? AND one thing need to emphasize is...it is SPRINT!!! Not jog or run!!! Zzzz....

Then during training i realize coach is going to make some tactical changes and some position changes... I might not be playing... at RB...well...according to coach...I might be going up against the strikers...meaning....me...as CB (centre back). Well... it is not like i never play in that position before...but...playing as CB means I will have to head out dangerous crossing...and well...I can't head...and...even if i am forced to...I am not a good heading CB!!! Oh gosh...however...CB might as well fits me too in a sense that...My stamina is not that good ever since i am back to ANU...Being CB means I will not need to push forward that frequently haha I know I am a lazy bum... keke ;) Now...Holy the supposedly CB will be playing CDM (centre defence midfielder)... The match against Burgmann today is going to be at 8pm!!!! Who the hell place a match at night when the temperature could easily fall to less than 7 degree celcius!!! It is going to be freaking...and I mean FREAKING COLD!!!! Pity me...no extra layer of fat...T.T I guess I will have to wear thick jacket...gloves...2 pants to maintain my temperature haha!!!

Centre Back....lets just hope Tom (coach) has think that the best position for me is CB...and I hope I can really perform...CB is not a funny position to play in...God Damn It...I really under pressure now... Please...NO OWN GOALS PLEASE!!!! WAKAKA ;D Lets try our best to keep a clean sheet then FENNER!!!! Adios!!!

Brilliant schedule...

2009-07-27T01:44:00.000-07:00

Well well...I printed out my time tables and look at the time slot...GOSH...Most of the box are filled up...God Damn It!!! Why is my friend's time tables always looked so empty while mine? Haiz... I have 21 hours of lectures at least...this hasn't include the tutorial for Chemistry and Biology and additional lab time for Spanish...I am so dead... If you think the 21 hours are all that i need to take care of for a week, you are so wrong!!! I have additional of 2 nights of work...each about 6 hours...so that makes it 12 hours + 21 hours = 33 hours!!! net ( I put net here because the 21 hours as i have said earlier...may rise few more hours... So 33 hours each week? Sorry it is not that easy...I have been involved in Fenner (My university accommodation) soccer team...each week training abt 2 hours...On the match day we take up 3 hours... and this week we even have a trial match against other opponent...and that will most likely take up another 3 hours too... now lets see...33 hours + 8 hours = 41 hours!!!! Argghhh.... I will definitely be freaking tired and exhausted... holy shit... Anyone willing to change their time table with me? T.T and one week the maximum hours are 168 hours...41 out of 168 hours are very much a quarter of the total time already... Not forgetting that if i sleep around 8 hours per day...it will be 56 hours gone... leave? Anyone please do the calculation please...haiz...alright...leave 71 hours.... It is so little time only...what the hell... and i thought that i am going to have a easy-going semester and concentrate on my studies more... but you know what? This semester will be worse than last semester... However...one bright side to this is that soccer match will only takes place in the first term of semester...so yea... I guess in the second term... I will have additional of 8 hours plus free time and higher energy level...ok have to go...bye! Take care you guys ;)

Lost virginity....

2009-07-25T23:39:00.000-07:00

LOL!!! FIrst of all...don't think of dirty stuff or expect anything dirty wakaka ;D I went to clubbing with Tuck Wah, Jason, Ivy, Jonah, Pris and Michael....and the virginity i lost...was that the virginity of clubbing? Well...not sure if that sounds right for you...but since i never go clubbing before which was something Jason tried to force me so many times back in the past...well...I finally went...and well...it was noisy and loud? haha!!! But few things i like...OK!!! NOT ABOUT GIRLS OK???!!! It is the drinks... If not mistaken....I drank...not sure if it was whisky or vodka...plus either lemonade or raspberry...I tried both...and i prefer the liquor combine with the lemonade though...taste much better...at least no that sweet ;) and oh yea...I actually went clubbing the day i had the soccer match...we went at 12 and enter the club at 12.45...I slept at 4am that morning i should say? and I woke up at 9am... realizing i had a soccer match at 11am...great.... The musics...well...some of it were really nice to listen...and quite fun too haha

Then on Saturday and Sunday I went out with Jason...well he brought me around to taste coffee...On Saturday we went Canberra Centre with Ivy following along...and we had coffee and a dinner...$$$!!! Then on Sunday, we went out to Dickson with Michael this time...to a cafe for a lunch... I ordered flat white(coffee) and 'BIG BREAKFAST' ...which Jason said is famous of in Aus...so yea...I had that breakfast thingy at 1.30pm....and I almost vomited...it was ridiculously large meal....The story is...in Aus...if they say is large or big...IT IS!!! Wakaka ;D

Before that we shopped around in 2 Asian Grocery to get some stuff... I constantly seeking his advise on which ingredient is good in cooking noodles...and all sorts of information about cooking stuffs... He is a pro!!!

Oh well...I hope this semester i can really know some cooking...which is something i really want to learn... I always think that a man who knows how to cook is so cool wakakaka!!!! I even now trying to change my job from a waiter to a kitchen hand...but only if i at very least still getting the same amount or if not more pay than the waiter job i am doing right now....hehe...I really think kitchen staff...can learn much more thing than waiter...at least in kitchen i can constantly look at the chef cooking...and hopefully i can learn few dishes from him then haha!!! OK have to go to work now...take care!!! Adios!

Fenner 2 vs Unilodge 1

2009-07-23T22:13:00.000-07:00

Today is the first match of the Fenner soccer team...and our first team is the dark horse...Unilodge! Why I say it is the dark horse? Well...according to our senior, Unilodge soccer team is the worst last year...but things change!!! This year Paul, a winger of our team (Hong Kong Youth Team) said that Unilodge had form a HK Youth Team Defence.... This is really something that can change an entire team...not only that...they had started training since last semester!!!! WAUU.... When Tom (Fenner's soccer coach) announce the starting lineup... I was there in the starting lineup as a right back!!! I was quite happy to be honest...

Still we started the match rather scrappy...The pitch was slippery...I even fell down one time while I was defending...luckily they couldn't score that time haha!!! Unilodge on the other side...had some good passing...and constantly tearing down our flank defence...meaning...me... We really just survived the first half...though in the second half after some corrections and reminding from Tom....The Fenner team changed completely.... Holy (CB) the defence tower had been magnificent at the core of defence...and with our defence suddenly holding off their offence...our strikers and midfielders...who are rather scrappy as well in the first half started to attack constantly... It wasn't a surprise when Tristan (MF) knock in the opening goal in a goal mouth scramble. We finally lead!!!

The game continues and we started to dominate possession and started to create loads of chances...and after a while Tom sub me out with Thomas going in... The next few minutes later Unilodge got a corner kick...long pass wiped in...and the opponents just knocked the ball into the goal...simple goal...worse still....I didn't able to recall any defenders making a challenge on him...well...they managed to equalize then... An unexpected equalizer while the defense wasn't alert that time....

As Unilodge spirits started pumping high...Fenner team caught them in a surprise attack... Somehow...Justin slipped past between 2 CB ...let me repeat this...slipped past BETWEEN 2 HK youth team CB!!! and with the ball under his legs still... I had no idea what happened to the 2 CB...they looked totally stunned and pressured...and Justin cooly send the ball past the GK....2 vs 1... Unilodge roaring back trying to equalize...but almost!!! Almost...Fenner extend the lead through Justin If the lineman did not put up the flag at the sideline... But as everyone was debating over the waived goal...the referee whistled and Fenner had won the match!!! Hooray!!!

情歌 Love Song by梁静茹 Fish Leong

2009-07-20T17:44:00.000-07:00

情歌-梁静茹

作词:陈没作曲:伍冠谚编曲.陈建骐

时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽也磨成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头潺潺的溜走

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片定格一瞬间
我们在告别的演唱会说好不再见

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

长镜头越拉越远越来越远事隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会礼貌的吻别

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久

陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌心还热着
也该告一段落
还好我有我下一首情歌
生命宛如静静的相拥的河
永远天长地久
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This is a beautiful song...still there is one part...yeah should be only one part that really reflects my heart
你给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久....

She never write me any songs...thats why I delete the word 'write' (which is in chinese)...but she did send me lots of love songs to me before...Those songs will be my memories now...haha...I really love her but i guess love is not about give and take... Sometimes it is just happen like that...it just can't be helped...through this 1 year of relationship with 2 girls...let me know a lot of relationship...let me see through 2 different scorpio haha!!! Let me realize the cruelty of real world...(LOL like really dangerous like that haha ^^)

Tuck Wah might be right at some points... Never put girl No.1 priority in your lives... I will try my best...to study hard now...I know there will be some who will think ...'YEA RIGHT...' like my sister did...but I just said I will TRY!!! HAHA ;) I want to be a successful man...and to be successful...there are always some sacrifices to make... I will try to do that... I have make few moves in order to achieve that...for example...swaping the sure-distinction Math and Application course for the super hard Finance... That makes my overall 4 subjects combination seems so weird... Chem+ Bio+ Spanish+ Finance... Anyone has any idea of what am I thinking? True...by one look at my subject combination...nothing makes sense....But it is because it doesn't make sense that is good!!! Kind of weird huh the way I am saying it right now? But never mind...I can't explain it here if not it might turned out to be an arrogant post for some of you...or maybe all of you...haha!!!

The trip back to canberra

2009-07-19T17:00:00.000-07:00

I was in the plane...on my way to melbourne...and for all that 8 hours...I did nothing...nothing except reading a book about success...and closing my eyes...recalling those memories. It was sweet....and pain... That 8 hours...were so long to pass...

So...if 8 hours in a plane was long...what about 8 hours later on in a quiet...melbourne airport? I was walking around...lying around and constantly visited MacD. For more than 5 hours i was lying on a long chair...staring at the wide ceiling...well...again..thinking back what had happened in this past month....and well...probably what had happened in this past few months as well... Whenever i think about that... I would feel sad...heartbreaking you could say... Those time would not be back... Yet...it had always been at this time of loneliness...that she will always be there for me...which...now...no more....

I thought of messaging her...but a lot of questions going through my mind... I was confused...I don't know if i should do that... Now...even after reaching my accommodation...I guess it will be very very hard to forget about her...even if she was never in fenner...but those 4 months back... She was the one giving me encouragement whenever I was feeling down and sad. Mentally as much as anything...I always feel that she was right beside me....

In the melbourne airport...I looked like the only one wearing the mask after checking in the domestic flight...Everyone looking at me... some teens even trying to make fun of it by sneezing and coughing heavily... I ignored them... again...memories of the mask thingy came into my mind... 'selfish'...'too selfish'.... those words whispering at my ears... I really can't take it anymore... Alone in a huge airport for a total of 8 hours... fighting off those sarcastic looks...funny looks showed by the children... now... I even had to constantly fighting off those whisper...This is exhausting... this was mentally demanding... and i don't even know if I can do anything about it...

Right now...this accommodation...looks so different... I don't feel at home anymore.... The room that I live in...though the setting and all the decoration is still the same...I just feel that it is never going to be the same anymore... For all the reasons... I know...this time... I am going to survive alone... There will be no more of supporting from her anymore.... It is not easy to adjust to it... or at least now...I still fail to do so...

Feeling helplessly...I don't know what should I do now... I keep thinking and thinking...about the same old memories....

It is... so sweet...yet so pain...

Story of Adam and Eve

2009-07-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

Adam and Eve were the most loving couple
One day, Eve found out that Adam lied to her about something
She was so Angry as usual gf would be angry if their bf lie to them
She took a stick and write all her unhappiness on the sand
the words she wrote gone as soon as the sea water washed it away
Adam felt so regret about lieing to Eve,
He stayed up whole night writing 100 reasons why he Love her
Each reasons are kept in a medicine capsule
When Eve received the present,
she was so touched and forgave Adam
Next, what did Eve do?
O_O
She used a knife,
Crafted what Adam did on a Rock
The word lasted for years and years
Their marriage lasted till death apart

NO ONE IS PERFECT
FORGIVING IS HARD, SORRY is ALSO HARD
but why is the WOrd 'I LOVE u' can be so generous?
Try to write all your sadness and hatred on a sand
where the water can wash it away
Write all your sweet memories ON THE ROCK of YOUR Heart
That will make you sweeter and sweeter each day

SMILE AND BE HAPPY ALWAYS

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This is a so-called bed time story told by a friend of mine... I feel that it is really a good story...and so plan to immortalize it in my blog...something i want to look back and read again...

Little thoughts going on...

2009-07-10T10:05:00.000-07:00

You could say that this will be another random post...yet it has bother me for a while...

Some of my friends are entering universities...and there will be more of them joining us in the university lives...Yet...to be honest...despite i have said to my dad that the first semester for me was just about adjusting to my new lives... I couldn't help wonder again...what should a perfect university lives be?

Well...i guess everyone will say that it is an easy question...but then...seriously I am very much bothered...

Study is one of the priority...i guess no one will argue about that...but then...what else should come with that? Everyone knows that after university, we will have to face the real world... At least i think that way... So what should we do during our precious...probably last stint of our study then?

Part-time job? Is a part-time job during your university lives a suitable one? Some may say that working can allow you to learn to manage your time better...make you well suited for your future lives...let you exposed to the cruel and realistic world... However...working part-time while study means that you will have to cut down you time for other stuffs and possibly even studies...is it worthy? You judge it yourself...

Involved in more activities...through social club or sports club...You will have a much better fitness if you have some sports...better fitness leads to better health...or so some say...social club can offer you a huge network of people...allowing you to build your network and know more people which maybe beneficial in the future... But then...getting yourself involved in any club means that you will have to participate in it...meaning that you will have to sacrifice some time for it... sports for a better health? In ANU, it is a common scene to see people walking with the help of a stick...their legs seriously injured...is that a sign of better health? I hope not...Should the time be divided for it? You decide it...

Then it is entertainment. We could never ignore this segment...yet with all those important elements squeeze into the schedule...how much time left for entertainment? And another important question...what are the entertainments available for you? Depending in where you are...the entertainment you might be involving in will be vastly different...of course...personal interest must be taken into account as well...but not everyone will have the same entertainment as they hope or wish... and the time you spend in your entertainment will affect your rest time as well...that is the price you need to pay...

Probably to me...this could be the last element (let me know if i leave out anything)... relationship... Some might not realize...but most will probably get themselves into a couple during this period. Why not? But then...what will the impact be? You could have a great motivation...your partner could encourage you when you are sad.. and you two could most probably be studying together... Seems ideal, sweet and perfect isn't it? But then what if everything backfired? No offence, I am not cursing anyone here...i just say IF!!! If everything backfired? Lost your motivation? Feeling down? No mood to study? Or if you two are together, busy dating and so slightly neglect your study maybe?

Of course, everything i said is just a possibility... No one knows what will happen...yet for all that i have said is that...is it possible to really fit in everything? I would say ... 'Yes'...depending on what and where you are study... But i will agree as well...no matter what you choose to fit in...you will lose something...that is the price you need to pay...

The most difficult thing about university is not about choosing the correct combination of courses... I will say it is more to the correct combination of your university lives element... Every little thing matters... and every little thing may change your lives... possibly forever.... The perfect combination? No one knows... But...the future will tells....

Sometimes...a dream would be better if remains as dream....

2009-07-07T20:20:00.000-07:00

Mercedes Benz S500...my dream car...
I guess...is most of my friend's dream car...Nissan Fair Lady
The porsche...seriously...I don't like it...
Ferrari...Dream car...really...just a dream car haha
seriously...this car is the most beautiful car ever ever...of course...same status as ferrari...just the car i will have in MY DREAM WAKAKA!!!

I went to my cousin's in law house... Well...before this i will say she is very beautiful-my cousin....and when i heard from her father regarding her husband...i was even stunned!!! I can only say...she is very lucky. They invited us to their house warming party thingy. To arrive there....we need to pass through 2 guard house and a touch n go thingy machine...super tight security.... Her house is beautifully designed...though...i admit it is not her house design that make me envy....It is the type of room that a single double storey semi-dee that make me envious... In just a house...it has a gym room and a theater room....and god knows how many TV they have.... i saw TV everywhere... Looking at their house...I am kinda imagining my very own house too you know...but oh well...the road is still long for me to get to their standard... I asked my uncle about her daughter house...how much it cost in total... He said...the house cost 600k...renovation 300k...and furniture probably 100k....and i was left speechless...that would means just this house itself had cost nearly 1m....

Not yet...the dog...doberman...did i spell it correctly? Oh well...it is not one of my favourites at all...My favourites dog...i called them the golden triangle!!! Haha...is of the combination of Husky, Golden Retriever and German Shepherd.... but Doberman...is probably my top 5 dogs....alongside Rottweiler... plus my golden triangle...AND!!! if you ask which top 3 best house-guarding dog will i ever want...top 3 will be doberman,rottweiler and German shepherd... So i was quite excited when i actually see a doberman!!! though...it was way smaller than i expected...the last time i saw one...was in ampang....that one when standing upright...was almost one head taller than me....but theirs...which is a female...was around my shoulder i guess the most...so yea...short...haha!!! The surprising thing was that doberman was very friendly when the master was around and we can even play with her...so cool!!! The last time i saw her through the gate...She was scary!!! God damn it...how different a dog can be....

Then...next up about their house was their cars....if not mistaken...they have 3 cars...and!!! Their family only has 3 members...that is if i include the newly born baby.... I will just skip 2 cars...and straight to the number 1 car in his house...as every guest just keep stopping around it to look at it....porsche...
Well...i knew they have a porsche...my eyes just keep looking around ever since i arrive to search for a red car...THE FERRARI...but there was no sign of it...looks like my cousin-in-law's brother hadn't arrived yet...Still when i was in our car and about to leave...a solid sound wheeled past ours...I looked back...a red house...a red car...The Ferrari had arrived...and i just missed it...

My dad and I was discussing about cars few weeks ago...when i fetched him to airport...a fair lady stormed past us...and i quickly said...'There!!! There!!! that is the fair lady everyone talking about!!!'...My dad's response was rather dull...much to my surprise...'Ooo...is it?' Well...i said...it looks rather cool...and it is a sports car!!! My dad gives me a simple response...'not one if you compare to porsche...or ferrari...or lamborghini...it is just....nissan...'. Again...I was speechless... He said before...In Malaysia...Nissan is one the best engine...and also one of the best sports car brand...in MALAYSIA of course... I loves sports car under his influences...i watched F1 ever since primary school... and i love Benz and Ferrari... My mother even worse...she dream of cars almost every night... Her dream is...to change a new car every few years...sometimes...i just speechless...though i likes sports car...i know....it is too expensive...and also...too stupid to have one...for me at least... Of course...My dad influence me in this type of thinking again... He said before... Cars...is just a tool...and it costs... especially sports car...think about it...how much it cost...and after you buy it...what can you do about it? Do you really dare to drive it around and park at the road side in Malaysia...? Of course...He was right...how can i dare to do that?

Even my dream car...Mercedes Benz S500...is just a dream...I understand that...I saw that car in a big BENZ and BMW sales garage...holyshit...the price tag on it...I never see such a big number before (for a car of course and of course...excluding those i read in newspaper too^^). I understand...there are some dreams...that would be better if remains as a dream...The fear in my mother's and sister face while i was small...watching them screaming in front of gate...and me helplessly in house... Everything comes with a price...and a car's price...is more than just a price tag...it brings status...and of course...dangers too....too bad...i guess this is the reality...and i am just a realistic man...That is also possibly the reason...why...I enjoy looking at other's sports car and envy of them...but myself strongly against buying one...The childhood fear still remains...

SWEETEST SURPRISE~MICHAEL LEARNS TO ROCK

2009-07-01T19:46:00.000-07:00

I never knew life could be like this
Never thought that I would be
the one that you would kiss
I never knew love could be so rough
But now I've found the real thing
I can't get enough

The sweetest surprise caught me tonight
Right there in your eyes while I was kissing you
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here
uh~uh

I used to wish, I used to dream
But now I'm living my heart's wildest fantasy
So I began to believe
Because our love is there for everyone to see

The sweetest surprise caught me tonight
Right there in your eyes while I was kissing you
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here
uh~uh

On and on where good things never end
woo~hoo
On and on where we never pretend
ah yeah

The sweetest surprise caught me tonight
Right there in your eyes while I was kissing you
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here
uh~uh
So don't say that you don't love
Everything you dream of could be here

_________________________________________________

I have wanted to post other song up that can express my feeling... This song could not at all express my feeling at this moment...yet...why am i posting this up? Well...Memory...this little sweet song is part of our memories... You said back in that time...you wanted to send me this song...You did in the end...You loves this song...the melody as well as the lyrics...It is so meaningful for you... Yet do you know...because you love this song so much... I have put this at the top of my playlist....meaning whenever i play the player...no matter whether i put it in shuffle mode or according to order...i will definitely play the first song...which is this song... You said the feeling of owning this song was simply sensational...I say...the feeling of owning you is the one that really makes me cheers...is the one that only makes this song alive... I truly believe that ...it is still not the end of world for us...just not yet...

Another sleepless night

2009-06-28T16:38:00.000-07:00

I wonder....How long it takes for me to fall asleep...forever...? I had a memory of me being sent to hospital after A sleepless night...now i have been through just 6 hours of sleep for 3 days...another new record...and 2 sleepless night in 3 days time...and...why am I still blogging here instead of just popping up some white foam and sent to hospital instead...It is now a torture to be at home...or in my room...or go anywhere to shop or watch movie...or even going back to Australia...Love can be a sweet thing when you are in love...but turned into a torturous one if you are not... Everywhere has her shadow...how can I even possibly not thinking of her...The moment i open my laptop pop her face there or open my wallet and there she is or even just scan through my phone...there you have it...I know i can change my all those picture...but i don't want to change it...

She said lets be friend...yet she is ignoring me now like a total stranger...a friend is cruel enough for me...now total ignorance as though I am a stranger...well...what else can i say...

Yesterday I have plenty of durian... Guess what? At night when my dad touched my forehead...he was shocked and scared....He said that I was actually icy cool...sorry...I should say...I am icy cool...Even after having durian...Even after yet another sleepless night which should have makes body feel heaty...I am still icy cool...My body homeostasis must has dyfunctions....

Haha...and even though I am functional enough to still walk and laugh around...I have limit in energy...and lack of power and fitness...I could no longer cope with the taekwondo training even though the Sunday training i thought was rather light...i could no longer have any strength to fight back when I was overpowered by someone in the other night...haha I really couldn't do anything much now...

One thing!!! It is not like I want to torture myself by not sleeping...I want to sleep too...I don't want to worry of myself...I don't want to feel useless of not being able to do things like how i used to...I don't want all my friends to worry about me too...yet...I have no idea of what is going on in my body right now... Sometimes i don't even know what am i doing... I can just be at a spot at a time...and then... poom!!! i am at another spot...almost like a blink of an eye...it is like telepot....being able to perform telepot would be cool...yet i know...this ain't cool at all...I was wondering what was going on...and i know very well what is the best fit conclusion for that...

This is so funny...now i have no interest in most things now...or maybe don't have enough energy or concentration to do those...I have no more energy for gym exercise now....I have no more concentration to play PS2 now...or even if i play...i have to close my eyes now and again....I really hate myself for being a weak person right now... This isn't the image i want to potray despite my appearance...Nevermind that...i want to go brush my teeth and see what i can do later...feeling uncomfortable again...though it is completely normal...for not sleeping entire night...icy cool body...what does that means...does that mean that even my body is giving me indication I should be icy cool? Or that my energy level is so low that cell metabolic rate has gone low...and so release less amount of heat....phew...i can still think scientifically...not bad huh? well...i just hope an icy cool body will indicate that i will have a sleep soon...forever? I don't think so...I am not that person to die after something bad happen...I don't want others to think of me as a weakling... Forever love...?.... I don't even want to think of that anymore... NO MORE... I need to remind myself to BE MYSELF even in a relationship... I have got to be realistic...yea realistic... NO MORE DREAM LAND and....CERTAINLY!!! NO MORE WHAT LALA LAND* ANYMORE!!!

* Lala land is given from my friend- Xue Ni...it means that in another world...mostly used to describe someone who is so happy that he or she is in his or her dreamland...

双子 Gemini

2009-06-28T16:33:00.000-07:00

双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

笑
双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

爱
一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

坚强
有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

人际
双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

朋友
当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

执着
说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

自尊
双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

分享
在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

很想说 I want to say....

2009-06-26T23:53:00.000-07:00

woo~ you are so beautiful to me
在午夜里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对太愚昧
难道笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终于懂了真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了 my love
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终于懂了(终于懂了)真的(真的)
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的(是你的)
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了(忘记了)
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了就有坚持理由(就有坚持理由)
别说我会留在路口不会走 ho woo (爱你会直到最后)
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的(hey aaa)
很想说你真的误解了(八八)
很想说你真的忘记了(阿 ha)
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的(八八)
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合

I read back all those email we had... There was one when you said that I am very good in choosing the correct song...melody when combined lyrics plus the feelings...is a very powerful weapon...I don't want to lose you...and now...I will be trying everything to hold you back...Please...back to me...

Translation....
You are so beautiful to me...
In the day or night...you are always so beautiful...
Your smile can cheer me up...can drive me crazy...
I want to give you the happiness you want
Letting you leave is my worst mistake...
So now...no more smile between us? There starting to have space in between...we have start to not feeling happy anymore?
Or is it that we just can't trust each other anymore?
I have finally understand...

I want to say that having you in my life is my happiest moment...
I want to say that my heart belongs to you...
I want to say that you have misunderstand me...
I want to say that you have forget... my love
I want to say that i will care you more and more...
I want to say that my love to you is true from the bottom of my heart...
I want to say...'Did you hear what i say?'
I want to say that you have forgotten our love...

Once one love there will try to stick to each other till very end...
Don't say that that you will wait me at the junction...I WILL LOVE YOU TILL VERY END!!!

I want to say... ' Can we back together again...?'

Heart Broken...

2009-06-26T23:08:00.000-07:00

It is just a dream...It is just a dream... I am reading all the email we had throughout this 5 months... It can't be...all in a sudden everything has gone...I have lose my love...what remains is just the past memories...how it comes to this...I am totally lost...

Deja vu

2009-06-26T08:32:00.000-07:00

Haha......we broke up.... Everything is gone...yet...i feel heart pain...but...could not utter a word...I try to scream...but sound refuse to come out...I just feel empty. All in a sudden...I have lose her...i am really angry of myself...I know that it is because of myself that i lose her...i hate myself... Yet...i really do hope this is just a dream...NO...not a dream...should be a nightmare... Back to reality...it is not a dream or a nightmare...it is life...

Thinking back of our memories....it was so sweet...so sweet that i keep missing them...To be honest...Is coming back to Malaysia a wrong move? Well...i guess so...I really really miss her...yet...because of me missing her too much...it causes me to lose her....how irony...

After this 5 months...i can't believe that we actually break up while I am back... Even though i had a similar nightmare before...I truly miss her...but what i can do? I was driving home halfway before i made a U-turn to make a last effort to keep her with me...it all lost...I fail to keep her still...

Why you leave me...? She said,..... Those words keep ringing in my mind...Of course...i keep thinking about it...but why? Why don't just give me a second chance? Well...study...I know i have to respect your decision...i tried all I can to change it...It all fail...

Now...i just want to have a rest... I want to really think of what is my life... At first...Everything in my lives...surrounds her...but now that the core has gone...I need to find myself a new objective... Just like how MU lose Christiano Ronaldo... the team will have to rebuild...so do I.

Let bygone be bygone...sometimes it is much easier said than done... For what i have done for her...I have done it...I personally try to give her so much...but i ended up neglecting other part...and i don't get a second chance to make up for it...I just feel robbed...

Anyway...I understand i have lose her...She has get herself freedom now...no more restriction from me... she can mix with all her friend without worries now...she can enjoy her lives now... for me? It is all too sudden...I still need to adapt... I hope i can still care about her...and i hope she still allow me to care... I hope she won't just kick me out of her lives so quickly... after all...she has started to hide her feeling for few weeks now...while I am still trying my best to comfort her... I knew it...yet I just hope i was wrong...

Everything...happens just like deja vu....

Blank...

2009-06-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

looking at the laptop....my mind is full of the past memories...

5 months anniversary!!!!

2009-06-17T23:11:00.000-07:00

I am writing this post on 18th of June....thursday...and the day before melissa and me 5 month anniversary ;) Time past so soon...I remember the day when i left which was the Valentine Day...5 months ago...and now...I am about to be back soon!!!!

To be honest, I am very glad we could sustain our long distance relationship...I knew she should be a very loyal girlfriend...still how much hope can i place on her back then just months after my breakup? Thus, I am really delighted...5 months long distance relationship isn't easy...In the first 2 months, she got jealous all over Ivy,who was my cooking partner....the 3rd week,we were in a peaceful month with her trusting me that Ivy is just friend....and that i wasn't flirting around with any girl...zzz...After that, the 4th and now 5th month....It was my turn to got jealous...over the guys that were around her all the times...

When she is jealous last time...haha I did a great job explaining and trying to comfort her...resulting to a much lengthy 2 hours chat almost everyday wakaka!!! joking la...that time we were chatting so long because she was very free....hehe....She is great too...even though I am such a jealousy freak...she never complain much whenever i sulking and letting the jealousy have a control over me...in fact, she just take it that i do care about her... Me? of course, have constantly trying to fight off the jealousy... so it is not like i am still as easily jealous as i am last time...

Nevertheless...I do hope that...she will keep her heart solely for me and her parents... I really don't want to lose her...and I will try my best to keep her with me... Long distance relationship isn't simple and easy...yet i truly believe that as long as we both have faith, keep loving each other...and holding on to each other...nothing can split us apart...

So i hope what i am going to say now...can be said again in the future...countless times....

I LOVE YOU DEAR

Birthday

2009-06-14T17:21:00.000-07:00

Oooo....my birthday? Oh yea which day? Monday...i see...this is the reaction i had when Chai Yun's boyfriend talk about my birthday... How sucks can it be... Having my birthday in exam period... Not that i don't need to study...I have exams tomorrow... Then....those persons that i have been celebrating my birthday with all the time...are not around me... THEN!!!! the person i hope to have beside me...isn't here as well...So yea...I could say...this is a really weird birthday...and i really feel empty.

I read about Paula's personal message....If only i have 3 wishes...I will not ask for 3...if only i can have just one....One is more than enough...I will hope that i can live a happy lives...with my parents, dear and best friends around me all the time...I am jealous easily....I hate it when everyone of form 5 has a chance to go to gathering in Bukit Tinggi 2....and not me...I hate it...when everyone of United Taekwondo can has a chance to go training all the time... I hate it when everyone can has the chance to meet their parents whenever they like... I hate it when i have to pay so much for a karaoke here and it reminded me of my best birthday surprise which happened in karaoke...I miss it...I miss it all.... So...what would i have ask more? Every little thing just bring back memory...i know i have said that...perhaps i will migrate here to Australia...and never look back... It is true that Msia is full of sad memories...but i has not realize that there are so many memories in that place that i treasure so much... It is just that...sometimes because you can do it so often...you don't treasure it.

Erm...I think it is better i have been a little more cheerful....It is my birthday anyway.... I am very happy when Melissa call me exactly at 12 yesterday night and wished me happy birthday..hehe i really thought she forgotten... but oh well...luckily she remembered wakakaka!!! ;) and now days after days...I have been more and more excited about the prospect of me finally.....LEAVING AUSTRALIA AND BACK MALAYSIA!!! I can't wait...i can hardly hold back myself.... I am emotionally waiting for this day for so so so so so long!!!! As that day is drawing close...I just sometimes feels like screaming out....4 months long....it has been a tough journey for me....and i can't wait to just finish off the exams and be back... And please...i hope...nothing goes wrong that day....It will really be a big blow if anything stop me from going back... and so...forget about the wish that i want to live happily with everyone...for now...just gives me a simple air ticket back home....safely and disease free....this is my only birthday wish...

I am...really tired

2009-06-08T04:43:00.000-07:00

Haiz...i just finish some of my reading of my biology...really really freaking tired... This is freaking hell...Study from morning till night...This is crazy!!! I am not living a lives like this...this is a super boring and tiring lives!!! It is even tiring than going for taekwondo classes...zzz sometimes i really wonder how those scholars can actually study all the times...I salute them...but i think even if it is just studying all the times...that is not exactly what lives should be... i will say that i have lives a relatively boring lives...but at least i am having some sports which i love a lots...ever since i been here...I have been splited apart from all kind of sports...splited apart from my family...and my loved one...T.T With my birthday coming close...not that i realise it until someone mentioned about it today's morning...I wasn't really excited or even looking forward to it... For me it is just another day... How worse can it be? A day before my biology exam... I don't even think i have any feeling to celebrate my birthday... lets be realistic... For me now...I just want some rest...and i want to go back home...perhaps that is the sole reason i am looking into my birthday... Going back to Malaysia...that is my second best present of all... Second? How about the first? Well...I guess it will goes to Melissa's present...hehe just hope it really is what i expect... hehe...that is the reason i am still working so hard despite all the stress... uni lives... is just bipolar....relax at first...STRESS you in the end!!!

Grueling week coming up...

2009-06-05T18:47:00.000-07:00

Haiz...starting next week i will have a really tiring and exhausted week... This is bad... now i practically study as much as i can to prepare for the exam...ARGHHH!!! This is just so stress...but i guess i have to cope with it...Everyone is having the same pressure for exam...SO!!! NO COMPLAIN!!! Time is really winding down... I am closer and closer towards the trip back to Malaysia...Now it is less than a month of countdown already...I can't wait!!! TO RELAX!!! meet up friends, go back home and stay with parents and of course be at the side of Melissa... I miss everyone so much... I'm tired... Tired of working and study at the same time... Tired of having to study at a range of 5 to 10 hours a day in Fenner (my accommodation)...who ever that knows me well...should be surprise by my hours of study recently.... I mean this is great pressure... to force me to study this much....but think back about it...back in SPM and college...probably i have been study this much as well... The difference is I am now in university, course much harder... The similarity is? I have been relaxing the whole semester...and i have been on the other end of relaxing at the end of the semester... This is....the pattern of Caesar's study hours....

SPAN CHEM DOWN...but SPAN still ongoing...

2009-05-21T16:26:00.000-07:00

I have been through a hard-fought week. I have gone through a Spanish test and also a horrible...rushing chemistry exam. Still next 2 weeks my schedule will be fully filled with Spanish Exams still...this feels so bad...Oral test...then term test...then this and that...ARGH!!!

OKIE...i better think some positive things to calm my nerves... Hehe... Melissa and I have reach our fourth month already...so happy ;) I just hope it will keep on going longer and better. I just miss her so much.. But oh well...not too long, i will be seeing her again!!! I just fail to contain my excitement... Not only that, i will also be seeing my family and my friends too...and FOOD!!! DELICIOUS FOOD!!!! Wakaka!!! I am all pumped up already!!! hehe... Now...I am better go study for a while now...living alone outside in another country...to be honest, is both an exciting and whole new experience... I guess you can just learn so much different things and culture and all... You experience so many different things, as well as being able to understand yourself more too... It is just...brilliant. Probably last time, i have always been thinking of how hard can it be to study abroad...but i have know now... It is tough AT FIRST!!! but after that, it just flow nice and fine. One disappointment though, Melissa is not with me here in Australia...still...probably this allows both of us to concentrate more in study ;) I have to say...I am studying more now than in the same phase in Taylor back then...or in Form 5... SO I AM STUDYING HARD!!! haha ;) ADIOS!!!

Saturday...

2009-05-16T00:56:00.000-07:00

Oh i am now studying, but still...I am very sick...and tired. I have not been feeling well recently... Ever since i tried to get the free flight seat and woke up at 4 in the morning, i have not have sufficient sleep. I felt like vomiting and tiredness keep strike me now and again. Today (Saturday) i even replace my lunch with just snacks...and now i felt like vomiting...probably gastric. Tomorrow i am going to play in a soccer match of International vs Domestic. In the beginning of the semester, i played in the International team too and we won as usual...The International team has been dominating in the Fenner history of International vs Domestic match. I will try to be fit for the match, even though i doubt i will. With another late sleeping imminent, considering that i need to finish my chem study and do some exercises.... For my dear, she has been rather busy lately with reports and homework...i guess she is finding it hard to cope with the work load.... i guess we wouldn't be skyping that much recently....but i have faith in her... I know we both love each other, and so, I will try my best not to express my jealous too much..and instead trusting her more ;) I will believe in you dear...

I love you

Happy Mother Day

2009-05-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother Day!!! Wahhh it has been a while since i last blog. But oh well...in special occasion, it is hard not to find me blogging about it. Today, some might realise...it is Mother's Day!!! I guess most people will be taking their parents out for a dinner. Afterall, to treat mum a meal, in a way, letting her rest and not preparing a meal or wash any dishes after the meal...it can also let your mum to have some really delicious meal too!!! So good!!! According to my mum, my family went to Deng Jye's Japanese restaurant to have a dinner...wahhh so nice woh they said. Next time i go back must go eat already hehe ;) Can't wait to go back...when i will be back? Hehe i won't be telling a lot of people... But i will be in Malaysia until July 17...most likely i will be there in July d...haha

Wonder Silver

2009-05-01T19:00:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. I had a rather tiring week. Lucky for me, it is gone, and i don't want to think about it. Ohhh by the way, my sister has manage to get a SILVER medal in mssd!!! COol!!!! I almost can't believed my eyes when dad sent me a sms that she was getting into the final. Haiz, and me...stuck here in a boring place...with nothing but pool, football, study and work to do... Really boring... Well...i wonder i still can beat my sister or not next time i go back...i better start train a bit... Being beaten by a girl and worse...younger sister is never a good feeling. Anyway, yesterday night my friends and i have few glasses of whisky. I just tried it out since it was my friend's birthday... The alcohol percentage is as high as 40% and i had 2 glass mixing with coke. Not that bad though, but of course, haha a bit dizzy. Ok la, have to go already, see you everyone and take care ;)

Happy Birthday Kelly and Kai Di

2009-04-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

Hohoho!!! Today is my sister and brother birthday!!! Well...as you might know already... The left is my sister Kelly i talked about in last post...and the little kid there...hehe is undoubtedly my little brother Kai Di. Well both of them were born on the same day...23rd of April..quite a coincidence huh? Well, my sister will have 2 mssd to attend to...probably she won't even have time for a cake cutting ceremony haha ;D but oh well, hope she at least will have some birthday luck for this week. She should need it really much ;) As for my naughty little brother...oh well, as i said, he is naughty...haha and his chinese name 'di' meaning that he is the emperor haha, but oh well, even though i am not there already to control him, my sister will undoubtedly carry out the responsibility to control the 2 hot-headed brother from fighting against each other. Anyway ....

Happy Birthday Kelly and Kai Di!!!

Hope you two will have a brilliant and healthy year!!!

My sister is so great

2009-04-20T19:03:00.000-07:00

Wahhh you know what? My sister have mssd of history quiz today... She came out of school competition in second place...Well...you might say that she is just a nerd for being good in history...now listen this.... She has a mssd of taekwondo this coming Saturday... Nerd? Think about it!!! Then she is the class rep...as well as the chairwoman of the Persatuan Melayu... She is really great...not to mention she has to concentrate in her studies as well for SPM and yea, she got 8As last time in PMR and is in 2nd class.... *Note: in my school...8 As student is being located from 1st to 3rd class most of the time....so yea ;) Anyway good luck sister and hope you can do well in today's history mssd.... and won it as your birthday present haha!!!

Happy Birthday Mummy!!!!

2009-04-16T03:42:00.000-07:00

They say once you lost something important...only then you will realize its importance to you

Well...I certainly feel that now....

Being away for so long, and being separated by such long distance...meaning that I couldn't see her everyday... Not only that, that means i couldn't taste her food everyday too!!! Oh well... When i first arrived here in Canberra, most of the time i ate bread and maggi mee... and even now after i have learn to cook something simple.... I still ended up wasting 1 or 2 hours for just a dinner... Those mummy style cooking.... oh well, i really miss them badly!!! Ohhh, and whenever i sick, those care that mum showed... I miss them badly as well!!! But, come on Caesar!!! BE A MAN!!! Haha, but living outside on my own now...start making me more and more independent. I might be home sick for now...but in the long run...this could turn out to be beneficial for me. I am a lazy guy....never really learn much whenever i was with my mummy, and now i truly regret it. My mother was right in deciding in throwing me out to overseas... She never plan to make me study in Malaysia... She knows me well, surely she knows that I...am the kind of person that will only respond when being pushed to the corner.... AND I AM RESPONDING!!!!!

Mummy has been brilliant for our family!!! Absolutely brilliant!!! She is so so hardworking!!!! She works as a driver for her children, as an assistant manager in my dad's company, as a housewife by taking care some of the house work (some because part of it has been covered up by my maid) and most importantly as a perfect mother who never cease in caring her children. Mummy is a great teacher, guiding all of us to be a better person.... teaches us in education and ever-strict with our homework! She is even our pharmacist or possibly doctor in our family too!!! Treating every and anyone in our family with unbelievable patience and loves, nothing is uncureable under her treatment...and so we even start to save lots of medical fees too!!!

Well well...i would like to transmit a message to my brothers and sister...better appreciate mummy for now, and start learning anything and everything from her... You will need it in the future. Oh, and please take care of her, she might be good in treating others...but certainly...not herself. Lastly.... this is something i say often to other girl but probably a rare line for her to hear.... MUM I LOVE YOU!!! MUAKZ!!!!

and.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Sweet memories of China trip

2009-04-16T02:47:00.000-07:00

Oh well well...First of all, I am boring, and second of all...I am lonely haha :( Most of my friends will be going somewhere for holidays...My best friend- Tuck Wah, join half of the scholars to New Zealand this morning and will be unavailable until at least next Friday... Jason will be going to Sydney on Friday and return on Saturday... Meanwhile, Ivy is expected to meet up with her boyfriend in Adelaide this weekend....In short, all of my friend are going somewhere during this easter...So, I, who is rooted in this Canberra city...want to show off to his scholars friends that I went to some place too...well...haha even though it was long time ago ;) The pictures below were all taken during the China trip that took place during last year December....

My father embracing mother...SO SWEET~~~~ KEKE....

Talking about sweet huh? Who is sweeter than my brother...No wonder mother always bias towards him haha :D

Are we in a fairytale....Those 2 do look like being in those world.....

Melissa's face is reddish and jealous already.... haha

WHAT IS THIS???!!!! Melissa is going to BURST ALREADY!!!!! Wakaka :D

What a lovely little picture of brother and sister.... wait...and....

Transform!!!!

Go!!! Go!!! Power Rangers....

Go!!!Go!!! Power Rangers.....

MIGHTY MORPHINE POWER RANGERS!!!!

WAKAKAKA!!!!!

Pictures of the siblings...from left is Kelly, Caesar (ME!!!), Kai Di, and Kaiser.

Me taking solo pictures in Huang Shan.... Cool ~~ Hehe...I mean the temperature...

So.... STOP BOOING!!!!

My mother and I in....well i forget...haha!!!!

Melissa force us to stay 1 meter apart...so this is what happen.... KEKE!!!!

Family photo? WAIT!!!! ARGH!!! AGAIN?! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU KAISER!!!!!?????
Now... all the memories fades away.... I have come back to reality.... All alone in Fenner...

Well...not really... My family, Melissa ...and of course my friends are always in my heart...

Melissa going to University

2009-04-14T22:01:00.000-07:00

Argh...feel so boring, and lazy and i haven't start studying yet... Damn...keep playing pool only... Haiz...today Melissa is going to go to her new accommodation in Nottingham. Well...I can't go with her there since i am still here in Australia and i didn't book the flight back last time. I feel so anxious, nervous and perhaps mostly....scared? I am kind of afraid that once she is in university, she will find other better-looking guy perhaps....maybe a more caring guy... Haiz....This will be a crucial month... I just hope we will be alrite.... I guess tonight i will have to miss karaoke with my friends.... I want to be there when she is boring and need someone to chat....

Easter holiday!!!!

2009-04-09T04:18:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah!!! Now i am having a 2-week-holiday!!! Yea Piiii!!! After i overcame a grueling week...the reward is significant...A REST! Oh well...not like i am really going to have much, I need to manage my booking back to Malaysia in July...I should have done it before this...but i was so busy and tired back then...so i guess i could only do it now, anyway it should be just a lengthy call...shouldn't be much a headache i guess. Then, i need to get some kind of non-resident number from whatever website...i need to ask about the bank about this too... troublesome...sigh...still...i have to do it...if i am to proceed with my fixed deposit account zzz..... next up will be study... I have 2...if not mistaken...mid-semester exams coming up after the break...and both are biology...One is evolution and genetics...another is cell...zzz another troublesome subject...such a headache. Not forgetting i will be working more days during this break too of course...with some of the waiters going off for vacation...meaning during this break we will need to work more days than usual to cover up for the holes left in the schedule... I am going to work again on Saturday this week...and my usual slot is on Tuesday and Wednesday...and Tony (my manager) said that we are going to work at least 3 days per week during this break. Good enough though... I can earn more money!!! and at the same time, i can save more money too!!! since i am able to have my dinner provided by the restaurant...Haha. Oh yea, I am going to attend the trials for Malaysia basketball team too... and for badminton team...I have told them to inform me if there is any trial being held... So oh well...is this really a break for me? Not realising it just now, but now that i mention about it...it seems like i have got myself another schedule to attend during this break.... I am really super active haha... Oh well that means i will be busy as like during the university time.... Everyone take care!!!

Full

2009-04-04T05:02:00.000-07:00

I was tired and felt sick from the morning. Yet, i watched NBA for 4 hours, and i followed up with a 3-hours basketball session. In the end? I got beaten up pretty badly....0 points and few assists in every games i played. Frustrated, after i fell at one time, i kicked out to the opponent!!! I was distracted throughout the day. And now, after a dinner outside with Ivy and Andy in Happy Restaurant...which i clearly not that happy that time. After 1 hour, i walked only manage to walk small steps all the times....and i was clearly sloppy all the times. Reasons? I just ate 7 bowls of rice, 3 meat dishes and 1 tauhu...(dishes were shared though)...just for reference, the most bowl of rice i ever have...is 4, and i almost doubled it just now. The time i have my fourth, Ivy and Andy were still in their first....So i am full, so full that i feel dizzy,tired and sick. Haiz,today i didn't study, i guess i better study tomorrow...can't be like this....

Kaiser Special Post

2009-04-03T16:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to you ... Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday to Kaiser.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! Haha... For those who doesn't know who Kaiser is... He is my little brother...the first one! haha...this year form 1 currently study in Kwang Hua as well... and a taekwondo red-black second dan too!!! haha See!!! Kaiser, i praising you through my blog le...hehe.... Anyway, i guess this will be the first time i doesn't celebrate his birthday together... hehe actually it is not like i actually celebrate it when it really is his birthday...anyway, Happy belated birthday la Kaiser... U better improve your taekwondo!!! or i go back and kick your ass haha!!! Don't forget now i have daily slope climbing using bike...by the time i back, my leg muscle will be stronger than ever....AND!!!! I drink lots of milk haha!!!!

OK then, lets start talking about my brother.... He is a hot-tempered (for me) and stubborn person...and he is very chicken-hearted haha!!! Yet i believe he is slightly more hardworking compared to me( i mean me in last time)....thus, i believe if he can keeps it up...he can definitely be able to overtake me in many aspects... In terms of sports...frankly speaking, he never win me in anything...haha, but it is also true i am older, but oh well, we learn everything together at the same time, and in sports, the younger the better so yea...cheh haha....oh yea, Kaiser, learn basketball...or try to concentrating in jumping. Jump 50 -100 times a day, it is important to grow taller, and once you are taller, you will automatically look good with your extra fat elongated haha!!!! Combine with you beautiful eyes and your ever-present handsome face ( really, you have that handsome face...and your eyes...i damn envy!!!). You will be an idol in future, just like Edmund in taekwondo haha!!!! Just remember to concentrate too in study in the future... NOTE! In the last line, i said 'too' so, hehe for me, it is alright to have some fun....SHIIII!!! Don't let mummy hear this haha ;) and lastly, next time if anything happen...you can find sister... well she might be a bit scary at times, but when u really need her, u can always talk to her, *she has a soft heart actually. Just cry when u speak to her, and she dare not to speak louder than ur whisper already haha.... and hor...you are 1 year older already...take care the growing-possessive little emperor....and control your temper while you are talking, you need to be polite if you are to persuade or control someone, tuning up your volume won't help! So, if dad is not around (which has been lesser now), take care of the family with sister la ok? Mum is always that busy with house work and company, so just keep an eye on the emperor.... Don't worry, emperor is not going to control everything, DICTATOR WILL!!!! Haha ;) take care

Busy....and pain

2009-04-02T14:35:00.000-07:00

ok I was really busy...I had to stay really really late overnight and finished my report....damn...all because of stupid 2 reports in span of 4 days, and during that period i had 1 exam and had to work the following 2 days and after the 2nd working night, was already my due date of my submission!!!! and guess what?! I even went for the trial of the fenner team (my accommodation) basketball team before my work on the day of 2nd working day....making my schedule even tighter. I didn't make it o the finish though the trial as halfway through i had to leave to rush to work....haiz, i guess i will be selected out definitely....geez. Anyway, phew Melissa my dear accompany me whole night until 1 hour before i finished it...haha i chase her away, if not she will be extremely tired hehe....and she was really sweet...on tuesday morning, which i had class at 8 and normally will wake up at 6...she message me to make sure i will not be late!!! ;) oh well, i slept quite late the night before and thought of waking up at 7am....zzzz but she woke up at 3 purposely to woke me up so yea....after i woke up, i dare not slept back...so yea, just lie on the bed lo haha :D and now with most busy things over already, i will better be prepared for the Spanish exam next week. Oh damn, my own body is aching....i guess almost 2 weeks didn't exercise much...suddenly had a vigorous basketball training did hurt me much....and the stupid 'hill' that i had to climb with my BIKE!!! when i cycle against the slope....to be honest, i am slower than walking, and when i go down the slides....i am equal to a car speed... you can start imagine how great the angle of the slope is. Now only i know how difficult is it to climb a slope with a bike...it is even worse than walking or running!!! The first time i almost go backwards and rolled downhill haha...Caesar wey!!!! haha but not bad too, i can train my leg muscle and when i go back in end of Jun, i am gona crush all my juniors in Chung Hwa...haha crush their stupid thoughts...if there is any...of them beating me in sparring wakaka...alright then, i have to study....bye

I really miss.....Belt?! Shirt?!

2009-03-27T21:14:00.001-07:00

Haha...yea i wore this taekwondo shirt just now and took some photos of it...well, i have never take a pictures of myself wearing it...for 5 years... I have never imagine myself missing of wearing it again....haha i guess 5 years relationship with the taekwondo just won't die easily ;) Yet...this taekwondo has mean so much for me... It is full of memories...and regret as well...

Unable to being crowned champion in both failed attempt of sparring championship really hurts.... And watching my sister progress from getting runner-ups...to getting the gold medals make me feel even more guilty....haha.... Cheh... and now with me not being able to train as much as i can in Malaysia...the gap between my siblings and me...will only be closer...haha obviously not wider...haha i doubt they can beat me just yet haha...well...if there is one...probably my sister, Kelly can do it...haha, that is if she can be a bit more aggressive and slightly more cold-hearted haha. my little brother...Kaiser is not that good in sparring...and oh well...i don't like my parent way of saying...'he is still scare since that match...bla bla bla...' but oh well...i know he will be better...just a matter of time....i guess him training with the seniors more will help him more and more....but still, he is especially good in one....which is the thing i hate the most, and i think...most boring one....haha (sorry Master Tan)....pattern performing...Kaiser can always memorise all the moves and kicks...Bio is tough but compared to that...oh no....haha!!!! Anyway, down to conclusion....I miss taekwondo really much, and i hope my sister and brother can be better and beat me.( I won't lose that easily and i hate losing to my siblings....really really much...) But i doubt it will happen in the near future haha. I guess Kaiser will be saying...'cheh...what an arrogant fellow ....' again haha oh well sorry bro...you can start saying that after you beat me ;) see yea

My Room

2009-03-27T21:04:00.000-07:00

Well...i just realise that i have came to Australia for a month and a half now, and i have never show you guys of my room yet...so yea...here is all the pictures of my room.... To be honest, it is a

relatively small room with a mini bar fridge (i bought it like 3 weeks ago i guess....)...but anyway...it is fitable for me haha...

First Job

2009-03-22T21:48:00.000-07:00

Oh yea, finally I have my very first job in Australia...haha... The job is the same as the previous one in Malaysia-waiter. The only different though, in Malaysia, i work in Windmill....a western restaurant.... Here in Australia, i work in a Malaysian (eastern) restraurant. Haha, funny isn't it? Oh by the way, haha i miscalculated my salary last time. It is true that i have 50 bucks per night, but i work max 5 hours....so yea it is kind of like 10 bucks per hour haha...now it really seem to be low...hehe but i thought i should not be choosy and dear agreed with me too... ;) The people there were helpful and friendly.... The captain...perhaps saw me walking so nervously here and there... taking orders and other stuffs....haha constantly asked me to relax. What to do, i was included in Sunday shift in the last minute because other workers can't make it. Sunday...busy night.... But oh well...even busy night has it benefits too...10 AUD tips!!!! wauuu... i mean 10 bucks of tips was given by the captain, he divided all the tips to everyone, so cool!!!!! Ivy worked on thursday and only got 6 bucks!!!! Haha, damn i am now so motivated to work on busy day already haha!!! Oh yea, now i would like to take this opportunity to say this..... Don't worry you will be fine, your bf might still be a bit angry of whatever you did...( i didn't catch what happen haha...but anyway, he is still adjusting himself, just like what you said, give him so time and be happy to be with him no matter what. I hope everything will be fine for you 2. Hehe.... Everyone take care k? I will blog lesser in this 2 weeks because i will need to study for exams already.... haha Melissa force me to....well....she already gave me some lecture already....and now could only chat with her twice a week, max 1h each time ( stupid thing....cheh i doubt she can resist herself for not chatting with me hahaha!!!! SHIIIII!!!!! hehe ) Anyway, see ya everyone.

Time to go

2009-03-17T13:03:00.000-07:00

Oh yea i am now writing this post on Wednesday 7 am.... I just bade my parents goodbye. They left a while ago now and should be on the federal highway to Sydney for the plane back to Malaysia. This last weekend it was rather enjoyed and eventful, but with the exams approaching, i know i have little time to get myself prepared. Still, i make full use of my free time with my parents on Monday and Tuesday as well... but now it is time for them to leave already, and it is time for me to wake up from my sweet dream.... and start preparing for what lies ahead. One thing i was extremely frustrated of was the AIR ASIA....i was looking at their promotion and got cheated.... what Melb to KL only 190 AUD...Bullshit! Haiz....it was like 350 AUD...return ticket plus tax....1000+ AUD.... and the result of it? I am stuck here for at least 3 months more. I miss Melissa and everyone else. I guess the only positive side of it is that i can work more during that break and earn more money. At least then go back can go traveling with Melissa :) Haha to be honest, I had make a big fuss about going back during April break with my parents and after they like....'do as you like'....i just can't put my finger on the keyboard and do the booking. It is expensive and much more from what i am expecting. I decide then that i am not going back.... I thought since i am the eldest.... Perhaps i need to act more rationally...and maybe....start thinking about how valuable that sum of money can be.... My parents always want me to be my siblings role model.... result otherwise of course haha! Now that i am definitely not going back, I couldn't go back and accompany Melissa to her first week of university and her new accommodation. Also, i can't bring her to whatever David Archuleta's function. I thought since she got straight A's, and that is one of the thing i can give her as reward. Geez.... anyway, just hope i can work lot lot, study well well....and earn much much. *Note, much is uncountable. Haha!!!! But really, 12.5 AUD per hour is considered cheap...well below average, and is for trainee haha, not bad! Hehe, really finding a job desperately now!!! ok, 7.30 d, have to make a move now, i have got to prepare for Spanish class and Biology tutorial. Oh yea and i had buy a bike too....not that cheap in ringgit...230 AUD but if compared to other new bikes in Australia, normally it will be like 300? or maybe 200 for secondhand or the most expensive or most crazy bike i ever seen.....few thousands? Haha, oh well really late right now, take care everyone!!! Adios

New Look back from Sydney

2009-03-16T03:32:00.000-07:00

I just came back from Sydney, and it was tiring...really. So this was it. I went to Sydney on Friday evening, and managed to arrive at around 10.45 at Sydney bus station. Phew, and when I met up with my family who arrived early morning on Friday.... They brought me back to the hotel to have my rest. The hotel....The Holiday Inn...not important....where is it? I only know it is near King Cross Street. This brought back the memories of Arvin and me....when we last discuss about that street haha...well....and i really miss those time in college...or even just...those time back in Malaysia. Anyway my family and i went to for a one-day-Sydney trip. Few memorable one were the Blue Mountain and the ferry trip back. Then oh yea....i watched how MU got crushed by Liverpool....haiz, and on Sunday, we ate Thai Food again and we went to Sydney Opera House too. Quite nice the environment in it, very beautiful i thought.... What else....hehe of course was my hair cutting...haha i cut my hair in Sydney...and the picture above is my new look now haha, no more long hair already....time for a change of luck and look ;)

Cracking

2009-03-05T15:25:00.000-08:00

Oh yea it was cracking...My knuckle. Haiz, i don't know why, but it was so painful, probably i touched too many detergent with my bare hand. Now, it was like sliced with a small knife, so many cracks appearing. Next week end i am going to Sydney to meet up with my parents. Haha i know i mention this before but it don't hurt emphasizing it right? Haha. Now the semester started, and it was so busy and tiring. My schedule is so tight, i wonder how am i going to fit if i am going to work part time? Gez.... Arggghhh, and it is still so far away from July. Haha now i miss family, friends and food!!!! Haiz...living in another country all alone is much harder than i thought haha, but except for some loneliness, i think i did pretty much alright here haha! As great and confident guy am i won't have a problem right? Haha... but oh well...even the internet here is so expensive... I can't online a lot to chat with anyone.... not mentioning there will be a time gap where my time will be 3 hours earlier than others. The hours my friends normally online would be around 2am for me...Gosh, it is just impossible for me to stay awake till that late. Luckily though, Melissa always online to accompany me whenever i want to, haha so glad i have her with me...even though we are seprated by great distance...some mental supports nevertheless are important for me, given that i am more or less lonely here. But oh well, no use i keep complaining here... I am a man, haha and who am i? I am Caesar, a dictator, don't forget that haha, i won't run away from trouble or challenge haha (yea right...) wow...it is a rather long post for a while already. Alright then, have to go...
Adios...(spanish) hehe

Uncomfortable

2009-02-28T23:32:00.000-08:00

Currently, I am writing this in a rather sick state. I wonder why, i just have a bad headache and body just feel so hot. Damn! Sunday is supposed to be a rather enjoying and relaxing day...well....not for me, and more specifically, not today! I made Melissa unhappy in the morning, then i was made to wait for the stupid fridge to arrive. It all started on Friday when i played some 2 hours or more basketball. Since then, I have pains all over my body....haiz...Oh yea, parents are booking their flight to Australia on 13 of March, I am looking forward to it.... They will bring me lots of cooking utensil and all the things i want hehe...

Nice day out

2009-02-23T03:48:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a great day out with Yun Xin and her friend. We went Illawara and Wollonggong... We went to see waterfall too...and it was really a great trip given that it was suppose to be a rather eventless Sunday. Yun Xin's friends were funny and friendly, all of them were really helpful and i really appreciate that...Thanks for everything Yun Xin and all you guys.

New gang...

2009-02-21T03:26:00.001-08:00

Here i kind of join a new gang...but seemingly similar characteristic haha... Ivy is so much like Tze Sin....kind of troublesome and yet useless at times haha(this is not like you though ts)...Pricilla...Kind of like Siok Kim...well just bit bit...haha because both of them like shopping...and so that make them look like ts and sk. Tuck Wah is like Chung Guan...haha, according to Ivy, Tuck Wah is very calculative and very stingy...haha very much like cg if...of course according to others' description of cg(not me though...because if cg is stingy, i am too haha) So yea, and i guess we will form a cooking group together and so can save lot more money yea....tomorrow going out with M'sia neighbours, Yun Xin, hope i will have a happy day then bye!

Thanks for the present

2009-02-20T02:59:00.000-08:00

Every night...before i close my eyes... I will look at the photo frame my sister did for me.... A photo frame with all my family members in it (and i looked so cool YEA!!!) haha. It was really sweet...with all the little messages decorating the photo and acting as a frame...Brilliant!!!! It was such a great mental boost. It was like every night.... without fail, i will look at it and smile... Thank sister. Next is Melissa my dear. She made a 3-quarter-bottle full of daily quotation overnight....and really it touched me a lot. But then when i reached Australia, and after i got back my luggage...i opened up the valentine present she gave me- a leather wallet...with her photo in it. Cool... i like it really much....i appreciate ur photo very much. It means a lot to me.... both this photo...(family photo as well as Melissa photo) were things i will take extreme care of in Australia...i will definitely treasure it. One sad thing though...in ANU there is no Taekwondo...only Jujitsu or Karate and Kick boxing as well as other stuff...damn...don't know what should i choose la... right now i just joined Malaysian Society only.... See how things work out la...bye

Torrid week in Australia

2009-02-19T00:19:00.000-08:00

Really you can't asked for any worse than mine.... Going there all alone... and all in a sudden, luggage gone? Oh my god, you couldn't believe how helpless i was at that moment...No cutlery or simply nothing...No towel... No pillow...and not even a blanket were provided... sad case..... I barely hold on to that situation....

But...she gives me life and hope...Melissa...really, your encouragement at that vital time really was crucial... I became tougher and really tried to move on...and now i made it...

I was lonely last time...but you said i will find some friends and and i had got some now...really i couldn't have made it without you... You had been so important to me and you will continue to be very important to me as well...

And at this point, i just finished reading your email...and i understand your feeling very very much... You should be unhappy... i understand that... but i can just say one thing...everything i had do for you...was solely for you....no other meaning than the plain...you means whole lot to me... I understood now why you had been so unhappy over days... The accommodation here was organizing a party...and i just joined....and i also knew that you felt left out because i had not called you that often or even called you that long anymore...but i hoped you can understand...you are not the fallen tree in a busy road....and you will never will be one.

Those past post...were yea...obviously for her....but not after mid of January though... It is true that i loved her a lot last time...but now we are together....and i have never feel so happy and satisfied or even assured before....really, i could not find any other words to express my feeling anymore...just, I love you, and i hope to continue our relationship for as long as possible.

Goodbye everyone

2009-02-13T14:40:00.000-08:00

I don't know why... I just feel that this departure is quite emotional....probably because this time i am going to somewhere far far away.... and probably...this time is the twist of my life.... First time in my whole life... I am going somewhere far....ALONE!!! I not really scare though....or excited.... Still, i feel sorry for Melissa because i can only spend a little time with her on this special day. Anyway, I am leaving today(Valentine's Night). I just want to thank everyone here for all their support all this while.... First of all 5s3.... I didn't invite so many people on my farewell party...but in the end it ended as though it is yet another of 5s3 reunion, which is NICE!!! Well even though i m busier than i expected, but i m glad to be busy. Next come G1....I am so grateful to be able to involved in this class activities all this while...College life is really busy right guys? But all well....we have killed SAM rights? So no more worries hehe....

Now i will pick out few people to personally thank them myself.... First of all, Tien Wei, my primary school best friend, i couldn't believe it when you were in my party, it means so so much for me....thanks... Second, Ying Sing... thanks for still supporting me all this while...I told you quite a lot of things about relationship...so yea, you are a few primary friends i still in much contact, that's why i trust you much =) Third up.... Of course who else but another best friend of mine.... Choon Yon. We have been going out quite a lot recently to eat bak kut teh....and or go play cyber last time... I am glad to know you....you are a sincere friend, you care for friend, and that alone make you a very very nice friend. Following up is....Lee Beng and Arvin, I put both of them in same rank because they practically 'hate' each other haha...but both of them really accompanied me a lot....and helped me a lot too...thanks for all the help and sincere advice. Kah Wai....Friend with by far....perfect personality...really, i have nothing negative to talk about you... Whenever i look at you, i will feel embarrassed....how terrible i am...great friend in conclusion. Chung Guan...thanks for being at my side all this while, it is you who encourage me to study hard thanks ;) Chong Tat and Siok Kim....almost forget you two haha, nahhhh....thanks really i am rather speechless already....but i just want you two to know that you two have make my life beautiful by Siok Kim your laughter and Chong Tat humours at times too...Up next is going to be my top 3 that i feel so so thankful of....3rd....goes to who else but Tze Sin.... I think Tze Sin would not be happy that she is ranked 3rd...but of course, 3rd...is the highest i can give to my very very very best friend....and of course, leader of our gang. You have been very helpful all the while....and even though your Italianese birthday surprise didn't work out....it is just so sweet of you to thought of that....thanks....2nd...is well you all should know her very well....Kit Yee. Of course, why would i hate her...after all, those memories of us being together so closely in those 4 months....it is just so so impossible to erase her....I just hope we will be good friends still, those memories make you someone really important in my life....even after what have happened lately...

1st goes to Melissa Pillay, my girlfriend of course. Who the hell would dare to place his gf in second place haha =) Thanks for this short yet extremely sweet 2 weeks memories....it was really great...really... in such a short span, we have went to all over the places....from almost everywhere in Klang to KLCC.... You have lightened up my life when it is at its darkest point.... and really really... even though now i not putting much hope into it....deep down in my heart, i wish that our relationship can go on....lesser date might be a problem, but now with you having Skype....at least we can see each other still... I said it once...No one will bother us....or bless us...they will only criticise....i just wish that i am able to prove the critics wrong....I would not we definitely can work out....but we will see....

Goodbye everyone.....Farewell....

Lagoon Date

2009-02-12T04:43:00.000-08:00

Today Melissa and I went to Sunway Lagoon. We bought a ticket of 3 parks-water park,amusement park and scream park...and it was really really great and nice! Actually we should had go there on Tuesday but...somehow the stupid Lagoon off on that day...so yea, we came today again. Melissa was learning how to float when we were in water park....haha i had to catch her a lot of times...if not she might had drown a lot of times already haha....still she insists of going to the deep region...>1.5m....so yea,haha I was quite busy. We also played the all the slides and water tunnels....really exciting!!! Before we went for our lunch, we sat under a big 'mushroom' and wauuu...relaxing....haha.... The scream park though....was really fearful....shocking....haha Melissa kept holding my arms tightly and kept pulling me to catch up the front line....scared to be left behind to get frightened perhaps haha....and i just dragged by her all along the journey haha.... We had dinner at Station One near Giant after coming back from Subang....and oh yea, a couple was splitting in front of us....the girl cried....sad. Erm...my body now is like red hot...gosh, forget to put on sun block cream....i am so gonna be a blackie d haha. Ok, i better go pack my stuff now....not finish yet haha ;)

Useless piece of shit

2009-02-10T03:53:00.000-08:00

Useless piece of shit...that is the word that suit me the best now. I know i am selfish, stupid, not knowledgeable.... Yea, i am just so not good...yea, i just so irritating....and i too love to dig up old wounds.... Yea yea yea...i am just a selfish person after all living in the world of myself.... YES!!!!!! I'M JUST A PIECE OF SHIT...FINE!!!!!! I don't need sympathy...I just don't know how to satisfy everyone....i do this...i am wrong at another... i treat this person...i hurt another.... Sometimes...i just don't know what should i do... I am really helpless....i always could not get the best solution out of a question.... I am just...so useless... There are times that people just judge someone from their wrong doing....what if they have reasons behind it? A story perhaps? I am selfish and i always live in a world of mine? Where are the peoples when i am in the darkness, crying alone.... Did you really understand what i been through for the whole last 2 months? After all that months, i learn to be independent or perhaps more to being alone and try not to trust too many people... You just never know when they will just launch a missile on you....you never know when they will turn their head against you...Really...sometimes people closer to your heart...could just flinch you easily.... FINE!!! It is good i am leaving anyway.... I am just an eye sore.....leaving will give everyone peace....I am of no good.... bringing disaster after disaster....fair enough.....How can i be so stupid that i even don't know about the fire in Australia? Great, perhaps i can just jump into the fire....i like fire....i like red...and right now, perhaps that is just the place i should go to....

Ending of Taek...what is next?

2009-02-09T06:10:00.000-08:00

Sunday...an emotional day for me...that day was my last day of training...taekwondo training in center....I tried to be as aggressive as i can...tried to win all the sprint...everything...i just wanted to be perfect...for the last day... Master Tan gave us a sparring section for the last 30 minutes...as what i had wished for...and i sparred for most of it...as long as there was a empty slot...i will slot in and sparred...and it was just so much fun....And i had sparred like 8 times or 9...and ended it with 6 sparring match in a row, damn exhausting....in the end. But it was just so much fun. After the training, in full uniform, i thanked Master Tan for his teaching for 5 years. It touched my heart when he said he was glad to have me as his student....and before i left the training...i gave Master Tan a full 90 degree bow...as a token of my appreciation and respect. As much as i concerned... He is the one that made me who i am today... Thanks Master Tan. I will make you proud in the future...i will remember you forever....You gave me something very very great....and that was taekwondo...Yes...i still couldn't match up with any seniors yet...but...I am proud of myself....I tried my best to catch up with the difference of 5 years trainings and experiences.... Whether or not i will continue training abroad...that will be a different story... last line of mine is.... Thanks for everything Master Tan....and all my friends too...THANK YOU!!!!!

Thanks for coming

2009-02-01T06:40:00.000-08:00

Wauuu...i was really really tired...especially during taekwondo training...just can't keep myself going...i was so poor now....can't even stand the training for more than 1 hour...there was like another 30 minutes training at least...haiz...looks like i really gained some fat during Chinese New Year...and yea i was still feeling very tired...which for sure was caused by yesterday busy BBQ party...i was like sleeping at 3.30 and woke up at 9....dying...luckily MU still won, if not it would be worst haha.... Talking about the BBQ party...thanks a lot for everything 5s3... it was a really great support from you all.... I thought of just inviting some of it only because most might not make it...well in the end, half of them came uninvited haha...not that i was complaining though haha XD...but of course...i had endure a torrid night with all the phone calls haha....Bandar Botanic really a maze isn't it? hehe.... oh yea, thanks for your present too yea... well...until now i haven't touch the present yet...so yea...i don't know what you all gave me yet but anyway thanks...and yea i thank Choon Yon, Chong Tat and Chung Guan for staying overnight too... it was great to continue having some fun even after midnight haha.... it was really fun playing cards with you all...even though i loss all the time haha...oh yea, thanks Chung Guan too for watching football in Sri Melur with me haha...Hope everyone enjoy yourself in the BBQ party yea! And...this is the photo of my girlfriend Melissa ;)

Subang Parade

2009-02-01T06:11:00.000-08:00

Second date... was on 30 of Jan (Friday as well). We went to Subang Parade this time...well the truth was i was asked to accompany sa because her mother had a reunion with her friends...and sa decided not to join their lunch so yea...it happened perfectly for our second date hehe... After we had our lunch, we started to walked around...and i started to buy a series of stuff for her...haha.... I asked her to be the model this time...testing 2 shirts...which i bought one of it in the end. Next was a doll :) We went to a shop lot...and yea we saw some cute dolls and what was so great? The dolls we liked were sold at a 'buy one free one' promotion!!! Hehe, of course i bought one for her and i got another identical one for myself haha...couple doll it seemed XD.... Oh and i gave her another gift....well...actually it should be more appropriate if i give this on Valentine Day but well....to be on the safe side....i asked her to come to a stall and choose a ring that she liked and...of course to make sure the size of the ring was nice too... Haha, she was so surprised....and we choosing a nice ring for around 30 minutes haha... After that we went back to Klang with her mum dropping me around Jusco.... It was a great day after all....yyeeaaaa!!!

Dating with sa ;)

2009-02-01T05:25:00.000-08:00

Wahhh...it was such a long time since i last blogged....haha i had been so so lazy...haiz, i had gotten a layer of fat around my stomach....i hated myself so much now haha!!! On 23rd of Jan(Friday), it was my first date with Melissa( in short i will call her 'sa'). Well...we went to One-Utama and had a movie...'Bride War' haha...it was so funny and nice the movie...and we had a wonderful time too!!! We had our lunch in The Garden...really fairytale like the surrounding....well...that was of course according to sa la! Erm...we walked around then...and oh yea, she wanted me to try some formal outfits....i was made to be a model for her haha....and in the end she bought one for me. So yea, that was a present she got for me....really embarrassing...haiz...but still it was so sweet haha...i couldn't deny it XD Oh yea, when we were planning to go back....we spent another 1 and 1/2 hours finding my car...i felt really really stupid...haha. Eventually we found it with us going out and entered the basement parking again...this time by foot haha...sa made a mistake of remembering the parking slot after all haha but it was also my fault too for not remembering it haha ;) then that night we went to watched Tze Sin ballet performance before i sent her home.

Sweetest cookies ever ...

2009-01-21T08:13:00.000-08:00

Today i went to Life Care Diagnostic to have my medical checkup. Before leaving house, my parents were like giving me more and more money...saying that it might not be enough...In the end, my left pockets contained a sum of RM800...zzz...and the sum in fact....was just RM205...haha... And i had to drive all the way to the unknown place...God knows where it was... Unexpectedly....i found it very much easy to spot...and i managed to get myself a parking slot...well...not exactly a parking slot...but still, i got myself a parking ticket and put it in my car... I wondered since when i started to get myself a parking ticket...haha...oh yea, i met Eva too in the Diagnostic centre. She somehow had to redo her urine test...hehe Eva, what happened? haha!!! Oh yea, back to Windmill... Melissa gave me her hand-made cookies!!!! Wauuu...there were so lovely and they tasted great!!!! I couldn't believed it!!! Haha...The cookies were probably the sweetest cookies i ever had....It was just so so sweet haha ;) Thanks dear....

And..this is by far the list of people going to attend my farewell party...whoever don't find their names in it when they should...inform me immediately!!!

Master Tan and his family(3p), Kin Chin and Meng Yee, Jervenn, Tze Sin and her bf, Chung Guan and Chong Tat, Chuey Wen.

Melissa Pillay

2009-01-18T23:03:00.000-08:00

Ok...19 of Jan...Well...Melissa Pillay is my girlfriend now. I will try to put Kit Yee behind my head now...Those that remains...might just be the sweet memories between us. Yes, i will still be there...like always whenever anyone need a help... That is the promise to all my friends ;)

Melissa Pillay...i have blogged about her before...making some short introduction about her. To be honest...it was indeed shocking that it all happened to this stage...when i realised that i will go overseas soon. One that made her being such an impression in me...was perhaps afterall....'her' shadow....at first! Melissa is another scorpio like her, good in English as well (we communicate in English)....family background, personality and so at times do make me feel that she is a replicate to her. But NO! It may not be long that we know each other...but considering all the time in Windmill....most of the time, we will be standing together and talking...I don't find it a surprise....considering...everyone in Windmill calling us couple or husband and wife....that is how close we are in Windmill...

One thing for sure...Melissa does knows about the fact that she might be living in her shadow... since...they are quite alike in some areas. But she believe in me that all that remains is only memories...and that well...it might sounds ridiculous for some....but well...she is willing to try out the long distance relationship....having confidence and faith in me. I understand...for most of my friend...that this might just be another joke...considering how sad i was just approximately 1 month ago....and now boom!!! A new girlfriend... Melissa might get a point...it is possible that because both of us got hurt just a while ago...and that...we kind of met each other in a right place and right time....and that maybe we just want each other to fill in the emptiness.... Well...i don't know, what i want to say is... another relationship....both seemingly commited...and both like each other. Kit Yee was my first love....those memories in college were impossible to be erased...nor replaced. But now,i thought perhaps it is an opportunity for both Melissa and me to try out a new relationship....after all...just like Kit Yee...Melissa has a her-so-called-lauzy-close-friend...everything just too similar...one thing i hope not same though...is perhaps the outcome of the relationship....

Fever

2009-01-15T05:44:00.000-08:00

Well...Today was my off day and so no work! i woke up at about 8.30am...clearly i was still very very tired...This last few days i really could not sleep tight...constantly wake up and then sleep then wake up again... So yea...and today i went to Aus-Ed for a Australia Pre-departure talk... The talk really was informative and not at all sleepy...so i should said it was great overally! Still...before i went for the talk...i did my gym training at 12pm...but i felt very weak...God knows why...so i did not do as much as usual and had to stopped earlier than i expected... After the talk....i had a chat with some going-to-be-ANU-student...strangers i should said...but well... I played basketball after that, and went back to my house and found myself extremely wore out and whole body was red hot... Not to say that i lost my appetite completely...erm...not exactly...but maybe lost about 50 to 60%?..but FEVER!!! Holyshit....i was not going to Windmill to check them up afterall...Ok, i guess i will just stop here...bye

Lazy...

2009-01-13T07:14:00.000-08:00

It had been a while since i last blogged...felt damn lazy, haiz... I will just talked about recent things in Windmill and some details of my daily live then. Starting with Windmill then, there had been 4 new faces in the past 10 days...the first that came was an Indian guy...Reuben if not mistaken...Well, he knows how to take order now...and that makes our (captain and me) live much easier...or should i say...sometimes too easy...he kept taking all the orders...and so...most orders were taken by him. Last Friday came a Chin-dian (i don't know what is the correct spelling,correct me if i am wrong)...and most importantly...is a GIRL!!! That news was like a waves spreading so fast among us(people in Windmill)...haha XD...Most people were like wauuu...finally a girl?! haha... Yea she came and she was like...a Chinese more than a Chin-dian(Chinese and Indian)...Melissa Pillay and bla bla bla was her name. Then yesterday came another 2 guys...a chinese and an Indian i guessed...not really know them much yet since just the second day...anyway...about me then, well, I was having my gym training back in my schedule now. Not only that, I actually went to training on Saturday in primary school...Very much different... and it seemed that there had been a lot of red and red black belt...as well as black belt already...Well...I missed my number 1 position a lot though XD wakaka... I was like barking my sister...'It is all your fault that i will be late and could not get the number 1 place d'... My sister was like replied....'Who dare take that place when you present.' Haha, and i was really lucky enough, she was right after all. Chee Kiang (black belt) took one step back and allowed me to slot into that top right corner after i arrived. In fact....the whole row had a big change...My sister was like standing beside me too! Ok, too much of taekwondo suddenly...Lets change a topic...erm....Oh yea, recently i watched football in the hostel (windmill) with other staffs... The night before yesterday's me and Jyam(captain) went mamak to watch how ManU crushed Chelsea into pieces...So Shock!!! haha... Ok la i guess i have write too much huh? Lets continue next time then shall we? Bye ;)

Gang reunion

2009-01-07T06:07:00.000-08:00

Well,Tze Sin told me last week that today our gang will go out together....maybe for the last time before i leave...so yea, i only work during lunch time and after that we went out. We had a seafood steamboat buffer dinner just opposite Sunway Pyramid. We like started eating at 5.30(the few earliest table that time) and stopped eating at 8 like that...haha holy shit,i almost threw out everything when i rushed to bathroom. Talking about our gang, it actually expanded! Haha, i meant that the number of gang increased by 1. Of course, that was Choon Long...Tze Sin boyfriend (not you la cy) haha XD. There were times i called Choon Yon instead, how embarrassing.Oh yea, not forgetting that they made something for me...well...i guessed i should just give all the credits to Tze Sin, Siok Kim and Choon Long gua...haha, they were probably the one making it...The thing...is weird...but the thoughts that count...and it is so sweet of you all(ts and sk especially).Thank you too Chung Guan and Chong Tat that despite you all have school during morning..you are willing to spend your rare...evening free time with me ;) We kind of left at about 8.45...after Siok Kim molested me XD...sounds so wrong haha... That time, ts was like punching my chest for fun...then after she said, i got...'breast'...zzz...you know the outcome of it? Ts was like holding my arms, and sk was trying to touch!!! What the hell!!! I liked kept retreating nia haha,sk! You really scared the shit out of me haha ;) Even when we left, i was so scared when you wanted to hug me that time haha! Anyway, thanks for everything la you all...I will miss you guys...but seriously, i might not be back even during the semester break...lets see how thing goes la...

The picture below is the thing they make specially for me...thanks a lot!

*Actually the one making it was just ts...haha i knew it the next day and so i i will say it here.
*Sorry ts boyfriend...Jun Loong, i spelled wrongly your name...haha...sorry ya ;)